Chapter four

I wake up in my bed with blankets on me. At first, I think it was all a dream. But I see the scrapes on my knees from falling so I know it's not. The smell of pancakes and bacon fills my nose. I get up and change into my tank top and shorts. I walk out to the kitchen and see Kathie. She flips the pancakes and leans on the counter watching a baking show.

"M-Morning," I say stuttering I look away quickly and wipe the tears out of my eyes that formed when I spoke. She looks at me and walks over grabbing my hand softly rubbing it with her thumb.

"You doing okay?" She asks I look into her eyes trying not to cry I know if I speak I will so I just look down and nod.

She pulls me to the table and sits me down then places food in front of me. She grabs my big fluffy blanket and wraps it around me. I stare blankly at the food salivating but not eating.

"What's wrong? Aren't you hungry?"

"I..." I don't know how to answer I am but I feel I'm not worthy to eat. I push the plate away and lay my head on the table. Kathie rubs my back and lifts my head and pushes the plate closer to me.

"I know you don't want to eat, but I care too much to let you go without food," Kathie says giving me a soft smile.

"Okay.." I sniff and eat slowly. She sits and eats as well. I lay my head on her.

"How are you feeling?" Kathie asks trying to understand my feelings better.

"Cold...empty...tired....broken....but the pancakes helped," I say looking down at the empty plate. She grabs my hand and I look at her then at our hands.

"Oh right.." I walk to my room grab my purse and pull out my wallet.

"No no no, that's not what I want silly" Kathie says chuckling softly.

"Then..why are you holding my hand?" I ask confused. Kathie gets yo and get's close to me and she gets closer to my face.

"You know that stuff yesterday. I want that to be real." Kathie gets even closer and wraps her arms around me. My heart beats faster and faster.

"I would like that, very much" I slowly get close to her and kiss her soft lips. After the kiss, I walk to my room and sit on the bed. My breath gets thicker and I start to hyperventilate. I cover my mouth and close the door quickly then lock it.

"You alright Maia?" Kathie asks leaning on the door.

"Yep fine" I manage the words but after the words, I start to choke up panic fills me and I have a panic attack I quickly hug a pillow and try to stop it but I can't.

"Maia what's going on in there!" Kathie says worried and panicked. I try to speak but I can't tears roll down my cheeks. Kathie unlocks the door and runs in.

I look at her and quickly run to the bathroom I close it quickly but she opens it fast and grabs my arm trying to stop me from running.

"Maia tell me what's going on!" Kathie exclaims worried and scared. I gasp for air and cry more. Kathie doesn't ask any more questions she pulls me close and hugs me. She runs her hand through my hair calming me down.

"S-sorry" I stutter take a slow deep breath. Slowly I am able to breathe normally again.

"Why didn't you just tell me" Kathie rubs my cheek and looks into my eyes.

"I..I get really scared and...I didn't want to scare you.." I look down and she holds me closer.

"I'm staying here tonight and if you feel like your going to have once again come grab me okay?" Kathie says rubbing my head. I nod and we sit on the couch watching a movie. She stays close to me the rest of the night. I'm doing fine...in till..