Chapter 6

I wake up the next morning. I check my phone. 5 story mentions, a DMs from a bunch of people I don't even know and two texts. I open the latter. One is from Martina. She said she was sorry but Lorenzo and her were in an intimate moment. I text back "What? Where you two fucking each other haha."I sound mean, and I kind of mean it because I'm half mad, but I don't want to hurt them or anything. The second text is from Savannah.

Savannah:

[7:25]: check your insta asap

Rose:

[7:31]: I saw the notifications, haven't opened yet.

Savannah:

[7:31]: do it make that shit stop its embarrassing

Rose:

[7:32]: Fine, but please use punctuation.

I open the mentions. It's all teasing me about 'two italian lesbians, one hot, one ugly. Who you gonna chose?' I hate it. I've never said that I had a crush on Savannah, I did but only in my head and I didn't confirm anything. I don't even have one, it's just a stupid celebrity crush but I can't explain it, can I? Well, I guess nothing would change, but yeah, it would be easier to forget.

I read the DMs. They're homophobic insults. A girl gave me a warning to not be surprised if they don't insult Savannah, that they discriminate only non-popular people and are anti-discriminatory with the populars and the teachers. Great. Just great. I thank her and make myself a mental note to keep an eye open for her. I answer to each DM and story mention that I definitely do not have a crush on Savannah and to leave me alone. I fake that I am ill so my grandparents make me stay home. I decide today is a me day. I'm gonna switch off my internet and not watch my phone or my computer until tomorrow. Well, my computer only for watching YouTube and writing my book. God, I really fucking love writing, maybe I can get lost in that. Yeah, that's my plan. I write it down on a notebook. I'm going to sleep a bit more, then make my bed, have breakfast and get into the Jacuzzi, I still haven't tried it yet. Then I rip out the page and stick it to the wall. I go in the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea. When I'm done I go back to my room and take my clothes off, putting on just a robe. I go towards the Jacuzzi. Damn I can't wait for this, I've been wanting to take a bath from forever. I get into the room and put my Kindle next to the bathtub. I let the water flow and look outside. The whole wall is made of glass, just like my room, and I have a beautiful fucking view, I can see the whole city. Well, not all of it but I can see most of the city and the sea. And it's put in a way that no one can see me. I go into my room to wait, putting in my Watch Later list some videos to, well, watch later. This afternoon I'm going to write until five, then I'm going to watch YouTube. I get back to the Jacuzzi, almost full. I take off my white robe and put it on a wicker chair with a white cushion on it. I get in, hot water burning my skin in a relaxing way. When it's full I turn the bubbles on.

Two weeks later I finally go back to school. Apparently Martina and Lorenzo really were fucking each other, they got into a relationship when I left. I suppose I was in the way before. I guess now our friend circle will be awkward. We haven't been talking that much anyway, so yeah, I got it wrong when I thought that with them it would be different.

Savannah's duty to help me orient myself is finished, but since we have to keep the same desks in each class, I'm always next to her, which is quite annoying. The crush rumor stopped, but people still look at us and laugh. Less than the day she gave me the tour though. It's torture sitting next to her, she makes me feel things I don't think I want to feel. She also keeps treating me not nicely and it's irritating. I haven't made any friends, I can't spot the girl that warned me in my DMs. Savannah told me not to trust anyone so I'm not talking to anyone, that way they won't make things worse.

"Whey, it's the lesbian fuckface." I look up and three guys walk over to my desk. Savannah starts laughing, God knows why, she's a lesbian too, everyone knows it, and leaves.

"What do you want?"

"For you to suck my dick." He grabs my chin and makes me look up at him. "They say you aren't hot but you aren't bad either. And lesbians are hot, I think you could do the job."

"I've never done that kind of job and I'd like to keep it that way."

"Pussy. And I mean you're a pussy, not what you want. Shall I precise, Savannah's."

"What don't you get of the word 'lesbian'?"

I stand up and leave, infuriated. As I start walking, one of them puts their leg out and I trip. I hate this school even more. I think I prefer my life in Italy. Before all my father stuff happened. Who am I kidding, I would have really sucked someone's dick in that school. And I already have, just not from someone at school.

I go to the school canteen and get in line. People start overtaking me. I try to get back to where I was before but they keep pushing me back. I give up and go to the toilets. Girls look at me bad and when I go to wash my face, the ones that were doing their makeup keep a five feet distance, as if I were infected by some illness or something.