Chapter 15

Savannah puts her hand on my back and pulls me towards the lane. Butterflies in my stomach make me feel a bit seasick but not in my bad way, as tingles set off by her touch fire around my body. I can hear my heartbeat racing and becoming louder. Cold shivers run up and down my spine, I feel lightheaded and confused. This is not good. I'm not meant to catch feelings for a girl who will surely break my heart. But she's so nice, but then she might not be genuine. Gosh, why? Why does it have to be like this?

She tells me to turn around and my body does automatically as she says. She comes behind me, her body against mine, grabs my waist and tells me to put the ball in the other hand and to put my right leg backwards. When I obey she grabs my right wrist and shows me the movement. I can't even think anymore. All I feel is her body on mine and her breath on my neck. Then she asks me something but my brain doesn't process. I just stay there, eyes focused on the ball, trying to make sense when nothing does anymore. Shit, I should stop this. I shouldn't catch feelings. Maybe talking to Martina and Lorenzo would help, they always help. But we don't talk anymore, I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. Suddenly I don't feel her body against mine physically, but I feel as if it's still there, no doubt my memory playing dirty tricks on me. I hold onto the feeling though, I don't want it to go away, I want her to stay there forever. No Rose, this is not how you're supposed to think. She comes in front of me and looks at me, saying something I still can't understand. She grabs my chin and makes me look up at her. I wake up from my daze and look at her in the eye. "You feeling ok? You need a doctor or something? I can bring you if you want. Do you need to sit down?" she looks genuinely worried.

"Huh? No, I'm fine sorry, I'm fine, don't worry."

"Oh, ok. Sure you're fine?"

"Yeah, totally."

At that statement she grins, God knows why.

"Well, good to know I make that effect." she says.

"Wait, what? No no it- no."

"Mhm, yeah. Come on, try to make a shot." She smiles and walks backwards, confidence radiating from every pore. God damn, her sassy ass is getting on my nerves.

I shoot but I don't hit anything. Big surprise that's why I never bowl. I actually tried once before when I was really little and it's just so fucking hard. I hate this.

"Come on, you'll have a better go next time." she says in a mocking tone when I come back. Geez, she is really making me regret this. And I hate also that I hate it but I love it too. GOD WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS. Shit. She's getting flirty again. It would be a really good time if my emotions just went numb for once, without having to go through the hassle of reining them alone.

After bowling we get into a booth and order a milkshake. I don't even know why, considering that after this we're going for lunch. The bowling went horrible, of course she won and I barely hit a pin.

"So, you free Tuesday? No wait, Wednesday is best. No wait, both?" she asks.

"Yes, why?" I say suspiciously. I swear, this girl's bipolar. One second she's all flirty, the next she's cute and vulnerable. Not that I'm complaining. I like both. Until we go to school and she will be back to being an asshole.

"I was thinking maybe Tuesday we could go out shopping with the girls and Wednesday we could go out for dinner alone? Maybe Friday we could go out with them for dinner too."

"I don't know, they don't like me much. Plus, I guess you wanna keep your secret."

"I mean, they don't mind you either, I'm sure if they got to know you they'd like you. And just because I want to keep my secret doesn't mean I don't want to hang out with you."

"Aren't you scared I might leak it? Even if I meant keeping me a secret."

"Nah for both. I never said I wanted to keep you a secret, why'd you think that?" for a second in looks like she might be sick or something but puts on a smile soon after. I don't like this, I want to change the subject but I don't know what to say.

"So, what about Jane?" I blurt out. Shit, really Rose? That's the best you can come up with?

"What about her?"

"You said she was a 'sure thing'"

"Someone's jealous I see." She grins. Geez, please no. I put my head in my hands.

Guess I just have to go with it now. "Speaks the one that would murder Tyler if stares could kill."

"Who even is Tyler?" she sounds mad. Uh-oh.

"The blonde guy that I met before, the one in the lane next to ours." we both turn around and I see him already staring my way. He smiles, embarrassed, looks down, then waves at me. I wave back and turn towards Savannah. She looks guilty, I feel bad now.

"I don't like her, never did. She was just hot and into me, but it wouldn't have been anything more than a one time thing. We're leaving." she says flatly. I think I've pissed her off. Great.

When we get close to the exit I feel someone pat my shoulder so I turn around and see Tyler. I stop. "Hey, could I have, like, your number or insta or something?" he asks nervously. I mean, I know he means it that way but he wouldn't be bad as a friend.

"No you cannot. Bye now." Savannah says in an irritated voice as she grabs my hand and pulls me hard out of the door while I say "Hey!" obviously wanting to give it to him.