Chapter2:goodbye

{watch her fade away from existence as she calls your name for help,but there's nothing you can do,because you are weak}

I am moving to another province to school there. I don't know if I should feel happy or sad. There are many reasons for me to feel sad... I have to move away from my family and friends, I have to meet people who speak a different language and the saddest part is I am not going to see Bryson everyday. Basically there's really nothing to be happy about.

"Mom I cant see my Nikey's!" I was honestly frustrated, because I'm gonna be away from him. I won't see his brown eyes anymore nor see his cute smile every morning. I know i should feel sad about leaving my family, but I see them everyday and yes I am going to miss them too. The thing is they don't give me butterflies and they don't make me blush.

My mom disturbed my thoughts and shouted, "they are under the bed".

So basically I am moving to Cape Town. My mother's sister is located there and she'll basically be my guardian. My mom wants me to move away from Pretoria,because she thinks I will be badly influenced for instance; smoking, having sex, late night parties and losing focus on my academics. My previous school was overwhelmingly bad I admit , and yes my marks were a bit low since I started my 8th grade there, but the important thing was that Ray was there(ugh I'm such a simp). So I will be starting my 9th grade there. I should be excited right..? In Cape Town there's a large ocean and beach, interesting tourist attractions and many exciting activities to do and I can make new friends, plus I'll be in boarding school. Must be exciting I guess.

- " Mom can we go fetch my friends at school so we can have a decent farewell?"

- "sure why not" she agreed.

I did not go to school that day, I had to buy things I needed for boarding school. Later that day my mom and i fetched my friends at school. We went to a nice restaurant and had a nice lunch. We cried and laughed, I was really going to miss these girls. At that moment I was overcome with the feeling of nostalgia. "I'm going to miss you all", I said trying to hold back my tears.

The next day,my parents and I woke up around 5am in the morning to get ready and pack. We got on the first flight to Cape Town. As I was about to get on the plane , I was overwhelmed by many emotions,thinking that I couldn't even kiss Ray goodbye, although he called last night, but it still wasn't the same as being in his arms. I was also sad that I'm leaving my loved ones behind, but a popular saying from my mom states, "this is part of growing up" (AKA:growing pains).

Goodbye everything!