Help Yourself, Help Others

Entry 111:

Linus Ozias POV:

I sit with Yasaka as I comb through the prayers being sent to me via the God system, and thanks to my memory acceleration and partitioning.

It would be overwhelming if not for the fact that my divinity is growing in response to my need to respond to all of them.

Prayers for their families, prayers for wealth, prayers for their own success in life, love, and happiness.

Some beg for forgiveness and others for redemption, and while not all of them deserve it, I need to look at them at least and give them the time to understand and make a decision.

It truly makes me wonder how God did not go mad at hearing all of these prayers and having to keep up with all of these appearances.

You may wonder why I'm not just automating the process because it would take away the fundamental aspect of faith.

Knowing that someone is there listening and someone is there to guide you in your lowest of times, eventually, I will be able to handle the system passively and not have to actively focus on it, but for now, I look through the billions of prayers.

I smile, seeing the happiness that comes from those who seek a miracle and have it granted. Most would be as happy as they would expect if they were good people. Their lives would also be good.

It is the fundamental aspect of karma and understanding one's own self and the consequences their actions have on others. Such understanding is what defines a person's place in the afterlife.

While dealing with all of the prayers, I realize that since I have become a God, I have technically developed a new weakness that being anti-divine weapons could affect me to a higher degree, and as such, I use six of the 10 charges I have to nearly nullify that weakness.

I can never truly get rid of it, but I can make it so that I take damage from it just like any other weapon, similar to how Kryptonians have no defense against magic, but it's not their weakness.

I have also been using my Charisma as a bit of a dump stat as I currently have fifteen charges in that category and, as such, ups it to a point where I could tell someone to jump off a cliff, and they would.

In all honesty, sometimes I see even Rose and Yasaka look at me just to look at me, and while most would be scared of such attention, I revel in it as I know that I will always be in their eye even if I'm not here.

In regards to those two, I have been forwarding our relationships as I've gone on dates, you've had lunch and dinner together, and we have even slept together. It has been a relaxing time.

For Ingvild, she has begun her term at Kuoh Academy at her own behest to reconnect with the world. And while I'm a worry for her, I know this is a necessary next step. I have already contacted the Satans to inform her of her actual identity, and with some very subtle threats, her identity will not be disclosed until she is ready.

I visit her very often, and while she will never admit it, she does enjoy my visits, and we just sit as I listen to her sing, as it has become an almost necessary act for my day.

Currently, the date is April 20th, 2018, and in two months, I have ascended to godhood and become the new Biblical God. Meta essences are terrifying.

Because even now, super devils like Sirzechs and Ajuka cannot even touch me. But while this is something to be celebrated, I will not let it get to my head as there are always bigger fish in the sea, that is, the Multiverse, and while I enjoy gaining power, I will not let it consume my life.

I want to have my own stand from JOJO while making ridiculous poses.

I want to visit worlds like RWBY and Marvel and fix their broken worlds.

I want to see the worlds I visit thrive.

I want to change the narrative.

Is this pride or greed or both?

In my most private moments, I fear failure, and I fear losing myself, but now those are just doubts that will always remain in the back of my mind.

So much to do and so much to say.

But I have the time, the technology, and the magic.

I will only grow stronger from here, and soon enough, I will be able to say quotes like "Do you think killing me is enough to make me die?" and have them actually make sense.

But enough introspection as I feel Yasaka tapping my shoulder, and I disconnect from my active use of the system. Because while I exist, the system shall run on its own.

"Is everything alright, my precious angel?" I smile and kiss her on the forehead, to which she says, "While I appreciate the gesture, that does not answer my question." I then respond, "I am all right, my cunning fox. It is just using the system is an experience, to say the least, as I can feel the weight of all those prayers bear down on me all at once. It is both incredible and demanding, but I shall get used to it."

Yasaka smiles and says, "Well, know that we are always here if you ever require a break, and while I am happy that you are making so many others across the world happy, you must understand that you require your own happiness as well."

Who would have thought that my own girlfriend would parrot Archer's words from Fate Stay Night, as he also mentioned how wishing to help everyone is both the greatest foolishness and selfishness?

It makes sense that if you spend your entire life trying to make others happy, you leave little for your own happiness, and as much as I hate agreeing with the edge lord, all of those thousands of years of experience do teach you something.

I grab her hand as she takes mine, and we sit, enjoying the silence and the skyline of Kyoto as I ask, "My love, can I ask you a question?" She responds, "Anything, my angel." I nod as I say, "Upon further study of space-time magics, I have discovered a means to traverse worlds and not just parallel timelines but entirely separate realities."

She looks at me with intrigue as she asks, "Not that I'm not interested in the topic, my angel, but what is the reason you have broached this topic?" Once I have everything taken care of here, I plan to travel to different worlds and explore, and I was wondering if you would be willing to join me?

She begins pondering her response, but after a couple of minutes, she states, "I will follow you anywhere, my love, but would we be able to return?" I then chuckle as I say, "Well, you see, my cunning fox is that we would never really have to leave forever as I have already planned on creating a space in between worlds that everyone in my organization, as well as my loved ones, will be able to exit and enter at their leisure."

My response causes her to sigh with relief. "I am so fortunate to be in love with such a thorough Angel such as yourself as you could already read my mind."

I shake my head as I say, "I am also lucky enough to have met you, my fox, and I thank whatever powers at play for allowing it to happen."

(THE ROB COUNCIL: SHALL REMEMBER THAT AND SMILE TO YOUR ENDEAVORS)

I then ask my nine tails, "Speaking of which, I am surprised you have never asked about children before since we have been so active." 

Yasaka then smiles and says, "You don't need to worry about me, my angel, as I have already had one daughter, and that is one experience I do not wish to repeat for a while, in addition to the fact that I can sense that you are hesitant I can wait for my love as we have a lot of time on our hands."

I simply pull the fox into a deep and loving embrace while also feeling up her tails, which become sensitive nerve centers when touched by a person they love.

People debate on the relative popularity of various animal-type women, but only I am able to enjoy genuine fluff.

So we just sit enjoying each other's embrace as we watch the night sky together. Rose is busy in her study attempting to replicate the information dimension magic I use, and Kunou is asleep along with Ophis, who has fallen into dinner-induced pleasure comas.

Ingvild is already asleep as she has school the next day, and my organization has infiltrated every faction across the planet. All is well for now.

Soon enough, my next Quest shall begin, but for now, I'm going to enjoy my nine tails and her fluff for now.

(I hope you guys accept my explanation for how he world travels as I don't want to reveal the fact that he is a transmigrator/reincarnate nor that he is under a challenge from a random omnipotent being as I feel like too many stories go into that as I believe the past should stay in the past.)