uncovering magical path

After I hear the promise from my mother, I can feel the strengths and the bond between me and my mother getting stronger. I don't know how I have to express to her, but I was so excited for tomorrow, so I give a slowly and lovingly hunk that I never give it to anyone before and the ways forehead to goodbye and enter my room. It was so silence, not even maid in it's not something that I am fear of but strange. I didn't think so much about it, but I still wonder like my head is just a thunder and go to sleep. I try to sleep so hard, but the way of thinking is just tear me apart, but after a few seconds I sleep heavily because I was so tired, and with a moment that I can't even count, the sun was already rising.

I didn't expect the night to be so relaxing that I didn't even feel myself a driven in the steep sleep. The only dream of I feel my life is just getting more complete but now I will want to become a mage and I have a ton of the sword I am just Power that most people want but for now I don't want to get the head of myself because if I get cocky most people will begin to dislikes me not. I want people to love me no not this my attention it's just I dislikes on innocent people that hurt because my success anyway. I get up from the bed and make sure no one here to change my clothes. I changed them to the training clothes that I always have good; they are not nest because the last time I put them on they are really nasty from the sweat, sweating really not good. I hate it.

I make sure I smell good like the flower in the field, so I walk to that my back knee and sit beside because I need to drink my tea. If I don't drink my tea in the morning, sometimes get through, and so I think it's really sings servant working around finish my cup slowly. I want to be a little bit not in rush today, so when I finish my cup I get up and slowly go to the field that we have to train them, so technically the old ones.

I was training in it and was big for big numbers but this one small because like training on magic you can't fit 30 people in a small room and they can train so not good to see if my mother there of course I see her shining with her white dress is just resemble the purity of Magic she have but I am not in this stuff so.

I go to word her because I am my daughter mother of course she look at me smiling and put her hand on my shoulder with a really tricky smile, 'My lovely daughter today I will make sure you get drained from your mana, don't worry you will not pass out, but you does your limits you have to trust your mother,' with a soft smile as we exchange looks full of, 'of course Mother don't worry.'

But after three moments when we are looking at each other I realized that she wanted drain me from Mana. I didn't understand her at first because her voice was so thin and so lovely, so I think I do wrong thing it's not supposed to tell her okay because she want to drain me from Mana and it's dangerous hi this is expect my mother can be so danger and so lovely at the same time and I know I screw it but that so the only thing I have to do now it's obey, but when I look around I see one soldier here with also beside her I remembered from the first time so I wonder who is this person could be her friend I am excited.

I want to go and finish my freaking training because if I finish tight it will not end up good for me. So my mother put her hand on my shoulder and look at me seriously in my eyes before even she's talking I get to worry because this is not always good thing. So as you know the mana travel through your heart now so it's a big advantage but something it's not right it's not going to your brain and because if one part missing where the mana still you are not balanced so it's a small training you have to understand it you have to sit in a way that will let yourself in ease and make sure all your Madness just forget it try to forget all of things and the only thing you can think about it is what happening now.

So I sit on the grass trying to focus even if my heart was pounding nervously knowing that I will complete the circle of mana in my body but I can't forget about things that hurt my heart so what I can do so I look at the sky as if I just want to tell the sum at how much I have to do to get what I want and I close my eyes as the sunlight just pass through and I wasn't the same position for two hours I didn't sleep but at the same time I forget everything and in sudden feelings of the time stop.

I opened my eyes, lovely and I see myself in the field but different, no one there and the field was full of flowers, some of them blooming, some of them not. But when I look around more, I see a huge pool full of dark water. I get closer to it, and every step I lay on the grass turned to flowers. I also have feelings in my heart that I am doing right things. I worked towards the full full of dark water as I see it. It brings me memories like a photos, some photos about the past, some photos are recent, and all of them breaking me. I didn't know what I have to do, but all of them have one thing in common; it's pain. So, to I have to forgive them, it's just a question going through my mind never stop, so the only way to understand is to immerse myself accepted.

I go through this water even if it is dark and scary, my heart was pounding even faster. But I want to forget and never forgive as I am getting deeper, the water getting clear as if it is not about the way of thinking, it's all about the way of understanding as if I am solving a huge puzzle that no one canceled beside me I get more deeper until the water are so close to my nose. I look around. As the water are getting cleared like a glass when I get up from the water my clothes change the same what my mother wear but it's friends or they have different strokes of colors red green blue yellow but one of the strokes are just pearls even if I am trapped in this place like a blurs and so peaceful.

I close my eyes just go out even if it is so comfortable I need just to make the water around the flu when I close my eyes the useful of clear water getting bigger flowing around flooding every place and when I open my eyes I see my mother looking at me I was smiling softly when she took at me proudly but the soldier was a little bit uncomfortable I look at myself nothing changed and the dress that I see it before never appear again so when I look to my mother and my face full of questions too much in my head as if I am losing my world.

"Mother, when you unlock your mana, did you see yourself in a white dress with some type of color on it? Just a question?" Look at me thinking around sit beside me and look at my eyes and put her finger on my heart. "Look my child magic came from the soul every person have different experience some of them better some of them not but don't tell it to anyone because it is your identity as a mage."

I look at my mother as I can feel flu or the air blow my hair that getting more longer I look at her wandering still no answers she gave me more questions and answers was a soft smile and make sure my hair don't even interrupt her. "Mother, what do you mean by my identity if they know like this small dream?" she look at me and pack my head smiling softly as she grabbed my hand and helped me to get up and when we get up from the grass I feel also a bit less heavy than before this is strange.

I look at my hand a little bit just to demonstrate what happened but instead my mother gave instruction to follow her so I did. We got some magic library as we go to work it no one dared to enter it or some reason but I stood in front the door it was a normal one not big or small but me and my mother we didn't have this issue so when we enter a small boy with glasses and a lot of layers of closing for some reason you look at us judging with his look his uncomfortable and when I look around the library was used I was so amazed in surprise and I love reading so much and no one can understand.

I can sit in it for whole year just reading I became wondering in it just don't to grab one book my mother didn't let me because every time I just approach a book she had my hand so I retrieve it. I know I am 19 years old but like she didn't have to treat me like seven years old and the little boy was legging at me this is not fair. So I am here there's possible of this library and I given advice don't touch any random books because some of them have a magic effect and some of them are dangerous and forbidden so please listen to the magic Tower master it's better for you to have the knowledge for now.

I look at my mother and I look at myself and listen carefully because after all I don't have that much knowledge on magic my mother recommend some books and all of that one of the books was interesting it's just full of different dreams and all of them have meanings and saying what power they hold and all of that and at the same time she was observed me from afar and suddenly get closer pointed something in the book a person that have dream.

"You see her Mia this is a dream the type of dream that you have and see how they know everything about this person just because what they are dreaming about so be careful." I begin to understand at this point and I begin to understand that I have so many things to learn yet I have not even half of the knowledge of most people but I know my only thing that keep me up is my determination and I will find a way to do my magic freely after I get all the knowledge."