Chapter 4

Vanessa sighed and rolled her eyes.

'Such an idiot'

Hoseok smiled cheekily at Vanessa as she slumped in her chair.

"Mommy, mommy, mommy.."

Both Hoseok and Vanessa both turned heads simintaneously as a voice broke into their conservation. Vanessa stared wide-eyed at the little girl who looked barely past one.

Vanessa continued to stare at the little girl, mouth forming an "o".

Without any warning, Vanessa felt a familiar ache in her chest. She was reminded of something she didn't want to reminded of. She blinked back tears.

Triggered. She was triggered.

"Eomma?..." The little girl reached out to grab her hand but Vanessa automatically slapped it away. Remorse washed over her when the girl started to cry.

Vanessa apprehensively looked at Hoseok.

"Hoseok....."

He nodded understandingly and hopped up. He walked over to Vanessa's side and picked up the crying girl. He bounced her up and down and shushed her comfortingly.

"Shhhh it's okay. Unnie isn't feeling well today. Want oppa to get you some icecream?"

The girl's tears came to a slow end as soon when she heard the word "icecream". She quickly nodded.

"Mhmm, can oppa give me icecream?" She then turned to look at Vanessa. "Sorry unnie for bothering you....u-unnie just looks like my mommy. And I can't find h-her." The little girl's eyes started to brim with tears and she could tell that she was going to start crying again.

The sight made Vanessa *almost* cry. But she blinked back the tears and tried her hardest not to cry but instead smile.

"Don't worry after we get ice cream we'll be sure to find your mommy okay?" Hoseok chimed in.

Hoseok turned towards Vanessa to give her an assertive nod. "I'll be back okay Vanessa?"

"Ok..." She mumbled.

When they left Vanessa began to wring her hands as she bit the inside of her cheek. She grabbed her chest as she once again felt the familiar ache. She bit her bottom lip hard as she choked on a sob.

'I cannot cry. I cannot cry. I can't....'

When she tasted the metallic taste of blood from her lips Vanessa quickly got up and headed for the exit. Just as she reached the door she bumped into someone. She mumbled an apology as she continued towards her jeep. But before she could reach her door she was yanked back. She mentally cursed the person who took a hold of her. But before she could say anything the person spoke.

And at that moment if God gave her a chance to end her life right there she would've hastily accepted it.

When the gears in her head began to turn again Vanessa tried desperately to get away from the person's sight. When the person grabbed her hand she began to scream and tried to claw herself out of the person's grasp.

"L-leave me alone, stop, s-stop, STOP!"

Vanessa's words came out in a panic as he didn't let go.

"Vanessa look at me, look. at. me"

Every word he said came out rougher than the one before, along with his grip.

When her wrists showed signs of bruising Vanessa stopped her struggling, her breathing coming out short and raspy.

"Namjoon! Leave me alone! I told you I never to see your fucking face ever again! Why the fuck are you here?!" She screamed.

Before Namjoon had a chance to open his damn mouth again Vanessa found herself out of his grasp and behind someone's back.

"O-oppa!"

Hoseok looked at Vanessa's disheveled appearance and bleeding lip. Without any warning, Hoseok punched Namjoon in the face.

"What are you doing to my sister!! You fucking shit, I told you you're not allowed near her? I told you if I ever saw you near her again I'd beat your ass so hard you'd never be able to walk again."

When Namjoon did nothing but glare back at him Hoseok pushed Vanessa further back and practically ran up to him and grabbed him by his collar.

"Are you not going to answer me, bastard!?"

When he didn't answer Hoseok made a move to punch him again.

Namjoon flinched but nothing came.

Vanessa's hand was placed on Hoseok's shoulder.

"Oppa it's okay, I think he wanted to tell me something.."

Vanessa knew that Namjoon didn't directly tell her that but she could see by the aggressive way he acted with her earlier that he of course did. When Namjoon wanted something he'd act aggressively, he always did.

Hoseok growled.

"Oppa..."

"Vanessa are you fucking crazy!? You're allowing this stupid ass piece of shit to talk to you? After what he did!?"

Vanessa's heart ached at the mentioned memory.

"Oppa it's okay just give us two minutes, that's it." He looked at her like she was completely out of her mind. She looked down. "If you want you can stand - she pointed several feet away from them - right there.....if anything happens."

Hoseok glared at Namjoon.

"Okay, but only two damn minutes okay? Any longer and I'll come rip his head off."

"Okay oppa."

When Hoseok finally went away Vanessa smugly looked up at Namjoon.

"What do you want?"

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"And can you take off your glasses. Why do you even wear them, it's the middle of September." Vanessa looked over Hoseok, who was of course glaring holes at Namjoon. "Anyways take them if you want to talk to me."

"How's it been?" He asked hesitantly after removing his glasses.

"Oh stop the small talk, get to the damn point Namjoon!" He frowned at her tone. "What kind of question is that you asshole! After what you did..t-there's no way I could ever be "okay"!

She felt her self breaking down as the memories sliced themselves through her head. She knew if she didn't do something she'd break down in front of him. In front of this useless asshole.

Namjoon reached for her shoulder. "Listen, Vanessa baby I'm sorr-"

She slapped his hand away. She could not believe he just called at her. But most of all she couldn't believe she almost answered him.

"Who do you think you are calling baby huh, who the fuck are you!?" Vanessa's words were starting to drip with venom.

"Vanessa just listen, I'm sorry for what I did. You should curse me a thousand times, no a million times, a many times as you want. But you know it wasn't all my fault. You st-"

"Are you fucking kidding me? You're kidding me right?! It's all because of you're aggressive and assumptive ass that this, t-this happened." She took in a deep breath.

Vanessa still couldn't believe that this guy had the audacity to talk to her. She couldn't believe he had the nerve to even blame her *all* for what happened. He still could not accept the fact that it was *his* fault for what happened. Because of his damn stubbornness, he couldn't even apologize properly to her and take full responsibility for what happened. And until he did that she decided to never give him a chance to talk to her again.

"Namjoon I'm done for today, I'm leaving." She dismissed him as she walked towards Hoseok. She hadn't made one full step before she was yanked back roughly and slammed against the wall.

"I know I only have a second before your brother comes here and beats my behind. But remember this - Vanessa I know you're little ass will come crawling back for me." He squeezed her butt before sliding away from her. Vanessa felt herself being pulled away before she could react.

"Opp-"

She gasped.

"J-jimin!"

Jimin stood there, in his tall and great glory, grinning down at Vanessa.

"In the flesh and blood."