Chapter 4: The Dream of a Past Life

Now why am I focusing on those memories? Because I realized it was a cartoon version of the world I live in. Yes, my Underworld, my mother, family, all of it was a fictional animation and book series written by an author known as the God of Breast, Ishibumi Ichiei. How did this Human know about my world and put it into a fantasy story and predict the dark future of my Underworld? Was this Human some kind of God Class being from an alien dimension?

Sadly, I only watched this series one time, because I was so embarrassed the first time watching. But I also realized that in my brief recollection of the anime, I was never in it, nor does Rias Gremory exist in my reality. According to my calculations based on my best friend Sona, I was born in Rias's place.

This realization of killing off a person without it being my fault was causing me to have an Identity crisis for a moment. But then I concluded that perhaps the man, Ishibumi Ichiei, had shown me a possible future in my reality. I also realize that my past life as a Human might be the machinations of one of my World's many Gods. Hell, it might even be the work of Heaven's System for all I know, right? Too many soul crushing possibilities for me.

So my takeaway is to not trust my life as a Human too much, because I am Ray Gremory! I do not doubt I am the next heir to my Gremory house and I will not let a dreamlike Human life convince me otherwise. But I have learned things about my Gremory House, Underworld, and my whole existence as a whole that should not be known by others, not even my mother or big brother can know all of this information.

The number one thing I cannot tell anyone... The Biblical God is dead?! This has startled me the most. Is the death of God the reason I received these memories, or did God reincarnate as Ishibumi Ichiei?! This last thought is the most far fetched but possible outcome, because of how I died.

Yeah, I died as a 24 year old and was done with college, and just came home from a job interview. When I came to the apartment where I lived with my girlfriend, I had been told she was leaving me for a high paying job in her old home state, and she wanted to make a new start... Without me.

I immediately, with a broken heart, went for a walk to clear my mind and that is how my unexpected death came in my Human life...

Honk Honk Thud! When I crossed the street, there was nothing, but the moment my foot hit the halfway point, I heard it, the honking of a truck. As I looked in horror, I had enough time to see it was a white moving truck with the plates of... [Truck-kun]

And just as I was struck, I swear on everything I know to be true, the person driving and giving me a smile with a thumbs-up, was none other than, Ishibumi Ichiei!

As I went flying through the air landing on the street, it struck me that I may have imagined all of that in the end.

But what was bizarre was the way I died. I held up my bloody hand, and thought of the scene in the anime when Issei died. No, I did not want to grab boobs, but thought this Truck God, did all of this on purpose to make me think of my current world. So that is why I believe that man to have been the now dead Biblical God.

Well, most of that life is a fading memory, and only the few things I know of my world seem to be in the front of my mind. Sadly I did not memorize things that I saw. But not being able to remember the pain of death, the loss of my lover, and family in that possibly fake life, will not stay in my every thought.

I think my consciousness is stirring, and this crazy dream will end. But now I have a slightly more mature way of thinking going forward. Now I realize how much I have destroyed the visions shown to me. My position that Rias had, my friendship with Sona, the fact I now realize Kuisha Abaddon is my fucking fiance and not just a family friend, sigh. I need to get stronger to deal with the dangerous future many foes may bring to my world and threaten my peace.

Crap, I cannot even save those two cat sisters or even Akeno, because I do not know or remember enough to use my future cheat to save them from their shit fates, damn.

If I am some kind of Reincarnation Protagonist, I have already failed those women... Fuck now I am depressed. But wait, I am only 4 years old, and I cannot change things can I? Who would believe me? My brother might, or he might think I am crazy. Oh fuck and my cousins mother will fall into that dreaded sleep. I cannot change anything. I-I think I might cry now...

As I had finally started to open my eyes, tears had been welling up and falling. I am laying in a woman's arms, as I see my worried mother. Venelana asked me.

"My son, are you still in pain? Tell me what is wrong?"

"I-I had a nightmare..."

I hear noise and through my bleary eyes can see it is still my birthday party, and I must have only been unconscious for a short while. My father, Sona, Kuisha, Grayfia, and even my Brother with Serafall are surrounding my mother and I. So I used my sleeve to wipe my tears and force a smile.

"Sorry everyone, but did anyone see the Truck that ran me over?"

My joke stunned the worried crowd, then my father Zeoticus started to loudly laugh at my joke. He said in a better mood.

"Ha-ha, My boy, you seem to be alright now, in order to tell a joke. But you were not hit by a truck, but by Gautama!"