36. Made up my mind

TYler POV,

Why am I being so mad for no reason!? It's not like Tenor has a choice but to be there with her.

But why am I doing this to my sister? she'll be so broken when she finds out what is going on between Tenor and I.

Damn! Why are things so complicating?! I really need to stop this, it's not right at all. I need to put my desires aside , they can't make me betray my own sister.

I've already wronged her and I can't stop feeling guilty.

..Just as am about to open my door... " Tyler, I know you're tired and you don't want to disturbed as you said but I have something I wanted to talk to you about." he says loud enough just for everyone to hear as he comes upstairs where I am.

"What is it?" I ask .

" It's private." he say in a low tone.

" Am not doing this now , please , maybe later." I say going in my room but I don't lock the door. So he can choose to enter or leave.

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Tenor POV,

What the hell! Is he a chameleon or what? Changing just in few minutes.

I decide to leave him alone and go in my room, I look for something to distruct me, I decide to look into work , I haven't been paying attention to it since we closed for holiday season .

I only have 3days remaining to go back. I have to make everything right before going back.

If Tyler is not gonna tell his sister I'll just do it, I can't bare lying to her anymore, besides, he told me to act normal but now he's the one getting mad for nothing!

Damn ! Love is so dramatic .

I put the laptop aside because there's nothing constructive am doing here,, I keep thinking of the complicated situation am in, I've tried to call him but it's seems he wasn't joking about putting his phone off because it's off now.

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Just what the hell is he upto? It's 10pm and he is still off, he's been taking his meals in his room so I haven't seen him since morning.

I can't take it anymore , I decide to risk and go to his room, how the hell will I call him without Tayler hearing because their rooms are so close.

 I knock but not loudly, there's nothing, I call but still nothing, I try for some more time then give up , I turn to leave but I feel him pull me in by the collar into the room.

"What are you doing? Don't you know how risky this is? Your girlfriend is just few steps away!" he whispers.

I want to say something but nothing is coming out of my mouth , why is he treating me like this? Now I get why they say being in love is to be enslaved. Treating me like this but still wanting him .

" So you're just gonna knock on my door at this time and then refuse to talk?! seriously?"

"Uhm.. sorry to bother you now, I should go back, I don't even know what am doing here." I say heading towards the door.

I just wanted to know what he's upto but if he keeps talking like this to me .. I'll just have to leave him alone until he's calmed down.

He stops me holding my hand and ask, "what were you gonna say?" 

"It's not important anymore." Can't lie , this hurts more than I even thought .

What was his intention calling his sister my girlfriend when he knows damn well am not regarding her like that now!

" Say it even if it's not important, well , now that you're here." I ignore that and decide to leave. 

But he holds my hand again, " Tenor.. what's the problem?"

Is he kidding me by asking that question?!

" What's the problem? Really?! What's the meaning of what you're doing, we were fine in the morning and now you are treating me like am some kinda trash and you ask what the problem is..?! Well, it's you , you are the problem, Why are you like this? Is it because she kissed me? Then for your informtion that kiss didn't mean anything to me and it has no effect on me either. You are the one who told me to act normal , and now you're being dramatic, you asked me to trust you but how can I trust you if you are being like this Tyler??" I really feel like crying but no, am not gonna let myself do that.

" You think it's easy for me huh? Tenor, am fuckin' betraying my sister, I've already betrayed her by doing those things with you last night and in the morning, am stuck between doing what's right and what my heart desires."

"Do you know what's right? Telling your sister the truth once and for all, if you keep lying to her and behaving like this with me you are hurting three people at the same time."

" I can't, we have to end what we're doing Tenor."

" Really now?! You know damn well what that is gonna do to me but you still suggest it , do you even love me as you claim you do?" Well, I said I wasn't gonna let myself drop a tear but I guess myself refused to listen to me and now am f*ckin' breaking down infront of him!

" I don't know what to do okay? There's you the person I love and wanna be with and protect and make happy but there's also my poor sister who is madly in love for the first time and happy with the person I love . I c..."

I cut him , " You say you don't know what to do but am telling you the right thing to do , you just don't wanna listen, the earlier the better, if you can't tell her let me help you, please.."

" No, I'll do it myself, after all I made this mess myself , I'll have to clean it on my own."

" What do you mean you made the mess yourself, it's not your fault, it's my fault.. running into conclusion thinking that I was in love with your sister."

" Whatever, you should go back to sleep, I'll end this tommorow once and for all."

"Will you be alright? I mean I can stay if y..."

" No , thanks for your concern but no need to stay. "

 " Okay, goodnight." I decide not to bother him anymore , I walk towards the door , I hold the handle ready to open but my hand freezes on it the moment I hear him say , "I love you Tenor,, and no matter what I do or how I act always know that the fact remains that I love you so very much, also no matter what happens In the future please always remember that the fact will always remain that you are the first person to show me the meaning of the phrase' I love you'.. good night Tenor." I wish I had recorded that so that I listen the whole night .

I really wanna go back and kiss him but am pretty sure once I get hold of those lips it won't be easy to let them go so I better not, " I love you too , Tyler ."

I say leaving the room hesitantly.