Chapter 50: Dreams and Reluctance.

"What's wrong with me..."

Todoroki woke up, her consciousness is still very vague and her head feels heavy, her thinking state is also in a half-dream and half-awake state, and her perception of the outside world has reached the lowest point.

In her sleep, she seemed to have returned to her childhood.

Under the guidance of the dream, she saw some things that she had no memory of.

That was her memory before she was four years old, a memory completely blurred by time.

The scene in the dream was like this, it was a comfortable and warm afternoon, her father had finished his morning routine hero activities and returned home to change into a blue-black kimono with the gentle help of her mother, her beloved mother had already carefully prepared lunch, because Endeavor was a very strict person, so the whole family didn't say anything during the meal.

But what surprised her most was that Todoroki Enji in her dream was not as hateful as he is now.

In her father's eyes, it seemed that the hatred staring at the distance was suppressed to the deepest, although his expression was still as serious or gloomy as ever, but he occasionally looked at her and her eldest brother with eyes full of expectation, hope, and gentleness that she had never seen before? His gaze towards her second sister and third brother was quite normal.

Seeing seeing such an abnormal father, Todoroki realized that this was just a dream, but she couldn't easily wake up from the dream.

As a prestigious Todoroki family, the dining etiquette is very particular, one of the eleven district gate valves in the era of professional heroes, the face of the Todoroki family, Endeavor naturally sits in the main seat without hesitation, the second seat next to the main seat is the exclusive position of the mother sitting on the left hand side of the father.

The third-ranked position is the eldest brother among the four siblings of the Todoroki family, who is three years older than her, but the face of the eldest brother in the dream is completely unclear, just like being wrapped in a thick fog, very vague, his position is on the right hand side of Endeavor, the first in order.

The second position from the eldest brother is hers.

The two positions on the left hand side of the mother are the second sister and the third brother.

In the dream, the father actually talked to the mother about something on the dining table, but she couldn't hear clearly.

"Second...third...let them decide...okay."

"After all.....I don't want...them to step on...this road..and...they don't have talent...no.."

"What about... and Little .....?"

"..is too weak....slackened....with his talent..can surpass...me."

"It's okay....even if they....will..me....it's okay."

The eldest brother was very resistant to the decision of the parents, he directly put down his chopsticks and left his position.

And the young her didn't know if she understood the meaning of her parents, she just nodded and smiled at her parents in turn, patting her little chest with her little hand as if she was promising something in a baby voice.

The father rarely smiled with the mother, just because he didn't often make this expression, it seemed very awkward.

This made Todoroki, who was conscious, feel even more that this was a dream, first of all, Endeavor had never laughed in her memory, and secondly, she couldn't hear what the young her had said at all.

So far, the first half of the dream ends here.

The second half of the dream world is completely opposite.

It was a gloomy evening, she and the bastard father were training in their own dojo, the second half of the dream was very clear from Todoroki's perspective.

This scene, she could never forget.

Endeavor was wearing a black training suit, the fire on his body was devouring the surrounding air without any scruples, spreading red sparks, his right hand was pressing on the wooden sword, firmly inserted in the dojo.

That was the beginning of the cruel and ruthless hell training on the seventh day.

"Shoto! You are the one to surpass me! Stand up quickly! Strive to learn my technique as soon as possible! Only you can fully exert its full power!"

"Don't avoid me! Don't avoid yourself!"

And the five-year-old herself was kneeling on the ground constantly vomiting due to overuse of Quirk causing stomach discomfort, after all, continuous use of the newly awakened Quirk, the pressure on the spirit and physical strength was too heavy.

She kept making painful whimpers.

And the bastard father at this time was the way she remembered him, the absurd expectation and hope in the previous dream were all false, his eyes would always be filled with burning ambition and insane control desire, his heart only had efficiency first four words.

"You are supposed to surpass All Might and become the strongest hero! How can you just lie down because of this little training! Don't disappoint me like your elder brother Toya!"

"Even though you have a higher potential than me, you did such a thing! It's unforgivable!"

Speaking of her eldest brother, she hardly has any special impression, just vaguely knows that her eldest brother once did something that disappointed and angered her father and then disappeared, but the second brother who told her about this doesn't know what their elder brother Toya did, of course, she admired and envied her elder brother at that time.

He dare to resist that dictator-like bastard father.

"What are you doing! Todoroki Enji! Shoto is still a five-year-old child!"

"So what if she's a five-year-old child! If you want to stand out from thousands of aspiring heroes, you can't waste any precious time! Lamp Arrow's matter told me that any slight tolerance in teaching children is wrong! No efficiency!"

"You used to spoil the eldest son like that, now you see what stupid thing that Toya did! Don't use Shoto's age as an excuse! Our Todoroki family doesn't need any excuses!"

"I won't listen to you anymore, you've always been a kind mother with many failures!"

The mother came up to stop the father's tyranny, but it had no effect.

"Shoto, stand up now, from now on you have to surpass your limit."

"Even if you will hate me in the future, I don't care."

"All my blood and sweat will be poured into you!"

"Only you, Shoto, only you can master this technique! Only you can fulfill my ambition!"

Yes... it was like that at that time, this memory has always been Todoroki's nightmare during her self-training.

Even now, many years later, as long as the amount of self-Quirk training is slightly excessive, her stomach will cramp due to the childhood shadow, and it can even cause acid reflux when it gets serious.

But even in such a situation, Todoroki Shoto has persevered through the long years of torment alone.

Her whole dream is over.

Her dream will end, but reality and life will continue.

She truly woke up, and at that moment she realized the final result of the combat training.

She really lost, even if she planned to drag Accelerator into a protracted battle in an ugly way, she still lost.

She has always been strong in the face of the world, but this time she couldn't hold back her tears, the last string broke.

Why cry? Of course, it's because she's not willing...

Losing to Accelerator is the one she least wanted to do.

Even though she was boastful in the first place, she couldn't even delay time when facing him, this huge sense of gap and the feeling of powerlessness on the power mercilessly devoured her.

She arbitrarily regarded others as opponents, and even her most proud Quirk was directly crushed by him like a game of chess.

This is the first time in her life that she has been so dissatisfied.

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