Talking to the moon

I waited for Grey to call me, days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months and he didn't call me.

I would stare at my phone sometimes expecting his calls, but he never did.

Suzie noticed it too, she told me that probably he was still giving me my space.

Oh and for the interviews? It was hectic.

All they ever asked was how I got married to Grey, why and why we kept it a secret for a year. Then, media with their rumors started saying that I had a child and I was hiding it from the people.

But funny how I was the one receiving all the questions, Grey never showed up for any of the interviews, he never said anything about it, he was quite From the media.

After about three months of constant appointments, we finally came back home.

Grey's Pov

In as much as I decided to stay patient, the patience was eating me deep.  And in as much as I wanted to see her, I feared I wouldn't be able to look her in the face.

I had turned into a crazy stalker watching all the 64 interviews she had gone for and listened carefully for her response.

Hearing her voice alone from my phone was soothing, I didn't know why, but she reminded me of my mother.

Martins had to snap me out at some point and I calmed down with the stalking thing.

Yes, I told her I was going to be an obsessive partner, and I was going to.

All I just had to do was to talk to her, but I was just so fucken scared.

I had held my phone so many goddamn times wanting to call her, but I was scared. I felt like I didn't have the courage to.

I was in my office today working with Martins when my secretary walked in and told me someone wanted to see me but she didn't want to say her name.

I held my heart hoping it would be Bella, but instead, it was her....best friend??

That girl did not like me, at all, so what what the fuck was she doing here??

I noticed she tensed a little when she saw Martins and I would have started laughing again remembering the other time but I chose not to.

"Hey" she said holding her bag

"Yeah , hi ...uhhh" I tried remembering her name

"Suzie, Susan, Suzie Maxwell don't fucken forget my name again" she stressed and my brain registered Maxwell.

"Can I seat?" She asked and I agreed.

She took a seat and was quiet a little, probably trying to think of what to say.

"You know I don't like you, I never did right from the first day we met" she started and I nodded.

"But unfortunately, Bella does, a lot.  And she's been you know, suffering with her insecurities of loosing people more and all.  And then you tried to help her and she got better and all .

Look I was really devastated when she came into my house that night crying because I had never seen her cry before and I knew that she was really hurt and all .

But then, the thing is, you kinda keep her sane sometimes, I mean I see you both together and all and I'm happy, I'm happy that she's always at peace and all.

So I'm begging you this time, I want to continue seeing my bestfriend that way, she has been through a lot and you know of that.

She's waiting for you Grey, you told her you'll come back when she's ready, she's ready now, what are you waiting for??"

I took some minutes to process everything she was saying.

"I'm just scared she doesn't wants so see me...or I'm scared that I can't just face her, I feel like I'll just...I don't know, loose it or something" I said.

"Fuck Grey she's waiting for you, she is!! Like, for me to come here today, just know that I know what I'm saying, I wanna see her smiling again, those kinda smiles she gets when she's with you!!"

"Okay, okay, I will...I'm the one afraid of bullshits,I'm gonna talk to her, I promise... okay? I will" I said.

She nodded and said," and Grey, don't fuck this second chance up, if you do, I'm not gonna take this easy on you...I mean it!!!" She threatened.

I nodded.

"Sure thing Maxwell" I said. She smiled satisfied that I had gotten her name.

"But how is she doing tho?"

I asked honestly concerned.

She sighed," she's okay, she's just been really busy because of you made your marriage thing open and all"she said.

I tried to hide my smile.

I knew I was going to give her hard time for that.

Then Suzie's phone began to ring.

She smiled and put the phone on speaker and dropped it on the table.

"Hey Bella" she said.

"Suzie, Suzie I'm hungry... where are you" she whined.

Her voice made me melt.

"I'm uhhh... none of your business... cook something" Suzie said.

"So you got another man and you didn't tell me, you moved on really quick from Martins huh?" She teased.

I held my mouth trying not to laugh and looked up at Martins who was peaceful on his table with a shocked face.

At this point, I was sure she regretted putting the call on speaker.

" Shut the fuck up Bella" Suzie shrieked.

Bella laughed," why? Is your new man hearing me?? Heyyy Suzie's new man, treat her well else I'll kill you!!" Bella screamed laughing.

It was so ironic that the man in the picture was her own husband.

Suzie groaned and rolled her eyes.

"What should I pick up for you on the way" she asked.

"I don't know, chicken, chicken chips, chicken and chips, more chicken, chips, hamburger" she said.

I quickly wrote down 4 chicken with 3 packs of chips and hamburger.

"You're on a diet Bella" Suzie reminded.

Bella groaned," but Suzie, I'm craving all those"

Someone who was always giving me healthy meal talk.

"Cravings huh?? Sure you're not pregnant for Grey?" Suzie teased .

I looked up at her with a shocked face and she grinned.

"Oh shut up Suzie, I would even freak out if Grey sees me naked" Bella said.

I didn't know why , but I smirked when she said that, I started having creepy thoughts on her being naked.

But I pushed it away.

"Okay, not a good place for this kinda conversation" Suzie said laughing.

"I'll be home soon" then she cut the call.

I gave Martins the paper to order it up.

He left the office.

"You and him still haven't talked yet?" I asked.

She shook her head," worse even after I pounced on him on Christmas day" she said.

"I think you also have some air clearing to do, don't you think Maxwell?" I asked.

She sighed," I don't know how you and Bella do all this lovie dovie stuff, the shit is cringe to me man" she said.

I smiled,we talked a while about Bella and all and then Martins came in with two bags containing food .

"Why is it double?" Suzie asked.

"Uhh...I got this one for you" he said and she bit her lips .

I need to learn nice guy tactics from Martins, because he was a charm.

"Uhmm... thanks" she said collecting a bag.

I took a sticky note from my table and drew a smiley emoji on it and stuck it to Bella's pack.

"I'll be going now, make sure you talk to her, you're literally the only person I can trust her with" she said standing up.

"But how do I see her?, I don't want to come over to her house" I said.

"The millionaires under thirty meeting is this weekend, she's coming, you should come too" she said .

I actually planned on skipping the meeting for I could rest and go play golf, but if she's gonna be there, I would have to go, I needed to see her.

" I'll be there" I promised and she left the office.

I continued with my work till it was late, Martins left pretty early saying he was feeling pretty sick.

I stayed back till it was 8 before going back to the house.

The house was quiet and lonely since she left.

Sometimes, my friends would come over trying to cheer me up and all and keep me company.

But she was different.

Sometimes , I Would sleep in her closet just because I loved her scent and misses it.

I took a long shower and went outside and sat by the pool, the snow had all melted away, and now it was all dry and okay.

I laid on my back staring at the Moon, I allowed myself to drown in memories of her.

I remembered our first kiss in New York. I liked how she always sensed that I was awake at night and sometimes I thought she even sensed that I was thinking about her.

I miss her, everything about her. If I wanted to let her go,it would take a more than eternity to be completely drawn away from her.

In just few months, she had left so much impact in my life than anyone has in a while.

Constantly, she reminded me of my mother, that was probably why it was hard to let her go.

I stared at the Moon wondering where she was at the moment and what she was doing.

(Background music begins to play)

...." I know you're somewhere out there...

Somewhere far away..

... I want you back...

I want you back..

My friends all think I'm crazy.

But they don't understand

.... you're all I had...

.. you're all I had..

...at night when the stars light up my room...

...I sit by myself...

Talking to the Moon...

Tryna get to you...

...It holds me..

...on the other side...

... talking to me too..

Oh am I a fool? Who sits alone talking to the Moon....

Cuz every night I'm talking to the Moon...

Tryna get to you...

It holds me on the other side...

Talking to me too...oh am I a fool?..

Who sits alone... talking to the Moon.

           Bruno Mars~talking to the Moon

"I miss you Bella, I honestly do.." I whispered.

"I just wish, that I was completely honest in the beginning, maybe we would have been together here right now..."

"I fucked up I know, but I'm ready to change that, show you the kinda love you never got as long as you reciprocate it to me too.

I'm ready...I'm all in

I don't wanna fight my feelings anymore, I want to..."

Bella's Pov

I didn't want to attend the meeting, but Suzie dragged me to, she said I was going whether I liked it or not, that it was a medium for me to socialize and mingle with people who were rich and influential and could help me in my career.

I reluctantly agreed and went.

Honestly, I Don't know how people attended this kind of meetings, but it was boring.

I scanned around to check if maybe I would see Grey, but I didn't.

I heard rumors that he was out of town and wouldn't be able to make it.

I stared at the clock patiently waiting for the event to be over so that I could socialize and leave, but it was like the clock was going backwards.

Four hours past in my head and it was looking like 4 minutes!!

About 3 minutes to the end of the meeting, someone walked in, I didn't even bother checking , I was too engrossed in staring at the time.

Looks like something Grey could do...

"Please let's welcome Mr. Grey Hampton to the high table" the moderator said.

My heart skipped a beat and went back to normal.

He walked in slowly and sluggishly, not like how he use to Walk.

He didn't even go to the high table, he just sat down in an empty seat at the back.

His eyes scanned the room and landed on mine.

I looked away, I didn't know why, but I was afraid of looking at him in the eye.

From the distance I saw him, he looked pale and dull.

This was the first time I was seeing him in nearly 5 months.

The event closed sooner than I wanted and people started walking up and down talking to people.

I walked up to the bar attendant and asked him for some ice tea.

"Ice tea sounds like you're all this tush ladies that haven't pulled out of their shell" someone said behind me.

I thought it was Grey but it wasn't, it was a guy with ginger hair.

"Well I like myself like that" I replied back.

"C'mon, let's see how wild you can get, how about two bottles of Hennessy. That's a good start" he said smirking.

"Are you trying to get me drunk so that you can sleep with me?" I asked.

He laughed," no way, I have a girlfriend missi, she'll kill me if she even heard of it" he said.

"Besides, you look like you could need a few bottles to shake off the steam'' he added.

I peered at him. Suzie was around Incase I get too drunk and starts running away.

"Two bottles of Hennessy please" I told the bar attendant and the ginger haired guy smirked.

We started talking a little and before I knew it, I was slightly tipsy.

I got up slowly and told him to excuse me.

My vision was starting to become blurry and it would be very embarrassing and shameful if I pass out here, it would be the end of me.

Where the fuck was Suzie?? I picked up my phone and tried to dial her number but I couldn't see anything.

I finally found a hallway and held the wall and started slowly walking towards the door there hoping it was the exit door, but when I opened it, I saw a big pool, very big.

I groaned and started slowly walking towards the pool, maybe if I swim a little, it'll make me feel better, besides, it had been a while.

Why did I even stop swimming again? I shrugged and went to the stairs of the pool.

"There you are, what are you doing here??" I heard the ginger haired guy say.

I waved my hands towards him,"go away, I want to swim". I said.

"Are you sure?" He asked.

I nodded.

"Are you drunk?" He asked but I ignored him.

He shrugged and went away.

I then allowed myself to crash into the pool.

I then went under it.

Then suddenly, I started to choke. That was when it clicked in my head that I wasn't supposed to swim.

By now, I had already started becoming weak, and the pool was very deep .

I struggled and struggled and struggled trying to remember those strokes I was taught when I was younger, but the chlorine in the water made me dizzy, plus the alcohol.

I finally managed to touch the stairs of the pool, just as I was about to pull my self out, I felt a sharp pain on the fingers, making me let go of the railing and fall back into the water.

I looked through the water and saw a figure standing there. The person stepped on my fingers deliberately so that I would fall back into the water.

The person wants me dead...

I thought it was the gingered hair guy, because that was the only person who knew I was here.

But the persons hair wasn't red, it was blonde .

I couldn't see the persons face, I tried to reach out my hand to touch the rail again because I was slowly dying and running out of air.

The person stepped on my fingers again this time more aggressively.

I fell back into the water, unable to move again.

The person stood there for a second and then left.

I tried to lift up my hands but I couldn't.

What was I thinking trying to swim????

I struggled and struggled to survive but it was to no avail.

I closed my eyes and allowed the water to sink into my system..

So this was it? This was the end? This was what death felt like?.

Every where around me started turning white .

Was I going to heaven?

Maybe it was time to go.

"Grey"I choked out finally before my eyes finally close.