Hang on baby

Wrapping my robe around me, I walked slowly in front of the mirror and stared at myself.

Who would believe that someone this beautiful would be going through all this shits I'm going through? who?

Grey...

Fuck I miss Grey...

I miss him so much and it's driving me crazy.

I want to talk to him..

I want to see him..

My life is so fucked up right now..

Everything around me is falling apart...

I'm falling apart...

I'm tearing from inside out...

I need help..

Tear clouds formed in my eyes, I blinked them back.

I can't cry again..

I've been crying too much lately...

Usually when I'm going through bullshits I call Grey, now I can't call him, what am I going to do?!!

I wish I had someone I could talk to..

I'm tired of calling Suzie, I'm putting too much of my burdens on her, she has her own issues too, I can't keep bothering her with mine.

I just wish my mother was here, I wish she was alive... she would have been the one to confirm all this...I miss her so much.

"Brrrrrrrr ....brrrrrrrr" my phone vibrated.

I looked at my phone on the table in front of me.

"Teddy"

I sighed, I can't keep ignoring his calls, in as much as I'm going through my own shits, avoiding him won't make it any better.

I picked the call and was quiet for some seconds.

"Bella..." he mumbled from the other side.

"Bella?.. fuck wait she picked the call..." he mumbled again.

I bit on my lips, how long has he been calling?

"Bella?" he called again.

I was still silent, unable to say anything.

"Baby please say something... anything" he said again.

I swallowed.

He sighed, " Well apparently since you want me to have a conversation with myself, I guess I just will" he said sluggishly.

"Gr.. Grey?" I choked out.

"Grey are you... drunk ...?" I asked.

I haven't seen Grey get tipsy since that night we reconciled, he promised to stop drinking, that was like four years ago, then now?

"Well apparently, you didn't pick my calls, ignored my texts, Left me on seen, what were you expecting, it's driving me crazy!! no wait what am saying... you're driving me crazy... you've been driving me crazy since the day I met you and now you're trying to push me away over some stupid rumor and trashy DNA results... what were you expecting?"

No , it's worse than I thought... He's very drunk... like you could hear it from the way he talked...slow and sluggish.

He exhaled, " Just ignore what I'm saying, how are you?" he asked, his voice returning back to normal, but still slow.

"Uhm...I don't know" I said back between tears.

"Just come back home baby, please" he said.

I shook my head,"I can't"

"C'mon fuck the results, it's not true... there's no way to prove it... the results are faulty..or probably framed or mixed up, I don't know how baby... just hear me out okay? you're not my sister... even if I have a sister somewhere in this world..it's not you...we can't be twins...stop frustrating yourself, stop frustrating me... Ana asks of you every goddamn day and I have to find one lie or the other to cover it up...God Bella please...

Just fuck this shit and let's go back to normal... please" he said.

I swallowed hard trying to control my voice.

"What... what if... what if..."

"What if what? we're siblings? pfft.. please , we are not...we are not Bella, we aren't.

You were born a year after I was born..stop putting yourself under unnecessary pressure...stop killing yourself inwardly...stop killing me..

It's driving me crazy baby... you don't know how frustrating it is every morning waking up and you're not there... something I've gotten use to already.

I'm gonna find my evidence..my proof, that's what you want right? you want evidence first? I'll get the evidence...I swear.

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Grey's Pov

I sluggishly got out of my bed and hit the bathroom. I have to go back to work before I loose two important things in my life.

I was still hungover... very much hungover.

I managed to pick something up from my closet and put it on my body when I was done taking a shower.

I grabbed my keys and went downstairs.

"Ugh... you look a mess" Mrs Benson said looking at me with disgust.

I shrugged , " It's worse what you see what I look inside" I said walking slowly towards the door.

"Are you sure you have to go to work Grey? don't you think people are going to suspect that things are up with you?" she asked.

I sighed, " I can't keep staying indoors, it's killing me...I have to occupy myself with something at least" I said.

She shook her head at me sadly.

"Won't you take something before you go? I made breakfast" she said.

I shook my head negatively.

"Just help me tell Ana I said good morning" I said opening the door and left.

I sighed again and started squinting.

I could barely see things.

Where did I park my Tesla again?

I can't even drive in this state...I might just die or something.

I called my driver to take me to work.

When we approached my office, I had to gather myself together, else I could start getting funny stares and awkward questions.

I put on a sun shade so people won't really notice how read my eyes are.

I picked up my phone and started walking towards the building.

Everyone around started greeting me with their over enthusiastic voice and very fake smiles.

I remember Bella telling me how much she hated my staffs were two faced and fake.

I just nodded and walked into the elevator that took me straight to the top floor.

After passing few security doors and doing some fingerprint scanning,. I finally ended in my office.

Martins was very surprised to see me.

"Wasn't expecting here until like another month or so, what happened?" he asked.

I sighed exhausted and sat on my chair like a lazy old man.

"Might just die of depression or whatever" I replied.

"Well good to have you back because you have a lot of work to do" he said patting my head and smiling.

I rolled my eyes.

"I spoke to Bella yesterday" I said sitting up a little and scanning through some documents on the table.

"Oh yeah, I saw her yesterday when I went to get coffee, she was with this guy" he said casually, arranging files on a shelf.

I sat up abruptly " What?!" I asked sharply.

He turned to me and shrugged.

"Her ex boyfriend, something like that" he said again casually.

I gave him killer stares ," What?!!"

I asked this time louder.

He looked at me confused.

"Dude not the other idiot, the one before that I think" he said.

I rubbed my temples and closed my eyes.

"You saw my wife talking to some 'man' who apparently is her ex boyfriend, and you didn't do anything about it?" I asked trying to calm myself down.

He scoffed and rolled his eyes.

"And that looks like my responsibility right? and why are you getting jealous?" he asked.

"I'm not jealous... she's mine already" I defended.

"Then get over it!! besides he's gay" he said.

"Seriously?? no you're just lying" I said.

"I'm going on a date with him, so just shut the fuck up and stop being so overprotective, geez... jealous much" he said rolling his eyes again.

I calmed down a little.

I opened my mouth to say something and then he interrupted me.

"Oh just shut up and sign these documents" he said dropping a huge pile of papers in front of me.

"What are these?" I asked going through them.

"Permission grant from the WHO, these are all the people you have to go through first before the WHO will do a DNA test by themselves on you and Bella" he explained.

I looked at him shocked.

"You got access to the WHO to do the test for me themselves?" I asked.

He shrugged, "It's not as hard as it looks" he said.

"Thanks man, I love you" I said sluggishly getting up to hug him.

"Ewww eww get away from me, this is disgusting" he said pushing me away.

"Doing hard to get huh? like years ago you didn't use to pray I hug you that way" I teased.

He scoffed, "That was years ago, I was young and stupid, now you're just like an annoying twin brother to me" he said dusting his well ironed suit.

"Awwn, that's sweet, imagine you were my twin brother, then Bella was actually my twin sister, we could then try a threesome together" fuck what am I even saying.

Martins carefully dropped the folder in his hand on the table and turned back to look at me with a confused, disgusted and annoying look.

I started giggling.

"You need to see a therapist, you need help,I'm calling one for you right away" he said walking towards the door.

I laughed a little.

"Love you too bro" I shouted as the door closed behind me.

I shook my head a little and rubbed my eyes.

I stared at the files in front of me.

Who would ever know that the WHO would be this complicated to meet?