Fate, our nemesis , not yours

Some days, life looked like a dream to me, those kind that you'll wake up smiling at yourself.

And most times, it looked like a nightmare, the type that you'll beg to wake up from.

At this very point, if this was a dream, I wouldn't want to wake up.

That very night, I was given a brand ambassador endorsement for the next 11 months.

Honestly I didn't even care if it was for a day, the fact that I was working with Nike!! That was enough.

The past 6 weeks had been hectic, I worked from 6am to 11pm. I would have been exhausted, but for the fact that it was something I enjoyed doing, I didn't even feel it.

Finally, Suzie said we needed at least a two weeks break before we start working again.

I agreed.

My mother was so happy to see me. She called me every night to find out how I was doing.

I was so tired that day that as soon as I get home, I went straight to bed without even taking off my clothes.

I woke up the next morning and found myself in New clothes and I knew it was my mother.

I walked downstairs after brushing and got greeted by an appeasing smell .

I walked to the kitchen and saw her making pancakes.

"Morning mother" I greeted

"Sleeping beauty finally woke up" she teased.

"I was so tired yesterday" I groaned and took a bite out of the apple on the counter.

"Mum I'm not supposed to eat pancakes" I said frowning.

"Suzie will never find out" she said and winked and I laughed.

"You had fun with your work?" She asked.

"It would have been fun if I didn't have to work 6 to 11pm" I said.

"At least be happy, you've gotten your dream job.

I nodded"I owe Grey a lot" I said.

She turned off the gas and cleaned her hands and looked at me.

"Have you two spoken?" She asked.

"Uhhm...kinda. like, we just met briefly and I thanked him for saving me and when we were about to, you know, dive deep into the conversation and all, we got distracted. But he said he was going to call me. And I don't know, since he hasn't called" I explained.

She nodded.

"He knows that you're busy, he probably doesn't want to disturb you" she said and lit the gas back on.

I agreed.

"Just do whatever makes you happy okay my baby?" She said.

I nodded.

She then set the table and we started eating.

Then unfortunately Suzie walked in.

"Hey Bella..I'm- wait are you eating pancakes??!" She shrieked.

I paused with the food only an inch away from my mouth.

"Uhhhhh..." Oh shit I'm Dead.

"Oh my God Bella you've been eating pancakes, no wonder I noticed your tummy was getting bigger and I thought you were pregnant.." I stared at her shocked and looked at my tummy.

It was flat, very flat.

"Susan let her be" my mother said giggling.

"On one condition" she said making me shocked.

"I get to eat the pancakes too" she said and I laughed because I knew she was just bluffing.

I took some and dropped in a plate for her.

"God, sometimes this diet thing can kill" she groaned stuffing her face with pancakes.

After breakfast, Suzie and I took my mother shopping.

We went to this experience boutique that rich celebrities went to and bought her a lot of stuffs.

We had a nice long day and after which we went back home.

I climbed my bed to sleep, just as I was about to close my eyes, my phone started ringing.

I stared at the caller ID and froze.

I hadn't seen that call in almost a year.

I read it over and over again.

Teddy

I remember saving his phone number with that name because he was okay with it.

I was scared to pick the call, and I didn't know why.

I finally summoned courage and picked it.

"Hello" I said quietly.

"Hey Bella" his cool voice echoed from the other side of the phone.

"How are you doing?" He added.

"Just been stressed out with work" I said.

"Yeah I know, heard you came back yesterday" he said.

How did he know?

"Yeah I did, just went shopping with my mom" I said.

"You busy tonight?" He asked.

I stared at the clock, it was six minutes past 8. It wasn't too late tho.

"Naa, not really." I said.

"Wanna come over?" He asked.

My heart skipped a beat, fuck what is happening to me.

"Uhhmm..uhhh.." I stuttered.

"It's okay if you don't want to" he added.

"I uhhh..." Then I paused to think. We've been apart for about 9 months now, you need to fix us.

"Uhm... just give me 45 minutes.. I'll be there" I said and cut the call.

His house wasn't all that too far from mine.

I grabbed my keys.

I walked downstairs and saw my mother watching the television.

"Where are you going Bella" she asked as I walked passed her to the door.

"To see Grey" I said nervously.

She beamed ,"take your time" she said and I nodded and left the house .

I got into my car and took a deep breath in and then let it out.

It's time to fight fate again..

I drove out of my house that night alone, I prayed nothing will happen to me till I got to the house.

Once the security guards noticed it was me, they let me in immediately.

I drove in and parked my car.

I hadn't been in this place in a very long time.

I walked to the door and inputted the pin . The door opened and I walked in.

A wave of nostalgia hit me. The house was just as always, neat.

I walked to the kitchen, he wasn't there. I walked upstairs and went into our bedroom.

It was just as arranged as always,but he wasn't there.

Then I went to the balcony, he wasn't there either. But I heard soft music playing,I peeped downstairs and he was sitting beside the pool, with his phone beside him.

I walked back downstairs and headed for the pool. I was backing him, so he didn't see me coming.

I stood there for few seconds before I finally walked over to the pool and sat beside him.

He still didn't move, but he knew I had come.

We allowed the cool music from his phone cover for the silence between us.

...."you say that I won't loose you...

...but you can't predict the future...

...so just hold on like you will never let go...

...if you ever move on without me..

I need to let you know..

.. that you..are the only one I'll ever love...

... you..if it's not you it's not anyone..

Looking back at my life you're the only good I've ever done...

Anyone~justin Bieber

" When you went into coma" he started talking, breaking the silence," I was scared that you were gonna die without us sorting things out. I was scared that I may never see you again, so many scary thought clouded my head.

I was even scared of leaving the hospital for a minute because I felt like if you started dying I wouldn't allow you to.

Now that you're okay, I want to start by saying I am very sorry Bella, for not being completely honest with you, for making you look like a liability in front of my dad, for making you look stupid.

I'm sorry for making you think that I wanted to hurt you, I'm sorry for making you cry that day; making you break the promise you made to yourself.

I'm sorry for everything Bella, and now I want to tell you everything, the complete truth.

My dad told me to meet him in England that day, and I did thinking it was business stuff.

That day when I met you in the hotel bar, I'd be lying if I said you didn't catch my attention, you did. And I was hoping that after I finished my meeting with my dad I'll be able to track you down so we could talk more.

But then he told me he wanted me to get married and I got upset, very upset because he was arranging a marriage with me and someone I had never met before.

I was very angry and when I walked into the room and saw it was you, I was honestly shocked, but then the anger of it being a planned marriage still boiled in me and I was angry.

My father called me and told me that I shouldn't worry about anything that the marriage is just supposed to be for a year because your father was looking for more business opportunities. He lied to me that your father was aware of it and was the one who brought up the idea.

I found it crazy honestly because, why would someone do that to his own child.

I asked if you were aware of it and he said no, that it's supposed to be a secret.

I asked him what would happen if you find out and he said you would be heart broken.

I didn't want that, and I didn't know want to be the one to call off the marriage, that's why I asked you to call it off yourself.

My mean and Stern attitudes was just to make you not to like me so that you would leave me.

But you were nice Bella, you were too nice, too fucken nice God, how many times did I push you away and you always came back.

In as much as I didn't want the marriage that time I still tried to be sure you were safe.

I explained it to Martins, he understood, he also didn't want you to get hurt either because I tried imagining how you would have felt if I told you that your parents wants you to get heartbroken in a year.

And I didn't want you to like me so that when it all ends, you wouldn't have anything to regret loosing.

But then after that night when you expressed how you felt, I couldn't take it anymore.

I called my dad and told him that the deal was off and that I'm sticking with you because I had started sinking into guilt and having nightmares of my mother telling me to stop what I was doing.

He insisted I stuck with the initial plan.

That was when I started rebelling Bella, I couldn't continue fighting you, I just stopped.

That was when I realized that you were so different from what I thought.

You were unique, you were like me and for some goddamn reasons, you reminded me of my mother so much.

That day when you flew down immediately to see me when Martins called, that was when I knew I couldn't do that to you anymore.

And I knew I could make us work, I knew that we could work out.

I knew I started feeling something for you.

Ever since then, I've been fighting my dad constantly. The worse happened when I started giving you fifty percent of my income and he found out.

He said you were being a liability to me and I told him I didn't care.

One night, I had a dream and I saw my mother again, this time, she kept on calling your name over and over and over again.

Then she told me to hold you tight, that you're the one.

That was the reason why I didn't want to go for that family dinner, because I knew that my dad was going to make use of the opportunity and break us apart.

Bella I don't care about whatever happened to you in your past or whatever shit you're going through. We both are going through stuffs and you know that. Infact everyone in the world is going through their own shit and that doesn't stop them from being happy.

With you, I'm happy. And I know you very well Bella, you're happy around me. And you want this marriage to work.

If you didn't, you wouldn't have come here tonight.

So keep your insecurities aside and let's fix this" he said.

"Grey, I don't want to drag you into my fucked up world" I said.

"I'm already in it " he said and shrugged.

"You don't understand Grey" I took a deep breath in and out.

" There's this thing that's always fighting me. Fate! Fate has gotten away with the best moments of my life and ruined it. Its my nemesis. Everytime something good happens to me, fate always destroys it, and I'm tired of fighting it Grey ,I'm tired" I said pained.

"Good thing you're tired, cuz we are going to fight it together. It's no longer your nemesis, it's ours, whatsoever is yours is also mine and whatever is mine is also yours. You're burdens are my burdens and I'll help you fight your problems as long as you help me.

You're my life partner now and we do things together, not alone."

I swallowed hard.

"And I'm in love with you Bella, head over heels kind of. Fuck you don't even know how tormenting it is waking up everyday and you're not on the bed beside me.

You don't know, how much I've dreamed of this day to come.

Yes, I'm saying it again, and I'll say it over and again and again.

I Grey Sanez Hampton is in love you Bella."

I bit my lips to stop the tears that threatened to fall.

Someone loves me, someone actually loves me, not for who they think I am,but for what I actually am.

"I love you too" I whispered.

...."maybe it's the way you say my name...

... maybe it's the way you play your game...

..but it's so good, I've never dreamt of nobody like you...

But it's good I've never known anybody like you..

And I've heard of love that comes once in a lifetime...

I'm I'm pretty sure that you're the love of mine...

Grey smiled," you don't know how long I've waited to hear that"

I opened my mouth to say something, but he quickly stopped me by crashing his lips on mine.

I caught goosebumps all over my body.

..."cause I'm in a field of dandelions..

... wishing on everyone that you will be mine,mine..

... and I see forever in your eyes..

...I feel okay when I see you smile, smile...

Wishing on dandelions all of the time...

... praying to God that one day you'll be mine..

.. wishing on dandelions all of the time,all of the time...

"Grey" I said and broke the kiss.

"Mmm baby" he whispered.

"Don't leave me" I said in a broken voice.

"Never" he said and crashed his lips on mine again.

...."I think that you are the one for me...

... cause sometimes it gets so hard to breathe...

.. when you're looking at me, I've never felt so alive...

... when you're looking at me, I've never felt so happy...

Ruth b~ dandelions.