Edward

I wake up and check the time its twelve at noon .

I walk around ,I try to find her but she's gone .

I can't do this , I tried but I can't

She told she loves me but can I love her back ?

she assured everything is okay

but no it's not

Nothing is okay

I call Max but it straight away goes to his voice mail

i guess I'm all alone .

I couldn't look at her face , it showed my weakness.

I couldn't touch her knowing she is in love with me while I'm still dealing my past .

I thought I was doing better these days but no

it's getting worse day by day.

The nightmares are making me crazy and the truck

My heart beats fast thinking about it

The flashes of pictures of the accident hit me back when I saw that truck

I thought i died that day , too drunk to drive

but it would have been better if I was gone .

My eyes gets full

I tell myself it's okay

I can do better .

I'm no more fifteen

I'm thirty one

I'm much better now

Yes , I'm better now