Different Feeling

Getting car in with Eric.. we both on way on my academy... we both are silent.. the ride is silent.. we just hearing that we are riding car in road.. nothing else.. I Don't know how to start conversation with him.. when I know how he snap me.. when I just pulling he's lag.. we Just joking around.. he got serious.. I think he Don't like joke's.. than how can it will be work..

" ummm about that earlier.. I snap you.. sorry for that.." he broke the silence.. and finally spake.. and what he said..

I mean he apologized.. wow.. I mean when I know boy's have lot's of egos.. and I just can't believe this he apologized.. like Max.. he never apologize if he's right or wrong..

Well I am impressed..

And whom I am talking to.. its Eric.. he's different with others..

" you don't have to.. actually I just you know.. I am sorry that I did that.." I said to him.. when he will be nice with me.. than why can't i..

" you are just cheering and joking around.. I get this seriously.. so I am sorry.. I don't have to meant to snaping you.. and what I said I really mean it.." he said looking at me.. when he saw that I am staring at me.. he's to handsome.. and attractive gorgeous.. how can I just cant forgive him..

" than I will accept it.. " I said with smile.. and blushed.. ooh my god I am blushing.. stop.. stop..

" thanks for that.." he said.. and I just nodded.. don't know what to say next..

" by the way they really think that what you said earlier.." he said to me.. oohh he also wanted to talking about this..

I mean who don't want to know.. what people think about them.. he's curious..

Can I again pulling lag or just told the truth..

" yeah actually.. when we are playing trust or dare.. when you enter to counter.. they literally stop the game and talking about you.. and one of girl also fight with me.. when I told her that if you want him than go there and suck your face.. sorry for said that but seriously she really obsessed with you.. because I didn't know you.. and I am enjoying myself playing game and they suddenly stop and started around gossiping.. so yeaah it's irritated me little.." I told him truth.. skipping.. how people pitty for him.. it will maybe be hurt.. if he know that..

" oohh.. than why you come and you know... about that.." he shuttered little and talking about our little movement.. so finally he talking about it..

" well that.. when I snap her.. not to talk about you more.. and bottle turned same time.. I don't know what comes up.. some boy give me dare.. when he know it will piss me  more or little.. " I explain him..

" but thanks to you.. you didn't insult me or push me.. if you did that that time it's to embarrassing you know.. but why didn't you push me back.." I asked him..

" actually it's all sudden happened.. I mean you tap my shoulder.. when I saw you I just froze.. and I didn't know how to handle and you just you know.. kissed me.. I didn't know what's going know.. when I am come on my state to do something.. before you pulled away.. " he explained..

" by the way what you do if I didn't pulled away.. " I asked him.. and I saw the we reach in my academy gate... I turned to look at out side.. and than him.. I didn't know he said something or not ..

I unlocked my seatbelt started to get out from the car..

So did he.. he get out from the car.. and come toward stood front of me.. and he little closer to me.. my heartbeat is beating fast.. I just Don't know what to do.. how to do.. I mean I just in my state.. my body is in shiver..

" I don't know about that time.. but.." he said.. playing with my hair.. looking at me.. and I am looking at him..

" if you do again like this.. you want know what I did.." he said to me in husky voice.. I just looking at him.. and nodded in my head.. and he come closer me..

Grab my waist in one hand.. pulled me closer to him.. out body is touching.. and using he's other hand.. he kiss my lips..

Oohh my good.. I mean he kissing me.. right now.. I did wast any more time.. I pulled him into me.. and kissed him back.. and using my both hand to hugging him.. and playing with he's hair.. and kissed him..

It's something feel special.. our kiss is gentle.. and passionate.. and to in loved.. he show me that.. if I am he's what he do.. I don't know.. but I like it.. whatever he doing to me now.. I also kissed him back.. like same so passionately.. and he literally moan..

After that we both back of to each other.. to breath.. our breath is fast.. and that kiss was.. I mean its different.. I never had it like it before.. not even with Max..

I mean I still thinking about him..

You like him that's why.. my inner voice uhggg..

" wow... its was.." I said broking all thought about Max.. but he complete it..

" amazing.. I really want to do that since couple of days" he said.. and I blush.. ohh my good.. I kissed him again..

" i-i.. I have to go.. I will see you tomorrow..?" I said him.. but more than question him.. changing subject..

" I like to see you again.." he said me sweetly.. and kissed my forehead.. and than walk to passenger seat.. lock the car.. get in close behind him.. and start the car.. and looking at me.. I just looking at he's all movement.. and he said he's final good boy.. and he's gone..

I still here looking at the car.. after that the car is vanished..

Wow.. again.. I mean I know he's handsome hunk.. but I don't wanted to think about this..

This Kiss was different.. and it's not that I didn't like it.. damn I love it.. he also said that.. if I did again.. he will never let me go.. he will kiss me back..

Turn around and walking towards my dorm.. still in my own thoughts..

It's not good what I am doing.. I mean I like Max.. no matter how much I hate him.. but my feelings towards him it's different..

I mean I know I am not cheating on him.. it's just that I feel guilty.. when week ago.. I was just cried that.. I can't have him by myself.. and now I will kissing another person.. who's out of this all think..

Why I am so thinking about Max.. I mean he didn't care about me.. what he said last night.. if he know that I am there in he's club.. he didn't even come and look for me.. and kick me out of it..

If that's it than why he saved me to that boy.. who's touching me..

Sometimes he care.. he show that i am somethin to him.. than he just throw me like I am some garbage to him.. I didn't even know him that what he is actual..

And here is Eric.. he's totally pure.. show me care.. he always clear in he's thought.. he know what he want.. he never keeping secret.. when I asked him anything.. he just give me answer..and that's think I like about him..

I mean he's prefect boy.. every girls dream boy.. I also think that I want that type of boy.. who show me care.. love.. trust..

When he kissed me.. he kiss me passionate.. show him loved.. feel loved.. and I love it.. no matter what..

And I didn't feel this way to Max.. when he know one think how to snap people.. who to hurt people..

And I just get tried of this.. I think this is it.. I have to moved on.. I don't wanted to west my time.. knowing him.. to give him time.. when he didn't even care about me..

I was last time walking in street.. he didn't even dare to look after me.. when i left club.. how can he that cruel.. he never change.. he's heartless beast.. and I am not anymore think about him..

I made my decision..

But why I am thinking about both of them.. when I didn't wanted be go in to any relationship.. I am not ready for that.. they both are playing with me.. and it's all confusing.. and I don't wanted to involve with this..

I made up my mind now.. I will just let them go.. I will be happy.. I have friends.. James.. I don't want anyone anymore..

I text girl's that I am in my dorm.. if they wanted to come over they will..

After that I go to get shower.. to clean my mind.. and get Little bit relax..

Get out of to my shower.. I wear normal clothes.. thinking about what Amelia said earlier.. what we plan to do.. I have to focus on this.. not in them..

I mean all things going on.. and what I am thinking all rubbish man.. I have to stop this feeling and concentrate how to get out this mess.. and I am doing this..

It's deal.. no boy's.. before get out of this mess..

Denial.. Justin.. and now Stefan.. three people.. they are headache in my head.. I have to clean all this.. than I will little in my state.. stress free..

My door bell ring.. and got up on my place and open the door..

Girls are standing in front of my door.. they all are get in and I closed door behind me.. they all are sitting in my bed and Janna's bed.. I go and site besides jade..

" so you all giving me silent treatment or what.." I said to them.. looking at them. They all are didn't say anything.. just site there..

" just yelled at me already.." I shouted they all are jump in there site's..

" you just can't do this like Ava.. I mean seriously.. what if.. what if something happen to you.." Ammy yelled at me..

" you have no idea how much we are worried.. and looking at you everywhere.. " angi said..

I am going to apologize.. when I saw that jade crying.. ohh my god.. shes crying.. because of this..

" why are you crying.. please Don't.. and I am so sorry guys.. I really I am.. I mean.. me and Max had fight.. and he did said something that he didn't wanted to say.. I just get angry.. and left.. I am so sorry.. I have to inform you about that.. but I am to angry.. and my phone just dead that same time.." I said and Clara spoke..

" you are that angry that you just left us.. didn't even think about us.. it's for you.. we all are come.. to cheer you up.. we all are there because you Will enjoy.. and forgot about that Janna.. god dame it.." she said angrily.. I know they all are there because of me.. they wanted me to cheer me up..

What I did.. I left.. didn't even care that what happened to them..

" I am so sorry guys.. I am really meant it.. give me punishment I will do whatever you said.. I promise.. please Don't get me mad.. I will never do this again I promise.." I said to them.. I really mean it what I just said to them..

" where are you after you left us.." Naomi asked me..

" I was so angry than I just left there.. and started to walking.. weather is so cold.. wearing that short dress.. I just can't bear it. So I just go to bar.. and have couple more drinks.. " I said to them.. looking at..

" bar.. I mean really.." Ammy said.. I nodded..

" I am still in underage so I left before someone catch me.. and started again walking around.. and than I just tried.. and when I fall that exact someone Carrey me.. and take me he's home.. that's it.." I said to them..

" who's he did he.. you know.. do somethin with you.." jade said with very worried tone.. and her eyes still red and crying..

" no he didn't.. when he saw me he think that I will reach academy.. but then he see my in state.. he brings he's house.. he didn't know about my dorm number so.. and he didn't do anything.. he know me.. that's why he help me.." I said to them..

" thank god what if there is someone else.." Naomi said..

" what you said you both know each other..who's he.." Ammy asked me suddenly.. and here we go.. lots more question about that stranger..