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Dear diary,

Yesterday night Arderàs had kissed me on the cheek, and his lips were so soft they felt magical on my skin. If only he would have kissed me on the lips. I shut my diary and fell on my bed, sighing out loudly. I placed my notebook on my chest and held it tightly. " Please fall in love with me. That's all I ever want".

" Who do you want to fall in love with you?" I opened my eyes instantly. I turned my head around and noticed my brother standing near the door frame.

" How long have you been standing there?".

" Not long" His eyes drift down to my diary, with this curious look on his face. " What have you been writing in there?" He asked curiously, rushing over towards me to snatch my diary. I quickly hid my journal inside my nightstand and locked it.

" No, you will not read it. It's a diary for a reason.".

" You are not crushing on one of my friends, are you?" I stayed quiet after he said that, staring at him and seeing his face change when he noticed mine. " Meltem, no. My friends are off-limits and, it's not like they will like my sister."

" I know. Don't worry, the only person who will only love is me. Johnny Depp," I said truthfully, turning my head and gazing over at my poster of him.

" You are a weirdo" I chuckled at what he said before picking up my pillow and throwing it at him.

" Get out, loser!".

A few hours later.

Arderàs had come over tonight again. And I have overheard that they were going to a house party. A house party like no other, they said. This news made me very curious, and I want to go. I immediately got dressed into an outfit I usually don't wear, a mini skirt and a plain t-shirt. I quietly walked out of my room and down the stairs, managing to sneak out. I rushed over to Arderàs car and opened his boot, getting inside and shutting the boot close. I breathed heavily. It was completely dark inside. I hear the both of them walking towards his car, getting inside and starting his engine before driving off.

Omg, I can't believe I did it.

" You think Meltem will be safe alone at home? It doesn't sit well with me" I heard Arderàs voice. It was low, and can barely overhear him. He was thinking about me, and he cared about me. I placed my hand on my chest, feeling my heart beating loudly.

" Dude, she will be fine and what's with you always talking about my sister? I'm warning you, Arderàs, she's my little sister.".

" Relax, I'm with Lia anyways. I see Meltem as my little sister too. I'm just worried about her, that's all." Arderàs said, making my brows soften and my heart sink with sorrow. I lift my head and hit it on the boot, wincing softly. I held onto my scalp and lay back down.

" Did you hear that?" Caden asked worriedly.

" Yeah, it's probably just my stuff at the back," Arderàs replied.

" Bro, are you hiding a dead body in the back?" Caden said suspiciously. Yeah, and it's me, but I'm alive, not dead.

A few minutes later. I started to feel hot and sweaty in here. I felt very claustrophobic. The car suddenly stopped and heard both of them getting out. " Caden, you go ahead. I'll be with you in a second." I hear Arderàs say. I turned around and felt my heart beating when abruptly he opened his boot up and stared at me in shock. I widened my eyes as we both came face to face. " Meltem?" He says, confused. He stared at me with his wide eyes. I soften my brows at him, shrugging my shoulders slightly. He looks up and around his surroundings. He places his hands on my waist, lifts me out of his boot and slowly puts me back down whilst holding onto me. I gaze to this chest, inhaling his Cedarwood scent. He shuts his boot and pushes me gently back, staring at me with his stern eyes. " What are you doing here, Meltem?" I felt my body becoming weak just by his touch on my waist and feeling a tingling sensation all around.

I felt my cheeks heating up, staring up into his eyes. " I wanted to come." I said truthfully, biting my lips nervously.

" Don't do that." He said, frowning my brows and noticing his eyes turning a shade darker.

" Don't do what?" I ask softly, looking away and licking my lips. There was a lot of car parked here and the loud music getting louder by the second.

I bite my lips, turning my attention back to him. " That. Don't bite your lips" I felt my cheeks flushed and a cold chill running down my spine. He looks away and clears his throat, letting me go as he leans back. " I'll take you back home. You shouldn't have come." He said, suddenly grabbing my hand and taking me to his car.

I stopped and yanked my hand softly, making his body turn around and tremble onto me, feeling his lips brush against mine. " Please, don't take me back home. I want to stay".

" Your brother will be mad.".

" He won't notice. Caden usually gets wasted."I say, trying to convince him.

Arderàs sighs heavily whilst scratching his head furiously. " This place isn't for you, Meltem. You won't like it.".

" Who knows, maybe I will?" I say with confidence, biting my lips and turning around to walk off. He grips onto my arm and pushes me back to the car aggressively.

I gasp softly, watching him lean his body against mine. I breathed heavily whilst staring into his lips. " Are you trying to get me mad? Because it's working." He says in a low, raspy voice, smelling his minty breath as it tickles onto my face. " And what are you even wearing? Meltem isn't even you.".

" I wanted to try out something new, okay?" He moves his tongue around inside and looks away, nodding his head, annoyed. He looks back over to me with a stern look in his eyes.

Suddenly, he places both of his hands at the hem of my skirt and pulls them down gently. Every pulls that he yanks cause me to step closer to him. He yanks again, making me get closer to him. He stares into my eyes and then to my lips as he continues to pull my skirt a bit down. " If you want to try out something new, try not to reveal yourself too much.".

" Arderàs, it wasn't even that short." He placed his finger and pointed it at me.

" For me, it was." He said calmly, making me smile weakly and nodding my head at him. He smiles back, and it melts my heart instantly. His soft, light brown curls were slightly touching his eyes, and I was fighting the urge not to touch them. " I'll take you somewhere inside where no one will be. But I have to get back to Caden." He said, sighing wearily. Taking my hand into his and walked us towards the house. I felt my heart pounding, staring down at our hands. He's holding my hands, omg.