Chapter 4 Life After Her

What was the real meaning of love? To know someone, to care for someone, or just get ruined completely while loving that person knowing the end. This loves keeps a warm home for me to relax. His love was consuming me little every day. There are so much joy and pain together, and I'm enjoying this situation. I took his hand on the path with no turning back ever. This love was driving a source of madness, still, I was enjoying, only his touch can give me slight relief like a medicine. I was having a burning desire to melt in his touch forever, leaving the wrong and right theory behind. Maybe this was love. (Nalini's word on love.)

I was all made to fulfill one mission and I lived for it. The destiny played a game my life turned upside down. Meeting her my life purpose was changed, to love her, and make the world a better place for her. She was a journey leading me to an unknown place. After falling for her she was my only destination. His Eternal Love (A Dark Love From Wicked Heart.)

Glarridan POV

I gazed out of the window of my private jet. Sipping my bourbon, I don't know for how long I'm sitting here. The anger was heightened every moment inside me, I pulled out a cigar and lit it up, closing my eyes I took a drag.

"Plz don't run I'm not going to hurt you," I said in the softest tone I can use, still my sound startled her. I jumped from my horse with a loud thud. And all the berries were loitered on the floor.

She stopped and looked at the grass floor as if that was the most beautiful thing her eye catches. She trembled as I went closer to her. Only a glimpse of her and my soul was wrapped around her. She was a melody a song written to give spotless beauty to the world, every inch of her body was made with love and a spark which will embed in my soul, once I catch a single look of her. Since that moment I was forever thralled to her. I know how much people of Earth are scared of us perhaps they should know I'm not the one who hurt people intentionally. I know I looked like a giant monster in front of this little rose. I want to take her to my castle and eat her in a blink of an eye.

"Hey" I spoke with the softest tone I can summon up, still, she feel startled.

"Please look at me." This time I tried to speak in a whisper still it was loud enough to be heard by someone who lives miles away. When she looked up with lots of innocence masked on her face. Her mesmerizing black eyes made me freeze. I was taller and much bigger than her.

I stood casually leaning against the tree. I looked at the berries, rolled in the dust. I lean to collect them and gently put them in her basket. I never ate any fruit. I don't know how these humans eat such ridiculous things. Here I was craving to eat the berries coz she touched it, her scent was on it.

"Mind if I join you." I don't know why the thought of being near her was popping inside me and I can't ignore it.

I came more near my tall frame was covering her completely. She got scared too easily but it was obvious well she knows me and the dark stories we have. I know this was the only chance in my life to have true love, my soul mate, in my life. Looking at her I know that I want to change knowing my journey, for what I was destined. I took a step towards her and lean on my knees.

"Don't be afraid of me, can I have one berry. I never had that in my life." Once listening to my sentence she looked at me with confused eyes. With trembling hands, she gave me five berries. My skin touched her soft delicate one and a spark was roamed all over my body.

"Thank you, love," I said and bowed my head.

And then she smiles, captivating like a warm summer morning. Smooth and pure. The stubborn cloud was fogging my mind to abscond with her. I stand up ignoring the thought and bid a goodbye coz deep I know I'm meeting her again.

"You look like a puddle of shit." He knocked twice on my table. Asking for my attention.

"Yeah I know, what are you doing here Alexander?" I asked with a bored tone. He brings me out of the trance.

"I fixed everything, now you can go and take her safely." I nodded and grabbed my leather jacket from the couch I exited the jet.

While driving, I was reminiscing the days when I have fallen into a maddening depression. For days I was looking at her paintings with dead eyes. If I avert my gaze for a second my body was losing a life. I never came out of my room. That day my heart stopped beating coz it died with her. I was bleeding in pain internally. After living without her for more than decades, I have become a silhouette full of darkness leaving the soul behind, while I was taking my steps towards my mission. The ache has made its home in my hallow body. I know I have to live with this pain. It was almost impossible for my soul to understand that she left. The wounds were fresh and always will be, and there is no turning back coz the one who can heal them is no more. I wore a façade of evilness to hide my pain. If she was watching me from heaven she would never forgive me. But she has to know how much pain she caused me and now I'm miserable again. Her memories were with me like a second shadow.

"I love you" she blurts out, it was the best and worst moment. All limp she was wrapped in my arms I have her cold dead numb body, the colors of her eyes left with her soul. Now there was a layer of fog on them, the sparkles were nowhere to be seen. She thought I'll come and save her, I failed her. After it was just miserable, my life was grey though the world sees different colors, I see coldness. When I miss her well I miss her all seconds but when I'm alone doing nothing the pain sits inside my heart like burning it slowly. Emotional pain is stronger than mental one. Pain changes people now I realize. Nature has cursed me with the cruelty that I lived without her why?

My heart was shattered into oblivion. I become a ghost that no one ever sees. I was deeply lost, no desires, no love no hopes only one painful truth that I was once again – alone. I wanted Universe to allow me a lovely beautiful life with one and only my love. I felt warm liquid on my cheeks; I wiped them instantly and stopped the car.

I hate this place more than anything. As I was ascending the stairs, my nostrils engulfed the soft rose smell of her body and I see a flashback of all her memories. I open the door and there she was standing looking like a lost soul her hairs were waving with the slow breeze and her eyes were focused on something. Oh, no she can't read it I almost burned every piece. I entered the room which made her realize my presence and she turns only to meet my eyes. The silvery light reflected in her eyes and they glowed making me dizzy after thousands of years I'm seeing the sparkles again. Once more the stubborn cloud was taking control of me and I went straight towards her as my body was craving to hug her and comfort her. Once she was in my arms, my heart skipped a beat remembering her but what was odd is that my heart started beating again. I was feeling a sort of energy and assurance was running inside my veins. She pushed me with all force, I didn't budge realizing the moment I backed away just an inch. She looked at me with full fear in her eyes as if she has traced my identity and in seconds, she falls unconscious. Before she touches ground I took her in my arms. I laid her on the bed. Looking at her pale and unconscious figure I just want to give her my soul, she reminds me of her. While she was barely walking I saw her bruised toes. I can't see her like this, she was barefoot. I pulled out my handkerchief and wiped the blood and dirt from her legs. She won't struggle as she was unconscious, right now I want to ease her pain at least physically. With my power, I took all the pain which was physical and it gave me a fraction of relief. I was caring about someone who could be never mine. With this heart-wrenching truth, I took her in my arms, laying her gently on the back seat and drove towards the start which will lead to the end.

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