A Vampire's Eternity

How long has it been I wonder?...

You want me to never change and so, I made the biggest mistake I've ever done...

All I want is for us to be together but, the world won't let me be with you.

Today is the day you come back to me again… For one night… As the golden moon comes… We sing and sing to fill the lost moments… When the night ends… How many decades do a have to wait again I wonder?...

I wonder over and over again why have I become like this… A monster that yearns for blood.

All I want is to stay with you forever and never change as you asked me to.

I want to look at the mirror to see what I look like. But no matter how much I stare… I can no longer see myself… I can no longer remember what I looked like… The me that you said you'll love for eternity…

Oh! how foolish I was… All I wanted is for me to be with you as we both dream of what we will be… I wonder how many times I have seen you die and be reborn all over again?

It's cold and lonely… I want you by my side. I want to feel your warm… If only I could turn you like me… But, I might just be pathetic and unconfident… I'm afraid that you'll come to hate me for that and, I love you too much that I don't want you to go through this curse like me…

The passed by as I think of the usual stuffs… Night enveloped the world and the golden moon shone up in the starless sky… As usual, you came greeting me with the same words that you told me a thousand years ago…

"You're still the same as ever… How had you've been?"

As I hear those words… Tears started to fall from my eyes and you who saw me in such state, hurriedly came to my side and embraced me and caressed my head…

Ah… Even though I know that it would only hurt me more… I just can't help but want to see you even for just one night at this world of eternal night…

I'm glad that you still remember me from your past life as always…

"Did you know that the world has other creatures with the same intellect as Us? But, the world had kept them imprisoned in another part of the world where eternal night rules and won't let them out. I've witnessed it before…in my past life. They were monsters that spread chaos in the town of my past life… Nobody could leave a scratch at them… I've seen a lot of people being devoured by them. Thanks to us, the wizards, They were locked in that world were the moment stopped and nobody could feel." You said to me before

I believe that the things you said to me back then was true and never have I doubt it.

Little did everyone know that there was someone who was not captured and is re-creating their race… That someone enchanted me with a wonderful deal that was in fact a curse… I was still naïve back then and gave in to the invitations he gave me.

It was already too late when I realized it…

Back then, You were one of the persons who were ordered to seal me in this world… For one moment, the you who always look happy, Showed me an expression that tells me it is hurting you so much.

"Hey… Can you tell me again… what I look like?..." I said

His hand that was caressing my head earlier, move on to touch my cheeks and looked at me with a smiling and yet, mournful look.

"You still have that beautiful brown eyes that I always loved." You said

We spent the whole night, with you listening to the songs I made and after that, I listen to the stories you got while living in the other side. For me, those moments were a bliss that I can not describe.

"This is the 300th time I was reborn since then, right?... You were always here… waiting for me…Even though it was supposed to be the man's role… I'll ask again for the 300th time, Don't you want me to stay with you?..." You said as you look at me…full of guilt and pity…

You said to me before that… Any human who entered this world and does not return back after the golden moon's radiance disappear, will never be able to return… I don't want that… I don't want you to face this loneliness that I feel too!...

As long as I know that you smile for me… I think that I still have a light in this darkness… Only you!... I love you this much…

"I don't want you to stay here"

After a few hours later… The light of the golden moon is fading away… You have to return soon… I guess that this is the 301st farewell...

As always, I went to sent you off to the portal back to the other world… And you would always look back to my way with that sad stare…

It hurts me too… In truth, I want to stay with you longer! I wish we could live together forever! Fulfilling our promise to each other!... But I can't do that…

I wish to stop those footsteps that draw closer to the other world!… I wish to hold those hands that are swaying as you walk!… I want to shout and ask you to not leave me!...

As I think of these things, My legs gave in and I knelt to the ground… Cross holding my shoulders to squeeze the pain….

A while might have already past by now… He might have already crossed-over to the other side… This should be the same event as always… I know that already! And yet… I still can't get used to the pain that I feel every time he leaves…

As I was bracing myself, I felt warm hands reaching out and embracing me to his chest….

"I knew it!... You've been lying to me all this time… You said to me before that you are not lonely and you don't need me here for I might just be devoured here… How can I leave you like this alone??? You've been suffering all this time… You didn't tell me anything honestly about your feelings at all… didn't we promised to each other that we will share our pain, did we? I want you to be honest with me… You don't have to sacrifice yourself for me! I was the one who should be doing that!" You were angry and sad and feeling pathetic at the same time when you said these…

"What about your family over there???Your friends???" I asked

"You are my everything! I vowed that since the day I promised that I will love only you!" You said

Those words made me so happy… I don't know what to do…

I held you close to me and we both cherished our eternity…