Focus on yourself, you have no obligation to us, you are the one dedicating your time to creating this series, it is ok to take time for yourself if you want to, you have a very good track record, even if you do drop we will recover, do not do this out of duty, do this if you want to, and now
Your friend is no on his journey to the new world, so instead of mourning for him, celebrate his life you had with him as well as his farewell so that he knows that he can begin his journey.
Please take time to grieve no need to worry about us, focus on yourself for now we wholeheartedly understand your situation. I give my prayers to you and your family. đ