Review Detail of damdidum in Spider Gamer(MCU)

MC really wants to meet x men for no apparent reason. It doesn't matter if he has all the things he already has. It got annoying very quickly when the MC constantly reminds himself that he wants to meet them for no other reason just to have a fight/spar.Sadly the novel isn't that good despite gamer abilities and the dialogues seem to be a bit forced at this point.Furthermore I'm a straight guy, nothing wrong with gay people but I like peter parker straight.