Review Detail of Sero_Hanta in Fire Mage

Ok, this is my review up until chapter 190, which is about in the middle of the second volume. Please keep that in mind when reading this review. Ok, the first time I read this novel I dropped it at chapter 27. The writing wasn't the best, the story, the dialogue and even the characters were just not my cup of tea. The quality just wasn't good. Then I was told to give it another shot and by chapter 13 I was already ready to quit again. However, I continued and as I continued the volume started to get better, and things were getting more fleshed out. You can see that by the end of volume 1 while it wasn't a masterpiece the novel was becoming something worth reading. Volume 2 was also good! The Mc until where I was, had started to act smarter, focused on things that I had been screaming at him to do and the world was looking pretty good. That is until the whole thing with his spell came into being. Spoiler Alert btw but he has a spell that can heal using soul fire. This is pretty nice and the author makes the point to add that emotions are used to stabilise the spell models in his mind. Love and care in this case are tied to soul heal. This isn't bad, makes some ok sense and even adds a lil depth to the power system. What makes this bad though is what comes next. Our Mc has a dilemma about how he just doesn't have enough memories and experiences with showing care and emotion and the artefact gives him the idea to use a side character (who wants to lock him up and arrest him) as someone to fall in love with. He will give his second consciousness the task of loving and caring about this character. Now forget about the fact this is a stupid idea, also forget the fact that loving someone is a huge weakness for someone who is being targeted by multiple big bads. What makes this stupid in my eyes is that he has other options, he can focus that care and love on his dead mother, his grandfather, he can focus it on the kids he is taking care of, and he can make a second consciousness to love and care about him. Why go for someone who isn't even on your side?He ends up saying he will think about it and finds out that this plan will work but will cause him to deal with the pain forever, not to mention learns that one of the bigger bads will probably take advantage of his new weakness to this girl. Then just decided that it's okay and does it anyway. Now im just sitting here thinking if I should drop it again. I'm not a huge fan of romance but this whole situation rubs me the wrong way. Is it fan service? Just an idea that in my opinion is pretty bad? I'm not sure.If the author or anyone who has read further than me sees this please let me know what this whole business is about and how long it lasts. This way ill know if I should just skip through and hope I don't regret it or if I should just drop the novel.