Her Past (2)

"Well, the first half is done. Hehe... And now begins the part where you will hate me."

"I won't."

"I doubt it, but here goes... Because my emotions were uncontrollable, my mentality was also uncontrollable. This caused my immense powers to start stirring up again and caused me to go back into human form. I had even more scars this time because of the times I had to shield the Demon King. The scars were not only on the outside, but also on the inside. Even now, the scars are still there."

"What else happened when your powers went out of control?"

"I took a start to the dark side. I killed anyone who angered me. I killed couples who were in love. I killed happy families. I killed innocent lives because I was jealous. I aided the evil side in their wars with the good side. I killed my own family. I killed my own child."

"H-Ho-How did you come to?"

With a fleeting smile, "One day, a god came to me and said if I lost the fight with him, I would be his slave. He said that I had been terrorizing too many people. I had lost the fight and when I did I cried so hard. I hated myself to the core for what I had done. I hated myself for my idiocy. I hated myself for so many reasons. I cried myself until I gave in to the thought of killing smile. When I was only a second away from killing myself, he said that I'm dumb for committing suicide. He said if I did, I will be on list of the most dumbest people on the world. I suppose he said that so that I would have some liveliness again. At least it worked though."

"Don't tell me that that man was Lu Ming."

"It was. He helped live through everyday life. He gave me a new face. He gave me a new name. He gave me a new identity. When 5 years had passed since the day we fought, I asked him why he had helped me. Can you guess what his response was?"

"No, I don't know him."

"'You looked lonely', he said. But when he said that, somehow I couldn't believe him. His eyes did not look like it always did when he talked to me. His eyes looked like he wanted to say something else, but he didn't want me to be hurt, so he chose to say that instead."

"What if he wanted to say 'I love you'?"

"Him saying that? I could never imagine it. He was always cold to me and treated me like a child."

"You said I would hate you, but I feel even more so that you should be protected. You were wrong."

"I guess so. I just thought you would be like everyone else."

"Like everyone else?"

"Lu Ming gave me a new family. After living more than long enough to be comfortable and trust each other again, I them my past, too, but they-"

"You don't have to explain. Just tell me more about the curse."

"The curse... I can't fall in love with another man other than the Demon King. I must follow everyone of his commands. I can't kill myself."

"If you did the opposite of those things what would be the effect?"

"I would die a painful death and I will never have a chance to reincarnate again."

Finished talking, I felt like a huge rock had been lifted from my shoulders. Yet, what I couldn't believe was that the prince didn't mind that I killed innocent people. I thought he would hate, but yet, he thinks I should be protected. Can I trust in him?

"Your Highness, you really don't care that I've killed innocent people?"

"I've killed innocent ones before, too."

"But I killed my own child. You really don't hate me for that?"

"No, that is the reason why I love you even further."

"What?"

"It seems like we were meant to be. If you had a child from another man, I think I would have killed the child myself."

"Your Highness! That is illogical!"

"How is it illogical? It is logical. I love you so much, I don't want anybody to have you other than myself. I know I'm selfish, but I'm hoping you can indulge my selfishness."

"Your Highness, you know that I may die, if fall in love in with you, right?"

"I'll find a way to remove the curse. I have connections that can help."

I felt so many emotions at finding a new person to trust in that I couldn't help, but hug this man. I was happy that I found someone else who can still love me even knowing my past.

"Oof... Are you that happy at finding that you have a trusting husband?"

"Yes, but I'm sad that I can't love you."

Prince Wu was happy hearing the yes, but immediately his eyes became murderous and blood thirsty hearing the final words of the woman in front of him. Demon King, just wait. I'll torture you until you reach the final level of hell. I will make you feel the 100 times more painful than what Ling'er felt.

"If you killed your child then does that mean that you've lost your...?"

"Yes, but don't worry, I've got it back!"

"How?"

"I'm a doctor, alchemist, and smart in poisons and medicine. I concocted a pill that lets you gain back your chastity. But although I've got it back... It's a scar that is ingrained into my memories of which can never be removed."

"I'll try my best to find a way to remove that curse."

"Mm, thank you."

After sitting on his lap for a while, I finally remembered that I was suppose to be jumping clouds at this time. When I was about to get up, the prince grabbed my wrist and asked me in a low tone, "Where are you going?"

"You promised me both cloud jumping and flying."

"Well, I go back on my words. Only flying."

"What!? That's unfair Your Highness."

All he gave me was a look of playfulness. He was happy with now, so I should be happy along with him. Still, I keep asking myself, how come I fell for this man in only a short month, yet, it took 6 years for Lu Ming. Somehow, I feel that I've been unfair to him all of a sudden. But don't think he minds that at all. After all, he doesn't love me, so it should be fine, that the person I love now, also reciprocates my feelings.

After a while, I started feeling tired, so fell asleep on the prince's chest.

Ling'er, you said that your face is but a mask, but I'm sure even with all the scars, you have a beautiful face. A face unrivaled of. A face so beautiful, nobody has seen before.