6 Shatter.

Kiyoomi' POV

She makes her way to the coffee table, in front of the sofa I'm seated on and set the Tea down along with two tea cups.

"Thank you". I thank her as she pours the tea into my cup.

"Of course" she replies, before pouring a cup of her own.

"Well, what's brought you here...Matsuya San?" she asks me. I cringe once again at the use of my family name and formality.

"Please just 'kiyoomi' is fine" I say just beneath my breath but still audible enough for her to hear.

"It wouldn't feel right....but if you..insist" she replies. Voice so soft as she stares into the cup of tea in her hands, seated on the sofa opposite of me.

Once again not sparring me a glance.

Until I clear my throat. Still not a clue in the slightest as to what to say.

"I umm..."

'Be honest' I tell myself.

"I came here, without thinking"

I paused to read her expression...

Eyebrows slowly furrowing, confusion...frustration. Possibly anger?

I wasn't exactly sure, but continued nonetheless.

"After our meet..I couldn't stop thinking about you"

Her eyes still glued to the cup of tea, a frown just barely present on her face.

"I'm so sorry"

my voice croaks.

"I promise I didn't mean to hurt you-"

"But you did..."

She cuts me off.

I look up.

Shattered.

Is what my heart now felt looking at the woman in front of me, nearly shaking from trying to hold her tears in.

From trying to hold herself together.

"Tenshi" I whisper.

I glanced down to the cup of tea I held with both hands, then back to her. Pressing my lips together to a thin line. I wanted to hold her...but what if I make it worse?

So I decided to continue.

"I'm wrong and I was wrong..and I'm aware of it..I couldn't stop myself from coming.."

I watch her, she places her cup onto the coaster on the coffee table..very shakily. She leaned her right elbow onto her knee and her hand cups over her forehead, as if to hide her eyes from me as she looks downward.

I continue.

"I shouldn't have allowed him to join..our meet that day, I was extremely inconsiderate and rude to you for that." I looked down.

I hear her sniffle.

Silence.

".." before I could speak she cuts me off

"You don't love me anymore...you've made that very clear."

Oh kami..my heart clenched, she sounded so hurt, so broken.

So Shattered.

I squeeze my eyes shut. "Tenshi...I" I cut myself off as I hear a soft whimper followed by a sniffle, before looking back up at her.

Tears spilling to the floor..

My heart...

It's now overpowering everything in me...

~It's Aching

I set my cup of tea down, getting up immediately, feeling my heart clench.

I sat beside her, as she covered her face with her dainty hands.

I wrap my arms around her and pull her to me. My left arm gripping her waist, as I set her on my lap, my right arm wraps at her shoulder, my right hand digging through her hair pulling her even closer to my chest.

Holding onto her like she might disappear in the next second.

As she shakes violently in my arms.

Sniffle after sniffle.

Soft whimpers.

What have I done?

The same woman that used to be so positive, and warm...so vibrant..

Is now the woman shattering in my grasp, no hope, so cold...a dimmed light.

I should have never let go.

Not out of pity.

Out of the realization, that I am in fact...

Very in love with this woman

I wasn't thinking ...when I started seeing him..

I was only being selfish.

As I always am.

Letting go of her was a mistake..

"I'm still so In Love with you"

Words I thought I had said in my head...

I accidentally spoke out loud.