7 Guilty.

Kiyoomi' POV

Reminiscing my time with her through out these three months, was so painful.

Thinking back to all of our shared moments...

They were more than just moments...they were memories ....memories of someone I hold in my heart.

Memories of my first love.

Yet through out this entire time without her, they were just mere memories.

And that alone was painful.

To not have her there with me.

It was my fault.

I thought it couldn't get anymore painful than that.

But here I am holding her in my arms.

holding her so tight.

As if, once I let go, or even loosen my grip on her in the slightest...she'll disperse into fine powder.

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"I'm still so in love with you"

I felt her shrink in my arms as if she was curling into a ball. Her sobs became uncontrollable.

I've broken her.

She gripped my turtleneck. Her hands squeezing into fist as her grip tightened.

My own tears rolling down my face.

Pain

In this moment that's all that was felt.

My bottom lip tucked beneath my top row of teeth, biting down, trying hard not to let out any whimpers. Trying hard not to let her hear me.

Who am I to cry?

Yet the strain on my heart is unbearable.

I clench her so tight to my own body. As I myself, begin to crumble.

"I'm so sorry..." it's too late.

Sobs from both of us could be heard through out the dimly lit living room, as the first snow of the night fell.

She now wrapped her arms around my torso, gripping the back of my cotton turtleneck

I didn't know what else to say other than 'I'm so sorry..'

I caused all this pain in our lives.

I'm the reason she's shattered.

Once more.

I dip my head down.

Muffling my sobs in her soft curls.

I let go of her...

Only to embrace her once more.

With my large palms caressing the left and right sides of her face, I lift her head so she is facing me.

Her eyes locked on my covered torso, crystal droplets streaming down her beautiful, soft features, that cascade off her jaw onto our laps.

Her eyes read that of sadness...a window that led to emptiness.

No gleam of hope.

I feel my chest sink in. A huff of air exits my mouth as I try to hold myself together.

The tips of our noses a faint red.

Without thinking....I lean in closer, so that our faces are a mere inch apart.

Maybe I shouldn't..? But I can't help myself. I haven't been able to stop thinking about her since we went, what should have been our separate ways.

With slight shock, her eyes flicker to

mine, as I hold her face in my grasp.

I rub my nose to hers.

Both our faces stained by our tears.

Her breath hitches.

I swallow nearly every ounce of sorrow in this moment.

"I meant it." Another gulp

"I'm still so in love with you." I whisper against her lips.

Her eyes shut...tears still spilling over, like a drizzle at the end of a storm.

My eyes slowly shut.

I seal our lips together,

She kisses me back.

My brows slowly pinch together.

Pain & fear of the unknown still wary in the pit of my stomach.

Our lips gently mold to one another.

Soft and

Passionate,

Our kiss spoke...

'I missed you.'