9 Conscious.

Her POV

We layed in the bed after our shower. My mind was in shambles.

No one spoke a word, but it wasn't an awkward silence.

I didn't wanna overthink what had just happened, because I would have overwhelmed myself with more questions.

I knew it was so soon ...and that I shouldn't have given in.

But I couldn't help myself. I had told myself all this time, that I would accept him with my arms wide open if the opportunity presented itself.

I didn't know if I should let what he said sink into my head just yet...'I'm still so in love with you'.

But as he made 'Love' to me...that was the only thing that kept repeating itself in my head til my brain became complete mush.

I 1,000% had no plans on asking about Atsu.

To tell the truth, I have no clue what's going to happen. I just wanted to continue living in this moment.

'Am I repeating mistakes?' I ask myself in my inner thoughts, squeezing my eyes shut for a moment before opening them once more.

I found it hard to stop myself. I wanted to be greedy tonight.

I had missed him.

I still love him.

I'm still hopeful.

The feeling of his lips on mine was mesmerizing.

It only led me to crave further for him.

I allowed myself to become vulnerable tonight...for him..

and myself.

I began to reminisce the feeling of his lengthy girth inside of me..

My stomach had been fluttering in pleasure, my heart palpating in my chest, my cheeks burning, toes curling, core throbbing around him while his hands gripped onto me pulling me closer...then I remembered what his moans and groans sounded like.

It was euphoric.

It was a dream I never wanted to awaken from.

A feeling I didn't want to part from.

A part of me wanted to go again, yet I felt as though it were better to leave it as is.

'Maybe there will be another time' I thought to myself.

Wishful thinking.

I wanted to once more feel him inside of me as I clench my hands through his soft luscious jet black curls and stare into his eyes that resembled obsidian in the dimly lit room.

His eyes...

They were protruding, round and wide, with irises that resembled a smooth dark chocolate.

With a fair skin complexion.

His height was 6'4, he was a rather large male. Broad and wide shoulders, a beautifully fit figure with pecs, abs and a profound v line with long defined firm arms. There were slight veins leading down his forearms to his large hands and some veins that led down his v line and along his shaft.

His facial features were soft while still very manly, his jaw and cheek bone structure were very prominent, like that of a Greek god. A high bridge nose suited perfectly to his features, plump pale pink lips with Cupid's bow, straight pearly white teeth and a deep dimple on his right cheek that peaked through even at the slightest facial expression.

How could I not yearn for him.

My physical attraction was always very strong towards him since we had met. Even with his cold and unapproachable aura. He was my first and my only.

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I had spent months by myself.

Far from everyone..

Trying so hard to bury myself in my work. Only talking to business partners and investors.

I tried so hard to keep him off my conscience but failed miserably.

And yet here he is.

Wrapping me in his warm embrace kissing on the part of my back that was exposed by my nightgown.

The snow had became heavy that night. But I just stared outside before reaching over to grab the remote on the nightstand to close the curtains just a little.

I didn't want to be blinded by morning rays of sunlight, only to remind me that the night of passion I had been yearning for had came to an end.

My 'stomach did a complete flop' out of not knowing what was to come. We still had to talk.

I'm willing to listen and hear what he has to say.

I'm just very curious as to where this will lead us.

So for tonight I'll continue to let him embrace me with his warmth.

I'll be greedy for the night.

I'll enjoy the rest of what he has to offer me on this snowy evening.

~

After what felt like forever, I drifted off to sleep with the fire place still going, leaving the room dimly lit, his arm draped over me while I lay on my left side on the freshly changed comforter set as he spooned me from behind, with my fluffy king size blanket wrapped around us.

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