39 Night Worries

"Host, please be careful during the war and restrain yourself as much as you can. We don't want you completely losing control. Once it happens, the bloodthirst will be harder to restrain."

After staying at the residence prepared by the officer under the Supreme Leader, Yusheng used his privilege as the Prince, as well as the Emperor's letter to become one of the countless Generals in the army.

Of course, there are people who don't feel good about his sudden high rank in the army, but, there is also a fact that it is easier for other people to accept the situation since it is part of his privilege as an Imperial Prince in the Su Empire.

This supposedly unfair treatment is easier to accept in ancient times, because such an act is part of common sense in this world, 'status and identity have certain privileges in life'.

If it was the modern world, there would have been more noise and loathing about using such relations to get a powerful position, nepotism, etc. Then he might have been spitted on in disgust, envy, or loathe on the internet if someone wanted to blacken him.

Well, Yusheng is remembering the life he just died, suddenly feeling a bit nostalgic about the modern technology that the ancient time didn't have.

Like a certain internet addiction… the convenience of technology… 

"I know."

"Fortunately the Host met Wang Ling so early. If he is with you in the war, there is a low chance that the uncontrollable and violent bloodthirstiness will go out of control."

"Um, I'm quite fortunate to meet him in my life."

Sun sure is being long-winded…

Although Yusheng inwardly grumbles those words, he isn't really annoyed and irritated by the system's overly worried attitude. After all, he can feel that the system genuinely cares about his well-being and not just because of the benefits of partnering for certain deals and goals in this world.

"Well, Host, I have to go, my identity has many responsibilities and duties to fulfill so it's another busy day again."

"Um, take care. Don't forget that you are now physically human, so proper rest is needed."

"Hehe, thank you for the concern, Host! I'll definitely listen to your advice! Bye~"

Detecting that the system has disconnected from their special mind link communication, Yusheng who is standing in a clear yard slowly takes the sword out of its scabbard and a sharp silver light glistens in the sword, looking dangerously beautiful.

And yet, in Yusheng's purple eyes, another image is reflected in his vision.

He can basically see the reflection of the blood of the countless people he will be slaughtered on the battlefield stained upon it.

The countless lives he will be taking away, even the disgusting feeling of ease from slicing a person's body apart or piercing it, those scenes can't help but flash in front of his eyes.

Taking the lives of others is something he has long been used to, it's just that he prefers to take the lives of the traitors more, especially the people who dare to scheme against him, and the lives of the people who betrayed him in the previous life.

"... this is weird… I'm really affected by this evil fire, huh…"

Yusheng can also feel the unusual excitement when thinking of the people he will kill with his own hands. The blood is boiling at the mere thought of the countless dead bodies that will be piled up.

Excitement at the thought of taking a person's life… not even once had he felt this way… unless it is the life of the people he loathed the most.

"It's going to be dangerous… but so be it…"

I will bear the consequences of my actions… but this won't stop me from fulfilling what I want in this life…

Yusheng's eyes flash with determination since he won't waste the chance he is given. Even if he is going to lose his mind, as long as he reaches the end of his goal, he doesn't even mind-destroying his own self.

As for the certain person, he will be leaving if it were to happen, he can only try to suppress the overwhelming regret of what could have been as best as he could.

Yusheng wouldn't deny the fact that there is a yearning, longing, and desire to be with the person he finally met in this life.

However, he doesn't allow such possibility because of his situation, so he can only desperately and forcibly cut any budding emotions that could grow during their time together.

He shouldn't be greedy and give someone any false hope. Because there would be a time where he has to choose between revenge or his own happiness.

There is always sacrifice in life, especially when accomplishing a certain goal. For a person like himself, who is brimming with hatred and resentment because of his previous life, he doesn't want to be put in circumstances where he would be forced to make a painful choice.

Let me be the one to experience all the painful hardship in this life… there is no need to let other people carry such a heavy burden…

Yusheng can only let out a deep sigh while slashing the air with his sword, trying to remove the distracting thoughts that want to stay rooted in his mind.

In this life, meeting the soulmate he has always longed for and yearned for before rebirth is both a blessing and misfortune.

He is both happy and saddened by it, basically, full of contradictions.

"It would be better if that certain condition for treatment of Wang Ling would be changed though…"

Although the carriers of miracles are both hard to be emotional and touch, but the factor of the soul mark makes everything complicated.

There is also the fact that after being intimate for a long time, Yusheng won't deny that there is a possibility for feelings to grow no matter how he doesn't want it to happen.

Just as the sages have always said, emotions are difficult to control, especially when falling for someone.

"... Maybe, there is no need to control when killing people in the war even if it can make the bloodthirst grow stronger…"

Since Yusheng cannot get away from the consequences of his Karma from taking the countless lives of the innocent in the previous life, there would be no difference even if he continues to do it in this life.

Like killing those with already negative loyalty, or those with great hostility toward me… As for the enemy soldiers…

Well, Yusheng has to ask Wang Ling if he doesn't mind losing a lot of his people since he is still the Wang Empire Imperial Prince.

"... Alright, I'll be more straightforward in the war…"

The most common strategy or fact for the commander of their own army is to remain in a safe place since it is his duty to command the soldiers instead of leading the war in the front.

After all, once the commander is taken down, it is the greatest blow to the army's morale, causing chaos in the army and giving an opportunity to the enemy to give them a hard blow, even causing the war to be lost.

Only in certain important situations can the commander lead the war in the front, using the sword in his hand to kill and chase the enemies.

And Yusheng plans to be in the frontline, not only to easily remove the traitors, but it can also help change his image from the people who know about him.

Particularly when it was a good reason and explanation about his sudden change of personality and attitude when he got back in the Capital.

After all, he won't be playing nice to those aristocrats' families, officials, and ministers in the Imperial Court.

A tyrant, violent and murderous Prince is the route he will follow. There is no need to give a benevolent and kind image anymore. That foolish person has already died in that fire.

As for his Imperial Brother and Emperor Father reactions, Yusheng slowly closes his eyes when he imagines how they will react and what kind of attitude they will treat him.

Will they feel threatened? Will they change their attitude towards me? Will they stop loving me?

Yusheng is honestly scared of those possibilities because they are the people who can easily affect him.

However, there is no time to waste, that bug has lived in this world from a young age and in the dark, that bug has already made countless moves.

Although that bug cheat has been in Wang Ling's body all this time, it also doesn't change the fact that there were still many years for that bug to make her Empire strong.

Which is enough time to properly complete the preparation to conquer the other Empires.

Heh… that bug sure is ambitious for wanting to be a generation of Monarch, huh?

So, Yusheng has to make a heavy move, causing the people in great power to fear him so that when he sits on that throne they won't be able to easily oppose him.

No matter what the consequences of such unreasonable and violent actions, what he has to do is to quickly and efficiently change the Su Empire, make it powerful enough to defend and also conquer the other Empires.

There are so many changes, so many people to train and promote, new laws to decree, and being the Emperor is the best and fastest way to do it.

Yusheng's generation is a great era of chaos, a war-filled world.

There is also the fact that a lot of people have been born with great ambition and greed in Yusheng generation, causing the chaos to become more turbulent and dangerous.

That is why, the Imperial Brother isn't fit to be the Emperor, if it was in a peaceful era, then it would be an entirely matter. Unfortunately, a kind and benevolent Monarch wouldn't be able to cause their Empire to survive at the oncoming danger.

The previous life is the perfect evidence of it.

Even without the traitor and ambitious relative getting in the way, the Su Empire wasn't powerful enough to defend the powerful Bai Empire that had already completely conquered the Li Empire with the Wang Empire already most in their hand.

It is also one of the reasons why Yusheng in the fit of madness had decided to completely destroy the Empire. How could he make it so easy for that bug to take what she desires the most?

Does she want his Empire? Then, he will give her a destroyed one!

The moment when Yusheng is about to descend into madness, as the previous life memories emerge in his mind, a gentle and kind voice filled with worry reaches his ears.

"Your Royal Highness, your wrinkled eyebrows are so heavy so late at night, would you like to share your worries with me?"

Yusheng blinks his eyes, quickly suppressing the murderous intent that was about to overflow before finally turning his head slightly.

And when he saw the slender figure standing in the open door of his room with a thick coat wrapped around his thin body, a warm smile quickly appeared on his face.

Ah… when will I be able to fatten Wang Ling? He is still too thin…

At the same time, Yusheng can't help but wonder with worry after seeing the man's figure, the trouble and heavy thoughts in his mind easily being swept away as soon as he lays his eyes upon the man.

"Hm, there are a lot of problems ahead of us. Don't worry, I'll let you know about it, but for now, are you having trouble sleeping? Your body is weak, you have to sleep at the right time and make sure to have eight hours of sleep a day."

He quickly rushed over to stop the man from stepping out of the door while putting the sword back into its scabbard.

"Stay there, the wind is cold at night. What will I do if you suddenly get sick?"

You are so delicate and fragile!

After making sure that the man is tightly wrapped with a thick cloth, Yusheng waves his hand and lets Qi, who has been guarding him in the dark, quickly heat up a cup of milk.

As for where Qi would get the milk in the middle of the night, well, he believes in the young man's ability to complete his order.

Ignoring how wilful his thoughts are, Yusheng gently and thoughtfully pulls the man back into his room, he is so worried that he doesn't bother about what kind of gossip it will lead to if someone sees him entering the room of a carrier of a miracle in the middle of the night.

After all, for people with red marks on their bodies, this is quite similar to entering a female boudoir.

Even though their world is more open and isn't as strict as in ancient times when it comes to relationships, there are always certain actions and proper etiquette a person needs to be careful about.

Of course, Yusheng and Wang Ling aren't worried about it because such a reputation will only further lead to the infatuated image that they wanted for others to think about regarding their ambiguous relationship.

Although in the dark, Guang who has remained hidden while Qi went to complete the mission he was ordered can't help but show a thoughtful look on his face after watching such an extremely caring and thoughtful Prince.

There is also deep calculation flashing in his eyes when gazing at the young man being taken care of.

Of course, the man doesn't know that he is already a target in the eyes of the two Imperial Princes.

So, who the prey or predator is, it's quite easy to guess.