13: they left

My grandma died and I'm the last one to know. Why?

I feel terrible.

I was very close to her.

She gave me my name, told me how to feed my brothers and so many things....

I'm upset but I thought about my grandpa he is more in grief than I do because he spent his entire life with her and loved her so much.

He is holding up strongly he even cried while looking her dead wife. Grandma was 85 years old and grandpa 94 years old. they got married 70 years ago.

So you can imagine how much they love each other.

Grandfather cried while watching her wife being buried...

An awkward silence stayed in those days.

After my grandmother's death my Grandfather started to get ill.

I was worried about him.

My father didn't cared a bit about his dead mother. He left right away in front of his mom's dead body.

He didn't even cried a tear for her.

Since she died my father disappeared he didn't cared to come back to check on us.

Like before I took care of my brothers and grandfather too.

I started to see my Grandpa getting ill after his wife's death.

He loved her so much.

It's been 3 months since my mom abandoned us, my mother grandma died and my father disappeared.

My Baba could never become little responsible can he?

He should be here taking care of his father and kids.

But he choose to left all of us.

Baba love his alcohol and smoking more than his family.

It was a Sunday night grandpa brought his favourite food .

Suddenly he is not quiet anymore.

I thought he was trying to move on from Grandma's absence.

He spent few great days with his grandchildrens.

However, no parents but at least I'm glad my grandfather is here.

Everything wasn't worst at least I have my dear grandfather with me.

He says a lot to me

He often says Myin my child it's been a very long time since since I heard you talking. He told me " Myin you were 2 years old when I last heard you talking to anyone.

I wanna hear you again my dear before I die.

I felt lighter for the first time I wasn't worried about anything I was relaxed.

There were me and my grandfather only in the room. I was listening to him carefully.

Finally I couraged to say something to my grandfather it took me a whole hour to say that but I wanted to fulfill his wish I said "

Grandpa I, I,, Iove you and thank you."

After that I became dead silent I felt I've committed a crime because talking is not my thing at all but at the same time I felt nice cause I did something good for my Dear grandpa.

He immediately hugged me he said Oh my Myin I love you Too and I know you can overcome this and you will be able to talk someday probably.

I'm proud of you. Grandpa put his both hands on my face  looked me in the eyes said "look myin I know your life is very difficult because of your parents but I know you are a fighter so never give up OK!"

I nodes Yes.

That day we really had a good day.

But I didn't knew that it was Grandpa's last day with me.

It was midnight as usual I couldn't sleep.

My brothers were at sleep.

Grandfather was spending some time with my aunts and uncles.

I heard a sudden scream and cry.

I went to Grandpa's room I saw everyone crying and say call the ambulance.

My grandpa wasn't moving I thought he was sleeping but he died too.....

Doctors said he had a heart attack.

Everyone called my baba and told him about Grandpa's death....

I'm so sad he left me too.... Why God why?