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"My happiness knew no bounds, not until what happened and no matter how hard I try, I still remain sad anytime I remember the events of that day."

F.A.B

"I'm hungry..." I lamented to no one in particular when I got into my room, I didn't eat before leaving and I feel like my stomach is about to eat my intestines. Times like this I wish I had a roommate,why? By this time she'd have cooked, and all I'd have to do is eat and I'll do the same for her.

I just can't risk it, I prefer to stay alone and embrace my solitude and manage my panic attacks, yes I have panic attacks as a result of the childhood trauma, which I don't like to talk about for fear of breaking down...it would always remain the tale for another day, always.

Knock knock...

Wait what? No one knocks my door, who could that be? I went to open the door and saw Ronke smiling brightly, she didn't even give me a chance to say hello before she dragged me out to the veranda, then she pointed at the mansion.

"Look! The gates are open"

I turned my eyes to look at the gate and I was awestruck, from here I could see the beautiful horticulture and neat pavements, the mansion itself looked beautiful from the ground up, I was still marvelling at its beaty when the gates closed shut wiping the smile off my face. That was the first time I ever saw the gates open, and it was so short, but it definitely won't be the last. I faced Ronke and all I could say was, "wow"

"I know, I know" she replied "it's marvelous"

"Yeah"

I still can't believe I was able to see the gates open, then I thanked Ronke and walked back into my room, I prepared food to eat and I ate like a hungry lion, I hate it when I'm hungry but it's unavoidable, then I went into my room with the intention of getting a shower. I stood in front of the mirror and removed my clothe slowly, noticing my curves and edges, despite the trauma, I had escaped without spots on me, no marks, my skin looked flawless, I turned my back and stared at it in the mirror and, it was also spotless, it's a miracle I escaped untouched, my physical features still dripping with melanin, but my soul didn't go untouched, it has been smeared and polluted, I look forward to the day I'll be free from my personal monsters, maybe then, I'd be able to live happily.

I stepped into the bathroom and started to run the shower on my body. The cold water kept on reminding me of the iciness of my heart, cold and numb to pain, the events of that night shattered all glasses of love and leaving me with hate, an emptiness I couldn't quite describe, it's been that way.

I walked out and came to face an object on my bed, I'm not sure if it was there when I got in, I edged closer to my bed and saw a box of cookies with a folded note on it, I opened the note and it read,

"Hey poppy."