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"Life is so sweet when you're living your dream and you're fulfilled.

Life is so sweet until tragedy strikes."

F.A.B

School life is such a bliss, why? In the University you meet new people not knowing what year they're in and well, they tend to deceive you with their stature and looks, you could meet a sheepish looking person thinking he's a first year student not knowing he's in his final year, it's so funny and sometimes embarrassing realizing your mistake at times. I stay at an off-campus hostel for reasons best known to me...it's dangerous but still, it's fun, I'm not against being on-campus, but my childhood trauma wouldn't let me stay on campus, because somehow they could be linked... giving me flashes of the past.

"Hey, Fiyin, how's everything going?" Shola, a hostel mate asked me, and all I could say was "Fine." That four letter word, "fine" hides more than it is to carry, it's the word used by everyone, whether they're happy or sad...that four letter word has ended relationships, eased tensions, cleared doubts, and of course hidden secrets.

"I'm fine"

People hide things just by saying "fine" not everyone wants to talk about their hectic day at work or their true opinions of something, so instead, they end up saying "I'm fine" or "it's fine" or "fine." The number of times I've used it everytime I've been asked a sensitive question cannot be numbered, still...I keep living, I can't let the past keep on haunting me, sometimes I have to shove it away and try to live happily, but trust me, it's not easy, sometimes it comes back with more power than before, hitting me right in the face, leading to a burst of tears, who do I have to lean on? No one, absolutely no one, but that's fine. I've been like this for years now, nothing's going to change it, what's done is done, and it's going to remain that way forever, no edits, no going back.

Ever.