Chapter Nineteen.

THOUGHTS

Sitting out here in total silence

Asking myself every now and then

Thinking that I hold the best

One who thinks about me always

And wishes for my stay in his life

To walk the hills and valleys together

With hugs and kisses all along

Filling the journey with laughter

And thick yet joyous smiles

Pinned with delight on our cheeks

Crossing road to road for trips

Standing firm and tall to reach the sky

More like a tall yet aged tree

One praised to offer life in the world.

Say you hear me calling out

For I find your lovely face

Upon everyone I see

Thinking that it is you

You stretch out your bulk arms

Like you are calling unto me

With a lovely smile on the face

Running with clear moods

With a clear sky height smile

Showing how pleased I am

That you are before me again

Adding more effort in the run

To cross all the huge distance

In a flash like speed

And reach you out

To feel your pleasing warmth

One that eroses my inner self

Yet on arrival before you

Throwing up my self for a hug

Is when it dawns at me

That you were never once present

For it was my mind cook

That you stood before me.

Curled in a detached dark room

Developing a fear of the lights

For I lost my dear light in life

One who showed up in my darkest hour

Now gone to a sight of no reach

Not even my heart's call

Can bring him back to me

Like the huge great wall

He has turned his back to me

And never will I see his face again

One that I called my sunlight

For my arms are far weak

To move the chain locks on his heart

Merely left to lead a lonely life

Giving me a reason to cherish the darkness

For we now look alike in this long life.