Chapter 3:Regret

Cold... it feels so cold and lonely...it feels like my body is being pulled into a never-ending ocean filled with nothing but... emptiness? I don't know how to explain this feeling but... I hate it so much... it's not uncomfortable and something unknown flowing throughout my body..maybe I ended up dying after all...

Is this how the deceased feel? How I wish I could get rid of this feeling.. maybe this is hell... and the uneasiness I am feeling is from those people I have killed. Then I am in no position to complain about it, after all, I was the one who caused it in the first place.

Haaa... seems like it's all finally over, in the end, I am not even sure how I even died in the first place. The only thing I could remember was that weird incident involving the damn retarded truck after which I closed my eye.

The only thing that I was feeling now was.... regret? Is this want people called recalling all your life's regrets right when it's near its end?Wow.... thinking about it I have so many regrets, don't I?

I regret not being able to truly honest with myself and my feeling...I regret not being able to say my last goodbye...I regret not being able to spend more time with those 2 idiots who were always there with me through thick and thin...

I regret ever even thinking of coming out today... if... if only I just listened to Akiras and Airas ranting and just stayed home... maybe this would have never happened...

heck... I even regret tiny things like not being able to eat any more of that cake she made this morning... *sigh* if only I knew that it would be my last time ever I would have made sure to gobble it down without a single thought.I further regret not being able to be at least a little more kinder to Aira, who always though and did everything for more

As I started thinking about the happy memories that we shared together a sharp pain pierced my heart and soon I felt a warm liquid flowing from my eyes.

Honestly speaking, I was kinda surprised at first 'these are... my tears? wait am I really crying now? Is it even possible to cry in the afterlife? Heh...thinking about it if you exclude all time when I just fake cried... it's been years since I cried because I was feeling genuine sadness.

I wonder if I will keep drowning deeper and deeper like this, or maybe I will reincarnate when enough time has passed.. a year, maybe 2... Nah, they sound to littleMaybe I might have to spend a few centuries like this... Sounds lonely to be here all alone like that when I had those 2 noisy idiots in my life.

Thinking bout them a small smile appeared on my face. ' I hope they continue to live their lives happily' But when I imagined them forgetting me and both of them enjoying together, a sharp arrow once again pierced my heart. 'but... maybe its better this way, as it would not be good for them to suffer any more pain because of me once again'Thinking this I once again feel into my cold slumber.

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Just when I was starting to get used to this eerie silence... I suddenly heard.... a voice?WAIT WHAT?!! WTF AM I FINALLY GOING CRAZY...no, no no, I might just be hallucinating, yes that's right.. wait isn't hallucinating a symptom of going crazy. Wait.. calm down, yes take deep breaths *inhale**exhale*

Amidst in these things going on in my mind, that voice said something once again, but due to my unstable state of mind, I wasn't able to hear it clearly.

Just when I was nearly convinced the I was starting to think I was going insane the scene in front of my eyes changed.It switched from a never-ending pool of darkness to a place filled with blinding light.

My first reaction was to instinctively shut my eyes close as they started stinging from the sudden change in the environment.

After finally getting used to the bright light, the first thing I saw was a group of people, their eyes were sparkling with hope and... happiness?

My first reaction was to instinctively try to get away from them, but as soon as I tried to move the sharp pain I felt a while ago once again travelled through my body.

"Who are you people?" was the only thing I remembered asking after which I lost consciousness once again