Chapter 26- Thinking about him

''Sia! Finally! We were just about to come down to look for you'' Ms. Wilber walks up to me with panic across her face.

''Oh, I'm sorry. I just wasn't feeling well so I took a break for a while'' I lie through my teeth.

''Are you better now?'' she asks.

''Yeah''

''Okay well this bathroom is free you can use this one'' she points to the bathroom ahead of her and I smile and walk toward it.

''Sia, god I was getting worried! Are you okay?'' Kate walks out of a bathroom stall.

''Yeah I'm fine''

''Were you crying?''

''Oh uhm... no, some dust just flew in my eye and it started to water''

''Oh your cheeks are red and you look like you were crying''

''Well I wasn't'' I snap and walk past her into the bathroom stall.

I try my best to distract my mind from going to him. I step into the shower and the warm water feels on my body. I use my cucumber body wash and my lavender shampoo. I stay under the warm water an extra 10 minutes just enjoying it, it's relaxing and it calms me. I just enjoy the shower. I feel bad for being rude to Kate like that when I knew she was just worried about me and looking out for me but I guess I was still fuming from Hero and I's fight earlier, I will go out and apologize to her after.

I hate him and I don't ever want to see him again, I bring my mind back to the present and focus on apologizing to Kate for my rude remark earlier. I don't want to think about him right now or ever again. I just want to forget him and our time together although that's a bit impossible I'll try. I never have to see or hear from him again.

I get out of the shower and change into joggers and a t-shirt before blow-drying my hair.

''I'm sorry for being rude earlier'' I say to Kate as I make my way outside. I'm the last one to make my way outside and everyone else is standing waiting for me.

''It's okay''

''I just wasn't feeling well and I don't know why I acted like that''

''It's okay Sia''

We walk down the trail and head back to the tents. I try my best to keep the conversation between Easton, Kate and I going because every time the place is quiet and I'm alone I seem to think about him.

''Alright since everyone is here I will now announce the good news'' Mr. Mayor says as step out of the tents. He pauses for a moment then continues to speak.

''So everyone good news! They're sending the 5 investigators here tomorrow and they'll be staying with us for 2 weeks and we are going to help them with the investigation. You all will be around 5 of the best paranormal investigators of After Dark Investigations and we will help them with the investigation on finding more evidence on these masked men. This will help you even more and you will witness a real investigation. So we will be staying here for one week and we will hike further up the mountain and stay there for another week.'' Mr. Mayor informs us

As soon as the words 'find more evidence on these masked men' leave his mouth I begin to feel agitated and worried. My mind runs on Hero and I immediately think about warning him that the investigators are coming tomorrow but I remind myself of the horrible things he has done and said to me and it's not my job to warn him. He can survive on his own he doesn't need for me to warn him about their appearance to find him and his group, he'll be fine. I try my best not to think about him but fail miserably, I can't stop thinking about where he is and if he's with her which I know he is. His words replay in my head 'you're weak and pathetic', those words had stung worse than 10 bee stings and I couldn't have felt more humilated, did he really mean that? of course, he did. I'm worried to death about the investigators coming here tomorrow, what if they find something?

What if they find him?

I know he said that I shouldn't worry and that they won't but I'm more worried than ever. I snap out of it, I shouldn't be worrying about someone who has hurt me and doesn't care about me the way he did, he doesn't deserve it, he doesn't deserve someone like me who worries about him more than he worries about himself so I'm not. I'm not gonna worry about him anymore, in fact, I'm not even gonna think about him anymore, it's over and I don't ever have to see him again.

Kate, Easton and I spend the rest of the evening hanging out in our tent, saying the stupidest things and making the funniest jokes. I laugh so much that my eyes start to water a bit, I can't remember the last time I laughed so hard, all I ever do now is cry. Easton makes his way to his tent at almost 10. I check my phone and I have multiple messages and missed calls. I text everyone telling them how my day was and that I will call them tomorrow. I tell them almost everything that I did today leaving out Hero and I's fight. Kate's on the phone with her parents for what seems like an hour now.

I'm a bit tired and so is Kate so we both exchange good night's and turn the lamp off and lie down. Everywhere is really quiet right now, I hate the quiet because the silence and alone time only makes me think about him. I wonder if he's with her right now? I think about our time at the stream, the way he looked at me, the way we kissed and the way he touched me and the way my body responded to him, I was melted at the moment, nothing else in the world existed, it was just me and him.

Tears fill my eyes as I think about our time at the stream, the mountain, and the restaurant. He was so fun and outgoing and nothing like what he looked like at the party, he was a totally different person around his friends. He acted so violent today and I was sure I saw the aggressive side of him today, the way he screamed at me, I was terrified out of my wits, he got so angry, I could see it in his eyes, they were glazed and his fists at his sides looked like he wanted to hit something, maybe everything, I thought he would've just shouted at me and told me how I shouldn't have done that but instead his words and actions were much harsher. The tears started to fall drastically when he threw the brick in my direction, I could've sworn that it was gonna hit me and knock me out but it didn't, thank god!

The part that hurt the most from that terrifying ordeal was when I asked him if he loved her and he said if he does if it makes me jealous, he said he hates everyone but I think he really likes her if not love her. The thought of him loving her or anyone sends an unusual pain down my body, an abominable emotional pain that I've never felt before.

I think he's right maybe I am jealous, yes I am but I can't help it, he was the first person I've shared my most intimate moments with and he made it clear to me before that he doesn't date but I just thought that he was only with me and no one else I didn't think he was still with her but he is.

It hurt me when he said that it would be the only good thing in your life, our moments together meant nothing to him when it meant the world to me.

They make a good couple, Hero and Brooke, she was all over him and he was all over her, they have a lot in common and they're almost the same person, the thought of them together hurts worse than anything else, it even hurts more than when he said that he hates me.

I don't think he liked me, okay well maybe I did but hearing him say that he hates me made me just want to curl up in a ball and lay in my bed for weeks.

How can he hate me? I've never done anything to him but read his messages and listen in on his phonecall but those are not reasons to hate someone.

When I looked into his eyes they were full of hate and anger and I think that's all he's capable of. I should be the one hating him after what I know about him and what he and his group do and after those horrible things he told me.

I was glad yet angry at the fact that he didn't follow me up the trail, I was glad he didn't because maybe he listened to me and is going to leave me alone for sure this time, maybe he's gonna stay away and not ever come around me again as I told him too which I was grateful for, but a part of me also wished that he did to show me that he actually cared about me which I know he doesn't. I'm wasting all my time thinking about him when he couldn't care less about me, I need to stop, he isn't worth it. I should be thinking about the one the person who's worth it, the person who actually loves me and cares for me, the person I've known almost all my life, Nelson, my boyfriend, not the guy I cheated on him with.

I will never tell any of this that happened between Hero and me to Nelson and I will continue my relationship with Nelson and well I will never see Hero again.

I try my best not to think about Hero but I can't, it's all that I think about. After thinking about him and his whereabouts for another hour my eyes start to feel heavy and I eventually fall asleep.