Chapter Nineteen

'How could I have five powerful spirits in my body', I thought to myself. I only asked to be a mage I didn't ask for all this burden.

'Ayxask', I found one name at least. I wanted to know what would happen if I told one of them their name, would they give me more information, or would they grant me the ability to control them, I guess I had to find out by doing it.

The only problem I was going to face now was how to reach them, since their shift from the black into God knows where I have no idea how to find them.

"Hey, Casto! this one doesn't have any useful information, it's just stories made up where the author was imagining what the wielder of the book of wrath may be like", Axy said.

I snapped out of my thinking state, "Oh...sorry I zoned out", I replied.

"You keep doing that".

"Thanks, a lot for your help I guess you are tired from the searching, and I still have to climb back up the stairs", I said to her.

"Yeah...I guess I'm a bit tired, besides you found a bit of information", She responded.

We both went back to the entrance of the library, obviously using the maps because it was almost impossible to know where you are going without them.

We got back to the first shelf in front of the door and dropped back the maps on its shelf and made our way through the door.

The walk up the stairs made me sweat so badly, I felt like my legs would give out with every step I took.

"By the way why do you need the names of the spirits of wrath? Is it connected to why you went on a rampage that day?" She asked.

"I'll tell you the whole story of everything works out fine, I don't want to get my hopes up", I answered.

"Okay, I understand...I guess", she said which made me think that she didn't understand, she just didn't want to be nosy.

By the time we got to the top of the stairs, I was breathing like I had run a marathon.

"How...are you...not...tired?" I asked Axy who was already walking up the stairs toward her room.

"I'm not a whiny baby like you, I work out", she answered. As annoying as she was I didn't bother to comment on that, I was really tired.

I could only summon up enough strength to take a bath, then I laid down on the bed.

"Strig, pull me into the black please", I said before I let the tiredness take me away.

"Open your eyes", I heard Strig say.

I opened my eyes to the darkness once again, the cold freaky black.

"Can other mages move into their subconscious just like this? I keep wondering that", I asked.

"Most high-rank mages can, but it's harder for lower-ranking mages like you, but you're a special case because you've got me to do it for you", He answered.

"So how do I reach the deepest part of my soul to find them?".

"It's your subconscious you are supposed to be able to feel everything that goes on in here". He replied.

"Okay, I guess just focus and try to find them by myself?, wonderful", I said.

I closed my eyes and focus like the first time I found them, this time I had to reach the farthest parts of my subconscious.

This time I decided to be more practical, I imagined energy spreading out from me like a sonar going deeper with each pulse and coming back to give me feedback.

"Good I didn't need to explain anything to you this time, you seem to surprise me every time", Strig commented.

I just smiled at the compliment not responding in other not to lose focus.

It was another five or so minutes before I finally started feeling something deep inside the void, and I started pulling myself toward it.

"Casto! open your eyes", Strig said.

Once again I was I'm the forest where I last saw the spirit of wrath, but it was day and not night. I kept looking around to see if I could see anything other than trees but I couldn't.

"Ayxask!", I called out, if I couldn't see them maybe they could see me or hear me.

All I could still hear were the leaves of the trees rustling, and the wind blowing around me. I closed my eyes again, 'I'll try to find them if they won't come out', I thought.

I began to emit my sonar-like wave, I could feel them there, and at the same time, it was like they weren't there.

'Ayxask', I called again, thus time imagining the name had been emitted through the waves. The lids of my closed eyes began to turn red indicating that there was a light in front of my eyes, so I opened them.

"You are not my master, but you know my name so I will tell you a few things", said the very masculine baritone voice that was coming from the purple light that I was currently looking at.

"We are WRATH! War Rage Anguish Tyranny and Hate, humans call me Despair but I am Anguish I am Pain and if you want to be my master you will have to endure my pain or you will not be able to wield my power".

Immediately after he ended his statement my whole body started to feel hot, my heart felt like it was been yoked out from behind me and I couldn't breathe.

"Stri...Str...Striggg", I called out with a very faint voice.

"The Human soul cannot help you, if you do not survive my pain then you can not be my master", Ayxask said.

When I thought it couldn't get worse, I mean I was already on my knee fighting for breath, I felt thorns being inserted into my body it took its time inserting each one.

'How am I able to feel pain in this form, I thought nothing could affect me here', I thought.

I couldn't breathe so I couldn't scream, and I wanted so much to scream at the top of my voice, but the only thing I could do was cry, tears ran down my cheeks like a baby that had its bone snapped.

I can't even imagine how long I was in that pain before It all went black.