trauma

radhika was sad and looked at karuna ...

radhika : sister i lost my baby ... you know for every women life baby is precious than any thing ... sister i need my baby sister ... i am sobbing like a idiot ..

karuna was looking at me like a crazy dog .....

karuna : hey .. stop crying .... you idiot .. you are crying for a lifeless one ...

i said that it was my baby .. my heart ... sister you know i am dead when my baby died .. sister you are also a woman ... why you didn't stop him ... i want my baby sister .. i want my baby ....

karuna (laughs) : if you cry again ... i will never help you ... i helped you from that idiot ... don't act foolish ... look at the woman right there ... they are same like you .. but they are happy because ... they are surviving ... if you want to survive ..... don't cry anymore ...

sister why are you people so heartless.... we are woman ... we didn't want to do this .. but why they are forcing us .. at the same time he came back ....

you idiot how dare you to say that ...

by my baby death ... i got all courage and looked at him .... you idiot ... you made my baby death ... i will kill you ... i grabbed his collar ... his shirt was half tore ... that person looked at my face and kicks a punch at my stomach ... i was bleeding heavily ... even my hear was some what pained and i lost conscious again ....

they were panicked at my situation and karuna sister was tensed by that she asked to call doctor ...

doctor came to check up ..... i was unconscious ... he checked my condition ..... he looked at them and says some thing ...

he connected some drips in my hands ... nurse was accompanying me ... i opened my eyes ... nurse looked at me with annoyance ... my heart was raced to listen what to hear ...i know i lost my baby ... but what do i do now ..... i only life as a rock... my mind was off from my baby death ..... my baby ... i was screaming and nurse found that i was a nonsense ....

nurse : hey stop this .. it is rather irritating ...

i asked her about my baby ...

nurse : what do you think ... you lost your baby ...

i was sobbing ... no my child never leave me ....sister you didn't check correctly ...

nurse : hey you already bleed ... so much of blood .. now you are suffering with anemia ...

you are mistaken sister ... i am alright ..... you know my baby is still in my womb ....he was listening to you ... dont say that .....

nurse : stop your b*ll s**it ...

how dare you sister ... when my baby grows .. i will tell him that take mommy a good care ....and you see sister ... i will get out from here and i will make my baby to get what he wants ..... i will never leave .....

nurse softens by looking at her condition .....

nurse : see sister ... your baby is dead .... please accept this ...

i was angry at sister and looked at another direction and called my friend to help me but no one is there because i was in hospital .... i was arguing with sister loudly ..... that sister was worried and got fear .... she left my room ... after shouting loudly i was again fell down ....

outside they were talking about my condition ...

i was slightly traumatized by my baby death ....for every girl ...becoming a mother is a gift from god ... how a girl feels when a girl becomes mother .... i was so happy when i found that i am pregnant ... i am carrying a baby .... a life ... inside me ... a life is there and i had to support my baby no matter what happens ... i want to protect my baby ...i had to make his life to be free from this horrible atmosphere .... but everything was ruined because ... they saw me and even caused my abort .... my aborted baby ... he is innocent ... i should be blame for this ...i did nothing but because of my brother ... i become like this ... how can i say a good person .... i had to take all the blame .... i am a killer ... i killed my baby ... i am sorry my baby ... i am sorry because your mother is a useless thing in your world ... please accept my sorry ....

i was crying .. at the same time outside ...

karuna : doctor ... how was she .....?

doctor : she was in a trauma and she lost so much blood and her uterus is damaged... for a time she would avoid sex ... take good care of her ... karuna listened to him and nodded . but that man .... he didn't accept for that ...