care taker

time is 9:30 A.M... may 20 1997 .. i woke in a new place .... i don't where i came ... train stopped at a station ... i didn't have any luggage and i was hungry .... i looked at the money in my hand and want to eat some thing ..... i looked at a stall near by .... i asked that man to give some food ..... it was my first time to come to a strange place .... that man took a bread and gave it to me.... i am very thankful to him ... he looked bad once but looking at pathetic condition ... he gave that ....i am hurry to eat it .... i gave him money and went out .....

may 20 is the day ... i had long been waiting for ... finally i had freedom....i went to roads .... all were .... it didn't have tobacco smell.... the fresh air after a long time .....i was happy ... tears were rolling down ... my freedom was back .... i went out and looked at a auto ... i don't know where to go.... i looked at my appearance .... i wore shanthi madam saree ... this is not she was... she cannot go back to her home because no one were there for her ...

an auto came near to me... and i was about to go ... he stopped and ask me where to go .....

i ask him to go to a slum area ... he was shock ... he took me into a slum area .... i went to see around .... i look at the innocent lives .... mother you abandon me in my childhood... but your girl is brave enough..... he looked at my appearance and called some thing cause and he left me .... i took this as chance and escaped from him... i was running ... my heart was pouncing ...i didn't look back .... i was running .... after running too away ... i bump into a place there was a widow with white saree ....i never saw a woman who was widow walking out .... i walk into her ...

"mam can i know why are you here ..... ?"

i came out from my husband family because he was abusing me all the time so i came out with divorce ...

mam .... can i know where are you going ... ?

for every human they think home is a place where to hide ... but actually it is a prison which locks us ... so we are to go where ever ..

i interrupt her with.... how society thinks ...

society never help while we are bullying ... so what if society says ..... we are social humans but we also a human with self ... so i can live on myself and i am going to work to fill my stomach ... if it hurts i will take it ... but i never take back ... she explain and went away .... i also think same ....

i am sitting in a place and sun is going back to sleep ..... moon was coming ....

i am looking at sides ...but i take a deep breath and went straight ..... a man was looking at me and he came to me .. i took a glance and ask him what he want ...

he replied as i am seeing you mam from start .... i know you are at loss .... but mam don't misunderstood ...but i want to say you that bee courageous women are built with strong .. if they face many bad situations she will be same .... from morning i observe 3 things ..... one is sad who chase me to back in my life ... another is inspiring ....now this one it is rational .... all will say that you are strong but no one will stay for it ... a girl can understand another but me ... i took my cover and gone into a building ... it was a small building ..... one woman came out ....