104 the guilt

Cassius POV

I ran towards my chamber with hurried footsteps.

"Ian, go and call the physician. And take him with you to Marianne.'' I yelled, he could see my anxiousness and left running, without asking further questions.

I closed my eyes and I slumped on my bed. Were they all right, have I been turned into a beast? What had I done? I closed my eyes and touched my lips, no she was wrong, i did not kiss her out of lust or hatred, it was, it was pure. 

If i would have lust then i would have taken her in the past when she tried to seduce me multiple times, i had always tried to maintain her innocence no matter how heartless i had to behave so that one day when we would divorce, she could start a better life. I tried my best to not bind her in the shackles of children and keep her innocence. And i did not hate her, i knew i had been indifferent to her but these days something was changing.