Vicious Cycle

How can I have sympathy,

for those who lack the empathy,

to see?

How they're,

hurting,

me.

I'm choking on your words,

I'm struggling to breathe.

Your shouting's getting louder,

will the onslaught ever cease?

To plague me in my mind.

I wanna leave it behind,

but the voices are getting louder with every minute passing by.

They're drowning out my screams,

they're downing out my pleas.

Feeling lost and hopeless in a never ending sea,

of sadness,

anger,

and mounting INSECURITIES.

My rage is boiling over,

all I see is red.

I'm getting close to snapping,

all I WANT is to make this feeling END.

My chest is getting heavy as you grovel and apologize,

promising your damnedest and your hardest,

to really try.

Things will soon get better,

just you wait and see.

It's been YEARS already,

how much more time do you really need?

Stop making excuses,

own up to all the things you've done.

Then maybe,

we can talk about,

MOVING ON.

I'll never really forgive,

but I'll let myself forget.

Soon I'm falling back into the cycle,

I do regret.

How long I've let myself remain in this situation.

I've yearned for so long to leave,

so what's the hesitation?

The door's right there,

so warm and inviting.

Then you pull me right back in,

what's the,

sense of fighting?

Maybe I'll stay,

just for a little longer.

Things could get better.

I optimistically start to wonder.

If this,

is what it really means to truly love someone.

Ignoring all their bad flaws,

and only embracing the good ones.

I put down my bag,

and find myself running back to you.

We're happy again,

till the next fight starts to ensue.