PART 146

Lucas hold Antonia's hand and while shaking her he said, " Because I care if you die Antonia! How more selfish you want to be? Haven't you had enough taking that bullet and causing immense pain to everyone around you? Why are you like this? To whom are you proving that you are strong? To a monster? What are you even doing?" Lucas said shouting again.

His friends were out of words and shocked would be an understatement. They never saw this side of Lucas. Lucas is the most calm person among them. He always handles situations with a calm mind. But maybe Antonia is someone to her that if she gets hurt he will burn down everything.

" Fucking leave me!" Antonia said removing his hands harshly.

" Who the fuck are you to call me selfish? What do you even know about me? Go hell with your love. Did I ask you to love me? No right? Then don't try to lecture me Lucas. I'm already controlling myself not to beat you up after telling me all these things. Get out from here before I do something wrong." Antonia said.

" Beat me then! But you are selfish Antonia! Yes you have to hear that! I have supported you taking that bullet on behalf of Aurora. But now you are going really out of line! What do you think of yourself? Are you a super woman? No! You are just an ordinary girl Antonia and now you are hurt! Your muscles will be permanently damaged if you try to do these hard trainings! Do you  know you won't even be able to join the war if you practice like this just for two days? Do you have any idea what your reckless decision can do to your health? No! You are just thinking of proving that bustard that you are strong! Why are you being so desperate Antonia! why?" Lucas asked with rage.

" Lucas!" shouting that Antonia slapped him hardly.

The three boys gasped this time. Antonia was shocked too. Lucas closed his eyes feeling the stinging sensation on his cheek. His friends ran towards him hurriedly. They couldn't take that.

Sofia ran hurriedly to Auroras room and found them talking.

" Uncle, Aurora. Antonia is in shooting zone. Please come fast." Sofia said hurriedly.

" What is she doing there?" Aurora asked coming down from bed. She was still dizzy. Mr. Mariano hold her.

" You need to see first. She is going out of control like previous times." Sofia said controlling her breathing. Aurora became shocked hearing that.

" Dad, she needs me. Let's go please."

" Yeah, angel. But be careful. You are still weak." Mr. Mariano said with concern. Aurora didn't listen to him. She ran towards the shooting zone fastly. Sofia and Mr. Mariano followed her.

" What the fuck is wrong with you Antonia? How can you slap him like that?" Leo said with anger.

" Then fucking tell him to stay in his limits!" Antonia said shouting. She was feeling bad too for hurting him but she couldn't control herself. This is why she hates herself. She has no control over these fucking emotions.

" He is in his limits Antonia. You better control yourself. You are really becoming violent." Harry said holding Lucas.

" He is just showing his concerns for you Antonia. What's wrong in that? What did he do to get a slap that hard?" Charlie asked.

" Because he is no one to point out if I'm selfish or not. He is no one to me! I haven't told him to be concerned for me Charlie! He is an outsider. Who is he to show me what is good or bad?" Antonia said again shouting.

" I feel concerned for you because I love you Antonia! My love is not selfish like your one! You love people, you try to protect them while harming yourself. That can be accepted. But when you know you can't help them properly with injured hand but even after that you are unnecessarily causing yourself a permanent damage. What kind of love is that? You are just doing that to console your selfish self! You want to prove that crazy bustard you can monster that you are strong, you can fight back. That you are actually! But who is he even? Why do you need to prove yourself to him? Is he even worthy of your sacrifice Antonia? For whom you are damaging yourself? Tell me! Is he that much important to you that you are ready to give up your health, you are ready to hurt your family even more by hurting yourself? How can you be like that Antonia?" Lucas said with rage. Charlie and Harry hold him not to get any closer to Antonia.

" Shut up! shut up! Who are you? Why are you making comments on my life? It's my life. I can do whatever I want." Antonia said again shouting.

" This is the reason why I have called you selfish!" Lucas said chuckling bitterly.

"Shut up!" Antonia was again going to slap him but someone hold her hand this time. She looked over and found Aurora looking at her.

" What are you doing? How can you slap him? He is our guest Antonia! Where is your manners?" Aurora said still holding her hand.

Antonia didn't reply. She hugged Aurora and started crying loudly.

" He called me selfish Aurora. He.. " Antonia was again having a panic attack. She couldn't complete her sentence.

" Sshh. It's okay. I'm here. Your sister is here Antonia. Don't listen to him okay?" Aurora said running her hands on Antonia's back.

" Take deep breathe Antonia. Don't let any negative word sink into your head." Aurora again said. But Antonia wasn't having it. She was still struggling.

" Antonia" Lucas whispered and tried to get closer.

" Don't come near me!" Antonia shouted. His heart broke hearing that.

" What happened here?" Mr. Mariano asked.

" She was here practicing shooting. I stopped her and shouted on her being furious. I'm sorry for going out my line Sir." Lucas said hiding the pain he was feeling in his heart.

" Yes you went out of your line today! Stay away from me! This is my life and you are no where in the place to shout on me and call me selfish and stop me to do anything I want." Antonia shouted not letting her dad reply.

" Calm down Antonia." Mr. Mariano said looking at her.

" I know I'm no one to you. If you think like that then who is Ronald Richard to you? Why is he so important that you are ready to sacrifice to show him your worth even if are injured badly? Even after knowing showing him your worth will have a permanent effect on you? Why are you getting so worked up about him? If I'm an outsider, he is too. He is not more important than yourself or your family right? Why do you think Aurora can't handle him alone? Why are you panicking like this?" Lucas said with double rage this time. He couldn't understand what is her problem? Why isn't she understanding where is his main concern?