1 When The Hell Is He Getting Home!

8:00 p.m. Friday at The Subway

In the City, people are coming out of work while others just got out of the house to enjoy the night life of Bars and Clubs. A bunch of young adults can be seen already swaying back and forth passing the Subway to probably get even more wasted. Already having the stench of alcohol spreading all over in the air.

Well, clubs and bar hopping sound fun but for Noah, he can't wait to go home and relax. He just finished meeting with Julia to help her with her art work. He wasn't much help but it took a hella long time to help.

He had to stand there for a few hours, take a short break and then continue on. He was a live model, and apparently his look was perfect for her next art work.

He can't wait to get home to read, reading Manhwas and Novels relaxes him and gives him extreme joy. He loves all types of genres but BL has been hitting the right spot for him recently. He doesn't read Toxic Male lead though and stories with smut though. He's been reading nice fluffy BLs with no smut.

He didn't mind it when he was a teen but now…

it just brings back disgusting memories.

He doesn't mind cool and dominate male leads with a little dark personality and a dark backstory but not including s*x or basically SA. He just likes sweet BL Stories. Hes not looking to date anyone at the moment and no way is he hooking up with anyone right now.

He wants to focus on himself, and with what happened before… Dating and hooking up is too much right now.

So reading some romantic moments is just about right for him.

He lets out a sigh.

He hates feeling like this about himself though, he feels pathetic and weak minded that he can't read a basic s*x scene. He knows it's understandable but he's been through tough things in his life and was able to get through it and move on. But this…. He's having trouble to get over. "Ugh whatever I should just continue reading."

Right now though, he feels all bubbly inside reading a cute BL Manhwa scene of the main characters confessing and about to kiss.

'Come on, kiss! Kiss already!'

And then the two characters slowly lean in, with there hot breaths right on there faces. And finally there lips slowly get closer, both of them close there eyes and finally, passionately touch each other's lips.

'Ahhhhhh, Omg! Omg! It's happening!' He chuckles.

Even though it's nothing super inappropriate he feels like he's committing a sin seeing and reading a kissing scene of two guys in public.

From his years of experience he has learned to tilt his phone and lower the brightness to make sure no one sees his screen.

He sqirms in his seat, his face is pouting trying to hide his joy and excitement. His eyes look dead as if he is just scrolling through his phone. No on would know that he's reading the ever so exciting kissing scene of his favorite main characters.

Every time he reads the words on the screen his heart pounds more and more.

Noah can't help but smile reading this and can't control his excitement. He doesn't care if he looks insane, he's tired as f*ck and wants to have some happiness. The two main leads are making out. And the top is a cool domineering guy but super sweet, and the bottom is your typical sweet bubbly character.

He doesn't usually like super bubbly bottoms, he prefers them to at least be a little more realistic and direct but either way this scene is just perfect.

He finished reading the Chapter and turned off his phone. 'Ahhh finally, I was able to have some time to read this.Those two are just too cute.'

He's just arrived to this city about a week ago. And with all the stress of moving and working he didn't really have time to read lots of Chapters. He also needs to prepare for his classes starting this Monday. He is staying at his close friends house, Lucas. He doesn't know how long he can stay in at Lucas house though.

Lucas is pretty chill and would be fine letting him stay but at the end of the day, he feels like he's intruding into Lucas's house. He'll try to either look for a dorm room or later on save enough money for a nice and small apartment.

Brzz brzz!

He feels his phone vibrate and picks it back up. He looks at his phone and sees a message from Julia.

Julia: Noah! Thanks for hanging out today, I know it's tough but I had no one else as angelic as you to be my inspiration for my Masterful artpiece. ( ✧≖ ͜ʖ≖)

Who else looks as good as you. (✿˵ ꒡3꒡˵)

'Lame,' He chuckles. She just loves emoticons.

Julia can't get enough of him and his looks. Not romantically though, they see each other platonically, she can try but she's well aware that he's gay. It's for her artwork and he can't blame her. He has silky short blonde hair with turquoise eyes, his lips where nice and plump and overall well built. He has pearl like skin and isn't too buff but is lean, definitely with defined muscles. A skinny waist with wide shoulders.

He also looks a bit feminine with his seductive fox like eyes and has a mole under his right eye. Looking at him one wouldn't say he's super feminine but he definitely has some soft facial features. He's dressed in a white collard shirt black trousers and ear piercings, rings and a necklace, and lastly with his nice leather dress shoes.

Smirking to himself, He isn't ashamed to admit he's a good looking guy. He's confident and isn't the type to act blind and shy about it. He's not gonna be annoying and talk about it all day but he definitely isn't scared to admit it.

Noah: No problem just invite me out for a drink next time, and never ask me to do that again.

Julia: Yeah, Yeah. ★~(◠‿◕✿)

And just like that, he ignored the text with a smirk and put his phone down. If he responds it will just go on and on. He took a look at his watch, 8:20 p.m.

His eyes feel a little heavy and he gives a long yawn, 'Hraaaaaaaaarrhhhhh'

After reading that BL Manhwa he feels his adrenaline rush for it has gone down and now he feels even more tired after his busy day.

'Ughhh, When the hell is he getting home!'

He's actually pretty tired recently because of those awful nightmares, he hasn't been able to sleep peacefully but he's used to it. Luckily it's not necessarily daily but it sure happens more consistently then he'd like it to be. But he still doesn't want to risk it.

He pouts his face thinking.

He shakes his head, 'No no, I shouldn't sleep now.'

As he thinks that he feels his eye lids feel heavy, he tries to keep them opening but there is no hope. He closes his eyes and falls asleep.

***

He hears a mumbling voice saying something. A stench of alcohol and sweat close by him. He scrunched his face in disgust.

Half asleep he opens his eyes slightly, In his blurred vision he sees the silhouette of a man. He blinks to get his vision back when he sees the man getting closer to him. The smell of alcohol and the silhouette of the man brings back bad memories. In those few seconds it triggers a memory he wished was a just a dream.

Him in a dark room, a man on top of him and not letting him go. The silhouette of the man completely dark and can't be seen except for his disgusting smile. He can feel the rough palms of the man on his wrists and going all over his body.

Disgusting.

That's all he can think about. He wants to get up and beat the shit out of this man but his body won't let him. His body and mind definitely doesn't feel right. As if he doesn't have his full strength and his mind clear.

He vigorously shakes to get the man off of him but nothing works. He isn't a small man but all his effort to get the man off does nothing. The man smile continuing not to faulter, as it there to mock. His eyes red and face full red out of anger and but also extreme fear. His face is still stinging, his whole body is trembling. It can still be seen on his pearl like skin, a red palm mark on his face and his vision is coming and going. His ears ringing non stop.

He is beginning to see that nothing is working and the worst is coming.

"Get off me! Get off me!" I scream.

He is getting frustrated and scared. He never thought he'd be in this situation but he is now there.

The man becomes more rough and undresses him.

His heart drops, 'No, no.' He knows what's going to happen.' His heart starts to pound rapidly as if going to burst out of his chest.

He continues to yell as loud as he can, his throat screeching and starting to hurt.

He can hear the man "tsk" and say, "What a b*tch." The man then puts something in his mouth.' F*ck ,I'm almost completely n*ked.' At this point he is only in his underwear. His eyes are completely red, he can feel liquid trickling down his eyes.

He can't help but think, 'Huh, I haven't cried this hard in a while, who would have thought this would be the reason.' His vision continues to blur even more.

'I've always had a sh*tty life and I've tried to not cry about that but this, this feels too much, what the hell did I do to deserve this.'

I try to move one last time but it's no use.The man leans in and I can feel his body weight on me. His disgusting hot breath in my ear and says,

"You are nothing but a f*cking hole, remember that b*tch! Now stop whining and stay still."

'Sh*t!' Noah can feel tears coming down his face and his hands already trembling. Opening his eyes a little more, he then sees the silhouette of the man again, scared but still disoriented. He mumbles, "No please. Stop, Stop." Then with tears in his eyes he feels the man touch his shoulder and he immediately opens his eyes and pushes the man away. He immediately yells, "GET OFF MEE!"