Chapter Hundred and nine

I watched Emily for the next few hours in pain, I need my best to smooth her and say calming words to her hoping it would reduce the pain, finally, she was putting to bed, I held up to her arms as I watched her push out her baby, I understand the pain she was very now, know pain could ever feel like that but the moment the child comes out, the first cry, It drives all the pain away and joy comes next knowing that such a beautiful thing has come from you. 

I heard the nurse asking her to push one more time and the next minute, theirs was a cry of a baby, my heart burst into endless joy, finally, Emily is a mother. "It's a boy!  I watched a smile lit up her face and now she was shedding tears as they carried him into her arms. " His beautiful" Emily touched his cheeks and laugh, "Note than beautiful" I replied watching the mother and son.

I left the hospital after some hours, it was glad that I was here for her, a little p has clouded my heart now, it all reminded me of when I had Sunny,  the way her cute little eyes stare up at me, tears dropped from my eyes as I drove home, it was already early morning, I think I did some sleep my eyes was heavy and my body was tired but I was glad that she was finally a mother still I would keep calling her my little cousin.  I walked up and opened the door the first scent I perceive was that of Andrew, jeez!! What was wrong with me, I can't keep on like this, the pain keep piercing through my heart, I took a deep breath and walked up to my room.

Back to another lonely night, my eyes caught Sunny's picture beside my bedside, just her smile was enough to light up my day, she was everything that I have, I sigh and walked into the bathroom, this was my everyday routine and I was tired of it, just needed a change being here reminded me of the happiness that I was supposed to have, the happiness that has been stolen away from me, I dragged my feet close to my body and wept, how was I going to survive if everything kept reminding me of my happiness and pain, I don't think I'll able to live with these.

I went to work the next day, at least it brought me the fulfillment that I was doing something to bring down the beast, It gave me the energy I needed in the day and at night I'm slipped of all things and I wished I was in bed with my daughter cuddling her to sleep. "Hello, Mrs. Someone tapped my desk and I looked up to one of the workers. " The manager has summoned you to his office" I nodded with a smile on my face, I dragged myself out of the chair to the hallway. I couldn't bring myself to move out of this circle of pain no matter how hard I tried, I tapped my hand on the door before pushing it open. It was Scott and John at the table, I did my best to keep a cheerful smile on my face.

"Sit! John gestured and I moved ahead to take a seat "you need great yesterday" Scott smiled at me. "I'm familiar with a lot of things even if I had done nothing in years except design. I watched him nod before turning back to John. "As he said, you had done well". " I'll accept the compliment" "We have a business deal going on but we one particular supported to agree with us and the only person who had to take him to is you". " So I have to convince someone". "It's not that easy Sam also needed this one person do what we have to do now is to fight to see we are the ones who he agreed to have a deal with, we can't lose to Sam never again" 

"Sam would be short of words when he sees you that would allow you to win over him" Scott finish. "How I'm I going to convince someone to work with us". " Give him reason to, let him see the potential of our company, what we could do let him not see the reason to look somewhere else, we need him for this deal" Scott answered me and I turned to look at John. Later when we were done with the procedure and little information, Scott left us. I stare at the sheet that heard a lot of information that I need to go through. "You have an eye bag" I heard John speak. "Just a little stress, I respond still not looking up from the sheet on the desk. " You need to stop crying and move on, you can't survive this way" 

I looked up and stare at him. "I'm surviving". He stood and walked to the side cabinet and poured a drink on two wind glasses before walking back and handing me one. " Not for long, you can't stand much till your pain eat you away". He said sipping his glass, I must stare at mine as I wrapped my palm around the glass. "Slowly, you will lose grip of everything around you if you don't do something, I checked your medical report after your daughter has been taken away from you". I stilled in shock. " You don't have the right to do that!  "If you want to get revenge, you have to dysyvalive to do that not dead...you need a medical at Becca, you're slowly dying". " I'm fine, I don't need anyone" I heard him pouring himself another drink. 

"You want revenge, then you have to live for that or else... I'm going to quit you". " You can't do that! I slammed my palm on the desk, making the liquid on my glas to spill little on the desk. "Of course, I can, remember you're not only here for revenge you're also here for to work, I employed you so that you'll find something to hold on to but if you're not capable If doing that because of your health condition I have no other option but to ask you to leave" I shook my head and out it down on the desk. "The pain...it too much, it feels like I'm suffocating" I said shutting my eyes to make tears not to from there.  "You need to go away from here to heal, you can't heal when everything here reminded you of things you wanted to put behind you"

"I can't just leave, I can't leave my daughter here, she's the only one I have" "if you want to be there for your daughter you have to live first"