Chapter Hundred and eighteen

 I couldn't believe that Sunny was crying for that man, I looked back at my daughter who was seated beside me in the car seat. I wanted to shout at her, I wanted to ask her a lot of things but I couldn't even do anything but just stare at her, I felt my heart bleed in pain. I looked back at her again "Sunny, I called and allowed her to look up at me with her teary eyes before focusing back on the road. " Why are you crying? I heard her sniffed back her tears making my heart hurt more, I couldn't believe that she was crying for that man that abandon and hurt me but she was turning seven she is still a kid but it doesn't matter my inside scream.

"Sunny, I called her again " Because... You slapped daddy" she answers staring at me "Daddy? I felt my head soon and anger rage through me, the only thing I could do was to clench my fist tightly on the steering. " Sunny, I called gently trying so much to keep myself calm. "Sunny, remember what I told you I'm your only parent, no matter what anyone says". " But you'll not always be there when I need you" I couldn't take the pain again, I had to park my car to calm my raging heart. "Mum, why did you stop?

She asked looking worriedly at me. "Because mum isn't feeling well" I replied bending my head toward the steering. "Mum, she called again " Yes, I muttered waiting to hear something that would calm me at least. "Daddy said you stole all his money and that's why I couldn't go and watch a movie with mu...aunty Tara" I raised my head to look at her "You wanted to call her mum right? I felt tears sliding down my eyes. "Sunny, you wanted to call someone else mum right? I felt my voice rising in anger, I didn't want that but the pain was good much to bear, watching my daughter taken from me, watching as she called someone mummy in front of me.

Making me seem minor in her eyes, " Did you even recognize me as your mum? I asked her wiping away the tears from my eyes and she nodded, The same people that have made my life a living hell were the same people my daughter now calls mum and dad.  I lean my head down on the steering again, forcing myself to take a deep breath and calm down. I was going to get my daughter back, I have to "Did you believe that your Mummy did what he said" she shook her head, of course, she's confused about who to trust.

I don't ever want to confuse her or make her worried about my feelings and she's too young to know anything but it hurt knowing how she's seen those monsters now. "Mummy, she called without waiting for her to finish what she was saying, I reach for her and embrace her in my arms. "Just remember that mum loves you so much more than anything, I love you Sunny" "I love you mum" I heard her whisper.

I sat on my bed with tears in my eyes, Was I really losing my daughter to them, was I losing Sunny, my baby. "Aaaa!!! I screamed lunging the picture on the beds and to the floor. Why would she call them mum or dad "I want my daughter back, I want my Sunny back" I crouched my heart and wept? "This pain is too much to bear" when I couldn't shed any tears, I lay down on my bed and drift into an uneasy sleep. Would this ever cease, I was her only parent but she choose not to recognize that? She is very happy with them and now Sam tried to poison her mind against me, was this his way to pay me back through my daughter. This was the painful thing ever and I wasn't sure if I would survive it anytime I tried to visit, I just couldn't keep on seeing my daughter grow so close to them. 

The more I tried to grow used to it, the more the pain drives into me, no matter how hard I try I would never get used to seeing my daughter with my worst enemy, never and that leaves me with one option...  I slept in for a whole day, feeling dead anytime I woke up, I wanted to sleep away the pain, I didn't want to wake to the same pain again, I didn't want to keep remembering about my pain, the bad memories it just hurts and sleeping was the only solution. I woke up to the buzzing sound of my face, why do I continue to feel like this, I sigh and picked up my phone from the side of my bed.

"Hmm, I groan and place the phone on my ear " I'm outside", what! What was he doing? I drew the cotton open, it was already dark and he was here, I groaned again and stumbled out of the bed and walked downstairs to the front doors and pulled it open "Thought you were dead" he smiled standing there with a huge grin on his face I wasn't expecting you" I said making a way for him to enter the house "It's a surprise" John came to stand in the middle of the room "well, it caught me off guard" I smiled and lead him to the kitchen mini dining table and poured out a drink for him. R

I watched him drink, God I looked like a mess, I dragged my hand through my hand trying to look half of what was looking now "You looking dead no matter how you much better you're trying to look", he said still focusing on his drink, I sigh snd lean my back to the counter remembering how my daughter has cried for that money my daughter really happy stay with them, does she really think I'm a part-time mum, I sighed again. " I think you also need a drink," he said raising the bottle to me. I stare at it for a while before collecting it from him and gulping half of the content in my mouth. 

"I think I'm losing my daughter' I said looking at the glass of wine In my hand. "Sam made you think that? He asked raising eyebrows at me. " I think he's carrying out his threat even though he's not hurting her, he's poisoning her mind against me" I clenched my fist tightly around the bottle in anger, I just feel distant from my daughter even though I visit her often I feel as if I don't have any place in her life. "I can't keep on with all this! I gulped down the liquid and allowed it to burn my chest. I just wanted to take the pain away, every moment it feels as if I was going crazy knowing that, that monster have my daughter.

" What did you want? John asked still focusing on his drink "I want my daughter back, I can't imagine that he wants to poison her mind against me! I smashed the bottle at the far end of the kitchen, I was losing it, how could I survive and the worst pain is knowing that she is very happy with them... I broke off not minding that he was there.