Chapter Forty one

I snatch the knife from the table holding it toward my wrist, just as I was about to slice my wrist, I heard mum sobbed. If anything happens to you or the child trust me I will commit suicide! No! That wasn't what I wanted, I wanted to release them of a burden, me! I was a burden and a disappointment to them and now this child. I dropped the knife on the floor and weep, how could I be this selfish, how could I be blinded like this without knowing that I was landing in a mess. Walking toward the door, I unbolt it and mum rushed gathering me in her arms, I turned my head and saw aunt worried face and Emily's too. "Don't scare us like that again" aunt smiled at me. Later when we all sat at the dining table, I stare at the food without having any appetite. "You don't have to state at the food like that, it meant for you to eat. Even if you're not hungry, it's for the sake of your baby" I heard aunt said, I looked up and smiled at her. Picking up my spoon, I scooped some into my mouth, wow! It tastes good, so good that It made me carve for more without realizing it, I finished the food on my plate. I didn't know when last I ate this much, I stare up from my plate and saw all three staring at me with a smile "I wish you eat like this always" mum smiled at me I smiled back at her even, we heard the door clicked open and we all turned toward the door. Dad! I looked down on my plate not daring to stare up at him, I think he had enough of my failure and disappointment and I don't want to hurt him more by showing my face to him  "I think I'll go up to my room" I announced before upstairs. Lying on my bed now, I have wished for nothing but my family happiness but now, I was the one bringing shame and unhappiness to them. "Becca! I opened my eyes and saw Emily standing beside the window, I stood up to walk to her. She turned and hugged me, " you're not a failure if that what you think, people make mistakes that those not mean they have to live in it. We move on, she withdrew from me,  so....tell me what you will name your child? She asked changing the topic as she drew me to sit beside the window maybe you can name get after me. Her? I turned to stare at her, "yes! I know she will be a girl, I shook my head smiling "I have to wait to know" I said still not wrapping my mind up that I was pregnant, the baby was made from love, even though I know sad is angry at me but one day, he will forgive me, I hope that would happen and thinking about it he has to know about our child maybe this would bring us back together maybe he will forgive me an....and he will love me the way he always does, I will have to tell him about our child but the question now is when and how? Mum would never allow me to go back to his house, he doesn't pick my calls again and his office.....I have to find a way to tell him, I have to.

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