Chapter Fifty

"So how would you like to learn".  I stare at the building he has driven to a stop before looking at him for an answer but he smiles getting out of the car, I didn't wait for him to come and open mine before I slide out from the car.

 I was done with all that queenly stuff and doing it only reminds me of one person I now want to get off from my mind. "How would you like working as an interior designer". 

" But... "You don't have to worry, he places his hand off my shoulder " Come I'll show you" he lead me inside, he just waved at the receptionist and made his way to the elevator slowing down a bit for me to catch up with him. 

"You're going to meet with Mandy a friend of mine who owns this place, she going to help you read all the necessary design you need, and even you become skilled in designing then you can start working for people, you can give me the feedback of what you when you're back" he smiled just then the elevator door slide open, 

I couldn't stop to admire the beautiful designs on the wall "wow! I muttered feeding my eyes with the beautiful design " Hi! there" I saw a young beautiful woman come out from an office to hug Andrew.

 "Thought you wouldn't make it" she smiled sweetly at him before averting her eyes looking at me. "Hi! dear"  am Mandy Andrew has told me a lot about you, Becca!  right! She spoke hugging me

 "yeah! I will be leaving you ladies to go" he glanced back at his watch giving me a reassuring smile before walking back to the elevator. "Don't worry, he has given me a severe warning not to bother you" she held me gently leading me to the office which she described as hers.

 When she has explained the details and how the system works, I fell in love with the work instantly, she showed me a ton of beautiful design photos and art. "Wow! I couldn't stop marveling at the beauty.

 Later she took me to the ground floor for lunch explaining that the bill was on the company, how wonderful. When she dropped me off at home, I couldn't help but wonder why she was so nice to me or was she just doing it because of Andrew I just shrugged, not wanting anything to bother me. 

I couldn't stop chattering to an aunt about the job  " I fell in love with every designed there" I said in between food "I think, I can do it".  

I called Andrew later at night to tell him that I love the new job, this was going to be a fresh start for me, I can earn and also enjoy doing something that I love.

I called mum and filled her in with the details, she was worried at first but I ensured her that it was okay, that it will help keep me busy and occupied with something.

I came back from work, months later not feeling okay or happy with anything even though I was not overworking or anything Andrew and Mandy made sure of that.

 I felt suffocated staying at the house, picking up my phone I dialed the number of the only friend I've seen to grow comfortable with Mandy, I just need to go out but I know aunt won't allow that, and Emily was studying for her final exams. She picked up on the second ring. 

" Hi, baby! She called "feeling restless without me" she was always cheerful and I admire that about her. "Are you free". " Any problem, she asked I could hear the worry in her voice "Yes! Everything is fine, I was just wondering if you go out with me". 

 " oh! Sure and ready for anywhere" she killed and I gave her the location, satisfied that I was going to have a nice evening. I looked down at my bulging belly. "Guess what baby, we are going out for a nice evening walk" I have grown accustomed to talking to my baby like that, this was already my sixth month, I can't wait to have my baby in my arms. 

I smile rubbing my hand gently only stomach "Time to get dress" I whispered then search through my wardrobe for a comfortable long gown. These days I don't bother applying anything on my face or bother about my look as far as I was looking okay.

We took a stroll on long city bridge before seating on the bench eating our cup noodles that were what I was carving for the evening. I ate about five cups before getting satisfied. "I wonder if I'm going to eat this way when I get pregnant" she smiled and I just shrugged

 "I was having trouble at first thinking it not normal for me to eat like a beast" I laughed "aunt and Andrew assured me it was normal during pregnancy, so I guess you eat more than me"  "oh! Then I will get prepared for that".  I sigh resting my head on her shoulder.

 " Sometimes I get unnecessarily worried".  "It's okay, you don't have to worry about anything when we are all here for you". " That means am lucky" I smiled shutting my eyes for some minutes am I boring you" I whispered to her. 

"No! You're not, I needed this too, just happy now everything seems to fall into place, I sat up to look at her. " you know Andrew wasn't himself since his wife died " "married?  My eyes grew wide in shock " yes he was married, am surprised you didn't know about that, his wife died in a car accident and since then he has lost it, he engrossed deeply in his work not minding or talking to anyone, but everything is now going well since you arrived am happy for that. 

"Me? She nodded with a smile, even though I didn't know how my arrival has made anything alright, I just choose not to answer. " how many years have they been married". " for three years, so sad right" she turned to look at me sadly. "Her wife was one of the best designers we have in our company, we still miss her energizing attitude" I was speechless not knowing what to say or feel. 

"So terrible, I didn't even know that he was married" I smiled sadly to myself seeing how someone's life has sadly turned but his smile and cheerful attitude didn't even reveal that he has a hard life. 

"Your aunt was there to support him whenever he needs it, I think that's why they were so tight"  "sometimes I don't even think I will make it the next day, just remembering the mistakes and terrible decisions I've made feel like shutting everyone out.

But how can I when I have so many loving people by my side and seeing now how someone move on after having a terrible incident in their life have motivated me to live of not for one thing but my child? 

Am only living for my child now, because it is the only thing that makes life meaningful to me now" I felt Mandy's warm hand squeeze mine. I am only living for my child.