Figuring things out

"Just eat and drink lots of water, you're too dehydrated, I'll also make some porridge for you"

He merely looked at me and then took a big breath of frustration and held my hand. His was much warmer compared to my cold ones, after experiencing three days without sleep and food, I could feel my cheeks losing its usual roundness as well as making my chin look sharper.

All in all, I look like a skeletal figurine straight out of a science classroom.

Looking absently at Li Jun's back, I closed my eyes and welcome my enemy, and also, my companion.

Darkness.

The smell of warm food traveled its way towards my nose up to my stomach, creating a rumble of noise indicating my severed abused stomach who seems to have awoken due to the smell.

"Here, I already cooled it down so you can eat it properly" Due to my instincts as a human, I already gathered the bowl in front of me.

But my hands seems to have weakened itself from too much fatigue and gave up, fortunately, Li Jun's hands held my weak hands and took the bowl of porridge off of me.

"You are too weak, here, I'll do it" He said while he scoop out a spoonful of warm porridge on me.

"I can do it" I whispered, still sore from my shouts earlier.

"For once let me help you I know-"

His words angered me, the bomb in my head was immediately lighted and it is making me spout everything I've been trying to bury.

"I don't need your help! You don't know everything I-"

"I know............I know Eiri"

For once, I look at him properly.

Now, there is only a guy who is looking hopeless at me, his shirt crumpled and hair in a mess. He look like he just got into a battle in which he didn't returned into victory.

He is no longer the man I used to despise, the man that is confident, his head held high with his usual arrogance and egoistic self.

Now, I am looking at a man who lose all of it when he faced me.

He is weak.

For me.

"I cannot accept your feelings" I coldly spat.

It is much more better to say it today than to leave him hanging into a future I know I wouldn't give him.

"I know..........but I'm still hoping.........like...you"

His words were small, he seem so resigned about his statement. It looks like he is sure of my answer, like me, he is still hoping for someone to love him.

"I believe in the quote that Love conquers All"

Looking at his face, whether it was in the past or today, he didn't seem like the type to believe in those quotes, well who am I to blame for?

After all, I am someone like him

"You have people to rely on,people that loves you and will take the risk to help you. Because I do think that its a little unfair for them, they are waiting. They are here for you, while you....you are wallowing in pain, not noticing that they are feeling the same way like you do."

Blinking away the tears, I fought a sob that is about to rang out. His words hit me, I know he's right, I know that he is only looking out for me.

After I hurt him, blamed him, this is all I can do.

I'm nothing but a weak woman.

"You are not weak, your face says it all. I know what you're thinking but just for once, don't think, just feel. Your heart will guide you, and I know its a little bit unrealistic and so cliche to say but, just follow your heart and it will lead you to your desired wish"

He hold his hand in front of me, his hands were hesitating, still unsure whether he should held my and or not. Feeling a bit funny, I laugh making his hands frozed midway.

"Let's go out, I need to sort things out" I held his hands and left the room to wash.

After finishing up, I step downstairs and here he is, still looking up, he must have thought that I wouldn't be persuaded about his words.

"Come on Li Jun, after talking to my friends and family, were going to hel a press conference. I will make it even for you"

"Ha! You don't actually ahve to I mean-"

"T-Thank you...for everything......and I-I'm so-sorry"

"Its fine"

I hope it is.