Unpleasant life

I always wonder why am i like this. People say South Korea is an amazing place to live but my life is hell. Or maybe i made it a hellhole. WHATEVER. Life sucks. I am not slightly interested in anything at all, everything is just a big mess. I don't have any friends , well i have about 50 diplomatic fake friends but they don't count.

I like imagining things that aren't possible in reality. It's because i don't have any objective, kids of my age are busy planning their future and working hard like donkeys. The problem with me is i don't like working hard. I am a total introvert who is busy in ruining her own life. I am an outcast at school, yes i am and i am okay with it .

Living in a Goshiwon could be really frustrating if you want to live a peaceful life , last year my parents sent me to study in the most prestigious high school of Busan , Busan High School of Arts, it is quite expensive to study there as the fees they charge is very high. Along with that i am living in a goshiwon so that i can focus on my studies. I live on ramen noodles and yakult. Even though i am a slug, i have to work hard to survive on my own , i do part time job at Namusairo Coffee ( a coffee shop in south korea) and make some money to buy me essentials. But i only work on weekends because i am pretty much free those days. My class's girls are crazy over kpop music but i don't give a fuck about it , listening music is a big deal for me , it bothers me when my classmates make me listen to kpop songs, so i just stay away from it. I don't even like kdramas . i just dont like anything. eww . hate . hate . hate.