Prologue: why oh why

Why do I need to live a life following them?

Why am I not allowed to decide for myself? For how long will I stay living for their dreams?

I have my own goal to pursue, why can't they understand?

I thought when I have my college degree they will allow me to decide for myself, then why can't they understand that I just wanted to have an ordinary life at the countryside

Why can't they understand it?

Is it hard to believe that I wanted to have a simple life and leave my comfort zone? And is this comfort zone really a place where I feel safe or at ease?

"Parents know best" they tell, but what if, what they wanted strangles me away from what is best.

And what is really "best": is it a thing I can be proud of; is it a thing I can to be happy for; is it a thing that will make me feel fulfilled?

Why do I need to keep asking this to myself, when I have no choice but to follow them.