Chapter 19

I don't deserve Elizabeth. " I said silently as I opened the door to where the drinks were kept. Shawn was right, I was a player and I can't just change all of a sudden. What if its just lust, what if I'm sexually attracted to her and I think its love. What if I just have to bang someone, its been a while I haven't had sex in weeks just because its her I can't seem to get out of my head. What if I just need to get laid, Shawn is right, I'm bad news for Elizabeth. I don't deserve her.

I picked the first bottle of vodka and I drowned it all in one shot. My back pressed against the wall as I drowned the second bottle of vodka. As I picked the third one, and placed it in my mouth the door opened abruptly to reveal just the girl I was thinking about.

Am I hallucinating now?. Adam get a grip of yourself, you are bad for her. I drank from the bottle again as I looked away from my imagination. I watched as the girl drank a bottle of vodka and hissed as swear words came out of her mouth. Her hand on the table as she took a breathe.

She placed the drink in her mouth again but didn't take a sip this time, then her hands shot up to her face only for the bottle to fall and break into pieces. She looked down and I could see her eyes filled with tears. Thats when it clicked, its Elizabeth. But what the hell was she doing here?.

" Elizabeth ? " I called out even before I could stop myself. As soon as I said her name she looked up at me with her blue eyes watery from the unshed tears. Her lips quavering and then she looked away as quickly as she looked at me.

I walked away from the wall and dropped the bottle of vodka that I was holding. I was tipsy but not drunk so I know what I'm seeing and hearing too. She bent down to pick the shattered glass, ignoring my presence completely.

Why do I even like her?. She is cold and rude.

I bent down beside her and I reached out to touch her, she hissed and moved away from my touch. Hurt filled my veins as I stared at her.

" do you hate me that much that you can't bare to touch me ? " I said and frowned, hurt overtaking me.

" I don't hate you " she stated and continued to pick the glass.

" then look at me for fuck's sake " I yelled

" do not yell at me and don't swear at me too " she yelled back.

" look at me Elizabeth " I whispered as I lifted her face up to look into my eyes.

" let me go " she said and shifted away. She lost her balance making her fall, injuring her hand in the process.

" I'm sorry. " I said and try to lift her up, she jerks her hand away from mine and I'm starting to lose my patience. I thought we were friends now.

" look Adam. Don't touch me " she said and stood up and then walked fast to the door. As soon as she opened it, I turned her back to look at me. A tear fell from her eyes at that moment and I wanted to wipe it away, but I didn't.

" Adam let me go. " she hissed and glared at me

" what's wrong?. I thought I was your friend ? " I asked her, hurt very visible in my voice.

" you are not my friend so stop following me!. " she lashed out at me and I removed my hand from hers. " you are not even my friend so you have no right to pry into my life!!! " with that she left me there standing like a fool. One thing was very sure at that moment. I sure as hell was done with trying to get her attention....

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ELIZABETH:

DREAM....

I get up from the floor after falling. Dad was very hot on my trail as he chased me. Tears kept falling from my eyed as I imagined whether my mum was still alive or if he had killed her. I ran and continue to run until I stop at Dena's house.

" Dena " I yelled with all my might. I could hear crickets sounding because it was already so late. I just hope she is not yet asleep.

" Dena!! " I increased my voice and I looked back to check if dad was coming but I didn't see him.

" Radena! " I yelled. The door opened to reveal Radena in black leather pants and black jacket with a cricket bat in her hands. She actually looked funny

" I'm here. Don't wake my parents " she whispered and dragged me into the garage.

" he is coming " I said to her and she did a shut up sign with her hand and lips.

" I know. And we have to be ready " she said and I frowned at her.

" this isn't a comic dena. Mum is in the house " I said and broke down in tears. She hugs me immediately and drops the bat.

" I know baby. Don't worry your mum will be alright. Let's just get to safety first. " she said and pulled me up. I wiped the dirt off my body and stood up

" where are we going ? " I asked her.

" to where I do my business " she said and I opened my mouth in shock.

" you are taking me where you fuck ? " I asked admits the tears

" if you weren't so cute right I'd slap the madness out of you " she said and smiled.

" we are going to my secret place. " she said

" where is that " I asked

" come on " she said and grabbed the touch light before pulling me along with her ...

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" come on its Shawn " I said and entered the room but Alex isn't far behind me.

" its a date " she stated for the tenth time as she dumped herself on my bed.

" no its not " I said and she rolled her eyes. " I don't know why I let you in my house in the first place and I'm still mad at you " I added and opened the closet

" well I'm your friend and why are you mad at me ? " she asked me.

" well you didn't tell me your brother was going to keep following us every where. He better not drive us to school on Monday or I will unfriend you forever " I said and she chuckled.

" fine fine I'm sorry. But he wanted to I couldn't refuse him. Okay I can't promise there won't be a next time " she said and I shot her a glare " but..but I will give you a heads up first " she added.

" good " I said " now help me pick what to wear " I added and she stood up and giggled.

" I thought you'd never ask " she said as she walked up to me. She pushed me with her hip and then stood in front of my closet...

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" I look.. " " I look fantastic " I said and hugged her really tight. Well after sitting on the bed rejecting almost all the clothes Alex brought out, I finally found one I loved and I looked good in it.

It was a white floral pattered dress that dropped just on my knees with a black leather boot to match, light make up and my hair down in its natural red curls.

" oh my god I'm good " Alex said behind me and I rolled my eyes at her

" so when will he be here ? " she asked me all giddy and happy. One will think she is the one going on a date.

Its not a date

Oh really

Yes now shut up!

" he should be here in 5 minutes " I stated and picked my black purse as we walked down the stairs to the kitchen where mum was baking yet again. She was baking a lot these days. She felt our presence and turned to look at us

" good taste this... " she looked at me and opened her mouth " god honey you look great " she said and grinned.

" that is what I said and its my artwork thank you " Alex said and mum laughed.

" thanks. What were you saying earlier " I asked mum

" oh nothing. Alex can help, my baby is finally going on a date at last " mum said, sounding just like Alex. I snorted.

" this is not my first date " I countered

" oh yes there was this study date with this guy in 6th grade then " she said and I laughed.

" seriously honey you look nice. I'm happy that its all past you now " she said and I frowned and looked st Alex.

" what's all past you ? " Alex asked

This was one of those times when you wish you would fly away.I was thinking of what to say when the doorbell rang. Thank you Jesus.

" I will get the door " I said and ignored the giggling coming from my mum and my best friend.

With one last breathe, I opened the door only to take another breathe at the sight of Shawn, standing there holding a white rose. He was in casual clothes and yet I could feel the heat radiating between us. Yes maybe this was what I needed to get Adam out of my head.

Wait what did I say Adam?

I can't believe I said his name

I shouldn't be thinking of him right now, its unfair to Shawn

Snap out of it Betty cooper.

" Betty " I looked up at Shawn who was holding out the flower to me.

" thank you " I said and I collected it.

" you look pretty " he commented me. I smiled.

" you look good too " I said and I wasn't lying. He looked hot. Yellow is really is color.

" thanks " he muttered scratching his head.

" you are welcome. " I said

" should we go or do I need to say hi ? " he asked me.

" no I will just grab my jacket and my purse " I said and turned back to see mum and Alex behind the door with smiles.

Fuck me

" oh hi Shawn " mum said and I internally slapped myself.

" good evening Mrs walkers " he said politely.

" oh call me Brenda " she said and smiled.

Uhmm

" okay mum we are going to be late. " I said and pulled Shawn

" bye Mrs walkers " Shawn called out

" Brenda " mum answered and I waved at her before she closed the door.

As I walked to the driveway I could almost hear mum and Alex giggling and chatting about how Shawn was hot and how we would make wonderful babies. I blushed

" where are we going ? " I asked as he opened his car for me.

" my dad's place " he stated and buckled his seatbelt. I did the same thing too.

" I don't think I'm ready to meet your parents yet " I said before I could stop myself. His laughter filled the car and it was somehow soothing. I was confused too. Why was he laughing

" I mean my dad's restaurant. He owns a place " he said and I looked down and played with my hands in embarrassment.

" okay " I muttered and he drove into the road back.

Way to go. You embarrassed yourself.

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" thanks for dinner Shawn, I enjoyed myself " I stated as we got back to my house. We were still in the car though.

" thanks for letting me buy you dinner " he said and I smiled. All evening he had been nothing but sweet all night long. I can get used to having a boyfriend like this.

" I said do you want me to walk you to the door ? " he said

" oh no. Its fine. " I said and unbuckled my seatbelt and the moved to open the door when he held my hand.

" yes " I whispered and stared at him. He inched in closer and I moved back.

Does he want to kiss me

Isn't it too early?

His lips touched my cheek and I stared at him in amusement. He didn't kiss me

" I would like to take you out again another time " he said.. " on a date " he added and my mouth opened.

" I..I don't know what to say " I said

" its fine. I don't want to rush you, you can think about it " he said and squeezed my hand.

" bye " he whispered and I nodded before getting out of the car.

I walked up to the porch and was praying not to trip because I know he was still looking at me. As soon as I got to the door I opened it quickly and got into the house. I could hear his engine come alive as he drove away from my house

With my back pressed against the door, I took deep breathes and then exhaled. I repeated it for a while before putting my hand on my cheek.

What the hell just happened.....