Part 5

"After that day Sia never slept properly at night". That person left her with many unanswered questions. Sia wanted to know how he could do those things and she couldn't. And this mystery was making her stressful. She started searching about these things on Google she got many book recommendations to read, most of them were in either Sanskrit or Pali and some of them were in total foreign language. She was thankful that she got one book on that subject that she could understand.

She bought it from the private library with the help of the code and the place location given on that website. When she was reading books, it warned her "Please first discipline and train your mind to handle these power practices otherwise you have to take its negative consequences. And also advised to do these practices under knowledgeable teacher guidance". But she ignored all the facts and just started reading.

There were many things to learn in that book but she chose to learn how to heal others. She started practicing it but nothing worked, there was no sign that it was working or not.

After one week, when she was doing her practice, she burned her palm with the energy she was trying to stimulate. She learned that she was doing something wrong in the practice. She started again from the beginning to practice it in the right direction. But this time she was suffering from her mind. She was not able to focus on one thing. She thought she must stop doing these practices.

She didn't study and practice it the whole week.

Then she realized that she had to first discipline her mind. Then only she can do the practices very efficiently and effectively. But she needs something or some way to discipline her mind. She was unable to find the answer. She suffered the whole month because she thought she couldn't control her mind. And in this way, she made herself more vulnerable.

She started dreaming of bad things, which she couldn't bear in her heart. She thought to herself that she had to be hospitalized in the mental asylum.

Her determination, her mental strength, her intelligence, her everything. She lost herself in the dark, where she can find no answer. She was unable to understand why and what was happening to her.

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