1 {CHAPTER 1}

Look before I begin to tell you about my life that's happening right now. I'm going to need to take it back a few months so you can catch up on what a shitty boreing life I have. It's not normal. I'm not normal.

Let's get this straight NOBODY IS NORMAL. Nothing is.

How I met the guy I fell and is still in love with, is currently on a death hunt because of me.

Who is he is looking for?

Me.

Technically his and my dads gangs and my whole family is looking for me.

And right now I'm on the run.

Why? Why am I on the run?

Well to cut to chase I said something I haven't said to anyone in a long time over 4 years.

And that was 2 years ago.

And you will know why.

Soon.

And all I wanted was a new beginning but life decided to stick it up my ass.

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2 years earlier.

So I started off rough huh.

I was tired of moving because Its to much and my mother is lazy. By lazy I mean, she does nothing but drink and fuck guys.

So we moved a lot and instead of working, my brother has to work to keep this family going. Oh did I say, family? Yea, 3 kids actually. Me, my 19-year-old brother, Jonas, and my 12-year- old sister, Katrina.

Everything went to shit when my dad died. My Mom just got married to him when they had my sister. And then he died. Like seriously who just gets married and 2 months later accidentally died in a plane crash. I don't think that accidentally happens. I just don't really actually get it. I'm not trying to sound like a bitch of a daughter but can you blame me. I'm a 17-year old fucking girl who's dad died out of nowhere. I guess it just hurts to know the truth.

So here I am on my new bed in a somewhat type of house I guess. I don't really know what it is. Let's just say house. But let's see how long it last.

We're poor so we live in a one story house that has 4 bedrooms for us.

My room is quite neat but empty cause you never know if we have to move for like the 30th time in my life. Let's just say it's a struggle that happens to this family a lot.

I was in the middle of my thoughts when I heard my phone my ring. I look to see who it was and when I read it I literally froze at the number.

WHAT THE HELL.

Why is he calling me?

At this time. In my mood. Oh hell naw. I answer as the ringing was fading.

"What the hell do you want. " I said angrily.

" Well, damn good morning to you too, baby girl," What the fuck did he just say.

Now I can feel my anger rising by second. Yea second not minute.

" I am not your motherfucking baby girl, Derrick. Your baby girl is probably sleeping around with another guy you know and continuing to be like a bitch ass hoe she is!" I said loudly.

And too loudly because Jonas comes in and takes the phone for me.

"tu puta culo hijo de puta deja de llamar al teléfono de mi hermana antes de que te golpee el culo a 6 pies y no olvides que si llegas a 2 pies cerca de mi hermana, ya no podrás poner ese tic tac en nadie más," I look at him wide-eyed and then bust out laughing when he hung up.

(In English it says,you bitch ass motherfucker stop calling my sisters phone before i beat your ass 6 feet under and dont forget if you even come 2 feet close to my sis again you wont be able to stick that tic tac in anyone anymore, just so you know.)

" What....the...hell," I said in between breaths while laughing. "All you had to say is a' leave her alone' and he would have hung up but you just had to do him out like that."

" Well I'm trying to sleep and I'm not going to let your bitch ass ex-boyfriend, keyword bitch, disturb my sleep." He said.

" oh so it's my fault you cant go to sleep cause he wants to call early in the morning," I said rolling my eyes.

" Yeah, basically," He nodded and with that, he left the room.

Ughh and I wonder why I act the way I do. Actually, it's my moms but I hate her so I blame Jonas.

After that my phone alarm started to go off and it is loud enough for Jonas to hear. The reason I know why is because he yelled a few seconds later it went off.

"God dammit, Kathrine!" He yelled and I laughed.

I went to get dress and luckily I kept the clothes from my last home. Even though my mom said throw it away, I kept it. Then she would mention my dad for no reason. She kept blaming him for every little bad thing I do. And I wouldn't say it's the little things I do. I mean I have done some really bad things in my life. But I know it's worth it though.

Hahahahaha. I'm a bad girl.

Once I got done getting dressed I went to Katrina's room down the hall, to see if she was up.

And she wasn't, as usual. You would think a 12-year-old would wake up during the ruckus but not her.

When she was young like a baby my parents use to fight. During the 2 months, I didn't know I had left before he died, all they did was argue. I seriously got sick of it. So it really doesn't matter now, does it?

I went to the right side of the bed where she was sleeping and I shook her to wake up.

" Huh..." she said.

" You need to get up for school, sweetie," I said gently.

" I don't want to go," she responded

" WELL, YOU HAVE TO!" I yelled and pulled the covers right off her.

" Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh," she said loudly. Enough to hear our beloved brother yelling at her.

" GET YOUR LAZY ASS UP KATRINA BEFORE I MAKE YOU." He yelled from basically the other side of the house.

Oh god this doesn't get old at all.

" MAKE ME YOU ASSHOLE," She yelled back. And yes we do allow our 12-year-old sister cuss. But that is inside not outside.

But the next thing I knew I saw Jonas storming in the room picking Katrina up and throwing her over his shoulder. Then i saw her trying to escape by wiggling her way out of it and to be honest it didn't really do much. That's when I saw them heading toward the bathroom down the hall with her. I grab her clothes for her and head to the bathroom to give it to her.

" 10 minutest Rina," I said. It is a weird nickname but Jonas gave it to her because she cant be called Kat cause my nickname is Kat.

I went to go see what my mom is doing and she just is laying on her bed passed out. I saw pills on the side of her bed.

Jesus this woman.

I went to go pick it up and when I did she wakes up.

"What the hell are doing," She said scowling at me.

"I'm throwing these away," I said going to the kitchen.

"No! Kathrine give them back," She yelled at me.

"No!" I said turning around to face her and I saw her leaning on the door way to the kitchen. "You need to get your shit together." And with that I open the bottle and poor the pills down the drown and I hear her screaming at me. I shook my head.

Only if my dad was here.

Jonas came in and took mom back to her room.

Then I hear a honk. That's Katrina's bus.

"Katrina your bus is here," Jonas yelled while we were walking to the front door.

Then she came running up and waved us bye and went to the bus.

When they pulled off Jonas went to his car. "Ready?" He asked.

I scowled at him. He laughed and we got in the car and went to the high school.

So here we are in Riverside, California. A new school.A new life. And hopefully a new beginning.

After Jonas had dropped me off at school. He told me to be careful and be safe at all times. I can never get used to it. He's just too protective.

I walk in and that's when I heard a bell and army of students just going out of classrooms and started walking the same direction.

I didn't know where to go so I just step out of way really quick instead of being the smart one and follow them.

Dumb me.

" No, you can't just do that." I heard a voice from the other direction from the students and turned to see who it was. It was a girl around my age and look like she was in a deep convo with another student.

" Oh, and why is that." I heard another voice but this was definitely a guys voice.

" Because if you skip and dip like you did last time you're going to get fired and you know how your dad is."

" Well right now I don't give a flying fuck. Because if my dad really wants me to keep clean 'till May. He better step up his game 'cause I'm not something he uses when he needs it." the deep voice said.

Okay enough easdroping, time to find your classes.

"A-" she was cut off when I accidentally started to walk and I slip and hit the floor but I didn't shield my face.

Why. My beautiful face.

The next thing I said I totally....don't regret.

" SON OF MOTHERFUCKER!" I yelled it so loudly that last few students who were walking in, which I suppose is the gym, stop and look at me wierd.

I make no sense.

Okay well I have a problem of not making sense when I cuss when certain bad things happen, like now.

And right now I'm in bad deal of pain cause its not like my hands couldnt SAVE ME FROM FALLING ON MY FACE!!!

Then the girl who was talking to the deep voice guy came up to me screaming a little. Worrying if I was okay.

"Oh my god. Are you okay!" which now she was helping me up.

I stood up with a pounding in my head.

Then I notice something hit my shirt.

No.

Breath.

No.

Breath.

No.

" You have got to be fucking shitting me," I said. I touch my forehead and feel the blood that was now dripping on my face. " Where's your restroom," I said to her.

" Umm... you sure you don't want to see the nurse." She said softly.

No I dont you fucking twat.

It's not her fault.

I KNOW!

" I can take care of my fucking self. I don't need a low life nurse to help. Trust me I have been through way worse. Now would you please show me the restroom." I said to her. Regretting saying what I just said.

Not the nurse though.

I don't mean to be rude at all. I just really hate nurses. I mean really, really, really,really, really, hate them.

I don't know why I just hate it.

Change that I do. They are always so nice like I get it. Make sure the person doesn't feel bad. But saying your gonna be okay when the next day comes wont help. If you know what I mean.

" Oh. Umm...Well, it just down the hall on your right." she said, that was not what I wanted her to do.

I wanted her to show me. Not tell me.

Nicely.

Calmly.

Gentle.

It's not her fault.

" Can you just show me please," I said while gritting nicely with a smile.

" Oh well. Come on," she said softly.

I turned to follow her and the last thing I saw was that deep voice guy disappearing through the front doors.

We went down the main hallway, I think.

Once she showed me to the restroom. I hurried up and fix my wound. It was pretty bad.

Oh thank you Jonas for the bandages and first aid kit. I'm telling you he knows me to well.

Once I started to pack everything up, she started to tell me like everything about the school. And she kept going on and on and on until I finally had the courage to tell her to stop.

She seemed so innocent and kind, sweet, and the type of person who cares way to much. I didn't want to be mean.

But I had to stop her from talking.

" Hey, Hey, Hey" She stops and looked at me. " Look you seem like a nice girl but I just want to get through the rest of junior year and senior year. I can learn all those things in the next year and 3 months. Okay."

" Okay." She looks at me with shock and confusion. Which started to confuse me too.

"Ummm....did I say something to offend you or-," I was cut off immediately by her.

" Oh, nononononononono," She said quickly " I.... just....never ever met someone like you."

" What do you mean?" I asked I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Um.....well your sorta....out there," She looked like she was scared to say that.

Oh if only this girl new.

I chuckled a little then said " Oh, honey you have nothing to worried about. I have been there thousands of times. Telling me that I'm out there doesn't bother me,"

"Oh, um well I'm Jessica West," She giggles as she holds out her hand.

" I'm Kathrine. Kathrine Strange." I said shaking her hand.

And since that Jessica has become a new friend to me.

We talked about the school and how the guy she was arguing with was her cousin. Ace West. Bad news apparently but of you know me.

Huh. I'm all about bad news.

We walk out of the bathroom and down the hall where we came from and started to talk some more but not much.

" So where did you come from?" She asked.

It hurt to say where I came from and it hurt even more that I had to say but I guess she saw my worriedness because she started to say something but I cut her off.

" I come from a place I really don't like to think about or talk about," I said quickly.

" It's okay. I'll give you some time and when you're ready. I'm here for you." She said. " Are you ready cause you don't look nervous but some people are really good at hiding feelings so-,"

" Yes, I'm ready. I am never nervous." I said. I really don't care what people think of me. It's not like I haven't suffered worse.

She opened the gym doors and as soon as we were in everybody look who it was. There was this young woman in a black tight skirt with a white button shirt standing on a stage and there were seats. I must be tripping why would there be a stage in the gym.

I turned around trying to find my mistake and there it was.

This was the Auditorium.

Ughhhh.

First day and I'm already tripping. I wonder what else could go wrong. And right when I said it the unthinkable happen.

" Oh, well hello Miss West." She said to Jessica.

"Don't worry she just like to think of me as a bad girl because my brother. So every time I'm late, she puts it out." Jessica whispered to me. I look at her and nodded. Well this one is gonna be fun. She wants a bad girl well she just got one. " Well isn't Ms. Chambers." She said to her.

" Yea well if you dont mind taken your seat while I get the new girl settle." She said and I immediately took in my say before it was to late.

"Uh. No thank you Ms.Chambers. Jessica was plenty of help." I added quickly.

"Oh are you sure." She said with a fake smile. And I thought like bitch I can see that you really could care less.

"Yea. I'm pretty sure." I said. "And I'm going to sit in the back where you can't see me until this is over."

"Um. You can't do that." She said bluntly.

"And why can't I?" I asked. I literally was about to blow my head off right now.

"What's your name miss." She said calmly.

"Kathrine. Katherine Strange." I said back.

She gave me a weird look.

"Strange. I feel like I heard that before." She said.

When she said that I was literally have a heart attack and anxiety attack at the same fucking time.

You think bitch, you feel.

I didn't really know what to do so I just stood there shock. After what feel likes 10 seconds passed by I finally spoke.

"Well where do you think the name came from." I said quiet but loud enough of her to hear.

"A man I saw. He was substituting for one of our teachers. He was here a few weeks ago as i recall. His name was Thomas Strange." She said. And at that I almost lost. I looked down and started think what I should do.

I laughed and she looked at me.

"You jokeing right," I said.

"I'm a afraid I'm not, he was a sub here," She said.

I walk straight out of there into the bathroom I was in before.

As I went to one of the stalls i sunk down and started to cry.I started to think and think about what just got said and I started thinking to myself;

This is impossible.

It's not true. She's lying she doesn't know anything.

Maybe it's true.

"It's not true, it's not true, it's not true..... He's dead. For over 10 years he has been dead," I said to myself.

There's only one way to find out.

His tattoo of his cross.

I walk out of the bathroom back in the auditorium. Everyone looked back at me weirdly. I could really care less.

This is going to change my life forever.

And I ask the question that will change how I feel the rest of day and the rest of my life. When I walk in I saw everyone looked at me but I really didn't care I just wanted to know one thing and one thing only.

" I have one more question about the man." I said.

"What is it?" She asked wiery.

I started to walk down the aisle that led to the stage and took out my phone to pull up what my dad cross tattoo look like and as I show her I asked the one question.

"Did he have this tattoo on his neck." I said while she was looking.

And the she looked at me and nodded.

That's it I'm going to die.

I can't have a life where things can be simple. That's all.

My dad is alive and I can't even start on how I feel.

It's not real. And this pain needs to go away.

Well my first day went to shit.

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Hey, guys, this is like the second book I started writing only because I think I should start working on something like this.

This is technically my first and it would really help to tell me what you think and please vote.

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Oh and also there will not be much of an author's note at the end.

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