TWH: Chap 9

I'm worried

Pumasok ako sa bahay namin. Bumuntong-hininga ako ng maalala na naman ang memories namin dito nina mama't papa.

Five years ng patay si Mama. Namatay siya dahil sa atake sa puso nang iwan kami ni papa dahil mas pinili niyang makasama 'yung kabit niya kaysa sa amin. Hindi ko inakalang magagawa sa'min 'yon ni papa, never niya kami pinagbuhatan ng kamay. Lagi lang kaming masaya noon araw-araw na hindi talaga namin matanggap na magagawa ni papa'ng ipagpalit kami sa ibang babae. Sobrang sakit para sa anak na tulad ko ang malaman iyon, magko-kolehiyo na ako noon ng mangyari 'yon. Hindi ko lubos maisip  kung paano pumasok sa isip ni papa na ipagpalit kami ng gano'n-gano'n na lang.

Habang pinapakiusapan ni mama si papa na 'wag kaming iwan, bigla na lang siyang kinapos ng hininga, at inatake sa puso.

Sobrang sakit makita 'yung nanay mong sinusugod sa hospital. Buong biyahe papuntang ospital ay sinisisiko ng paulit-ulit si papa, sobra-sobra ang iyak ko ng mga panahong iyon.

Si papa ang unang lalaki na sumira sa tiwala ko pagdating sa mga lalaki. At dumating si Jerico. Minahal ko siya, pero noong unang makita ko siyang may babae, unti-unti ng napapawi 'yung tiwala ko sa kanya kaya naging ganito ang relasiyon namin. Walang ng kwenta.

Halos manlumo ako at magwala sa ospital ng ibinalita na lang sa amin ng doctor na hindi na naka-survive pa si mama. Simula noon, tumuloy na lang ako sa tiya ko sa probinsiya at nagsimulang muli ng hindi na kasama ang nanay at tatay ko. Pinangako ko kay mama na ipagpapatuloy ko ang pag-aaral at ang pangarap naming maging successful fashion designer ako. At sa tingin ko, matutupad ko na ito dahil kayna mam rissa at sir romuel.

Halos mag-iisang oras na ang nakalipas ng makarating ako sa bahay namin pero wala pa ring Jerico na dumadating. Tinawagan ko na siya.

(Hello Fionna? I'm sorry hindi na pala-)

Binabaan ko siya ng tawag at humilig sa sofa. Ganito na lang ba tayo Jerico? Nakikipag-lokohan ka ba sa akin?

I texted my friend Max.

To: Max

    It went not good. He didn't go here. Then I'll break up to him next week.

I drove back to Keoz unit. I felt shallow in my heart when i arrived the unit and he was just playing video games there. Buti pa siya walang kaproble-problema, naglalaro lang ng video games. Samantalang ako rito hindi na naman naging maganda ang nangyari sa amin ni Jerico. Hindi ko na siya pinansin dahil naalala ko na naman 'yung nangyari sa amin kanina. Ugh, that's embarassing! I was in the middle of the stairs when he spoke.

"Where have you been?" I heard him wrapping up his game already. I sighed.

"In the.. tailor shop," I was about to continue whe he asked me again.

"Don't lie to me, you weren't there," I rolled my eyes then turned to him.

"So you are stalking me?" I asked. He shot his brows on me.

"What's wrong with that? Malay ko ba kung totoo 'yung sinasabi mo. At tama ako, hindi ka nga sa shop pumunta," he started to walked to me. My heart leaped because of i-don't-fucking-know.

His eyes narrowed at me, "Tell me, where did you go?" He advanced a step. He is now so close to me. His gaze was suffocating and intimidating. He even licked his lower lip so my eyes darted there. Damn.

"I.. I went to my house?" his brows arched. I can feel his breathe from here, and it smells so good. I had an advantage because i advance a step from him.

"Because?" he continue. I rolled my eyes and sighed.

"Why do you care? Ugh!" I turned my back on him but I was caught off guard when he pushed me in the railings and put both of his hands on my sides. I swallowed hard. Our eyes locked again. Those eyes.. I loved it.

"Keoz.." he shamelessly eyed my lips and starting to moved his head closer to me again! We're lips are about to touch when my phone suddenly rang!

"E-Excuse me," I ran towards my room and locked the door. I let out a breathe. So I wasn't breathing all the time he caught me off guard?!

"Hello," I heard a woman in the other line. I checked the caller once again and it was really Jerico who called me. My breathing hitched and I can feel how my blood boils now.

"Who is this? Where's my boyfriend?" I asked calmly. I inhaled and exhaled. Bumibilis na ang paghinga ko ngayon dahil sa galit.

The girl in the other line chuckled, "You're boyfriend? I thought you already broke up kasi hindi na siya nagpaparamdam sa'yo?" I clenched my fist. Nanginginig na ako ngayon.

"Who are you?! Ang kapal mo namang sabihin sa'kin 'yan!" I started to cry again.

She laughed more, "Oh dear, are you crying? Kaya naman pala iniwan ka eh. Ang pabebe mo.."

"Sino ka ba?! Tanginang pabebe 'yan! Gago!" I cursed her a lot.

"Oh, my boyfriend Jerico just came out of the bathroom now. And he's freaking hot! Bye!" I throw my phone in my bed. I cry silently. I sat on the back of the door. I curled my legs and hugged it.

Why can't a man just focused theirselves with only just one girl? Is it that hard to do?

"Fion.. are you okay? I'm worried," I sobbed.

In this kind of situation, someone will still care for you and comfort you no matter what happened. And i have this someone, and it's Keoz.